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Date Posted: 01:31:24 11/29/14 Sat
Author: Alicia
Subject: In The Same Breath (Pt 1)..Continuation of Say Something/How Far

Standard Disclaimers. However, I do take full credit for all mistakes, omissions, grammatical incongruities, and overall angst.

Mac sat there for a moment, trying to gather her thoughts. She was the one who insisted on coming here, yet suddenly this was the last place she wanted to be. Maybe, she thought to herself, she should have just left things as they were. That worked in the past…well, sort of. Yet, here she was now forcing his hand, and hers at the same time. She didn’t like this feeling. It was a feeling that brought all of her defenses blaring back to the surface. She was feeling trapped. At least in the past, she was the one in control, or had at least convinced herself she was. However, in a matter of minutes he somehow was able to change that. ‘Damn, you Harm’, she thought. However, deep down she also acknowledged she wasn’t being fair to him. Logically, she knew it wasn’t just about her, her hurt and her pain. She did see that tonight. Nevertheless, emotionally right now, she couldn’t move beyond herself. Of all the men who traveled in and out of her life, none had the effect on her like the man standing across from her. No other man had the power to hurt her like he did either.

Finally, she let herself ask, “What happened tonight, Harm?”

He stood there with his arms folded. “You tell me.” She could see by the look on his face that he was not going to let her do what she had done before. He was not going to let her deflect their issues, and her reactions solely onto him.

“I don’t know”, she sighed. “One minute we were eating ice cream, and the next………………..….you’re what………….walking out of my life again?” She got up and started walking around.

“I think you missed a few things in between Mac.”

“You were pressuring me Harm.”

“Funny, I just thought I asked you a simple question.”

“Nothing is ever simple with you Harm. Isn’t that your line……complications? Aren’t I the one who makes complicated things too simple?”

Harm took a slow sip from his water bottle, and placed it on the counter. He wasn’t going to go there with her. Instead of answering her question, to her surprise, he posed his own. “Mac………what is it you want from me?”

She wasn’t prepared for the question, or its directness, although it was one she had been asking herself for years. It too, on the surface, was a simple question. Yet for her, it was one wrought with complications. And it still was a question she was not ready to answer. She stood there in silence looking at anything but him.

Harm chuckled softly. “You know for someone who drove here to talk about everything, you really don’t seem to have much to say.”

“Maybe I had less to say than I thought.”

He walked to her, and stood directly in front of her. “Mac, why did you come here tonight?”

“I think maybe I just should go.” She turned from him and walked toward the door.

“Ok.” He walked back to the counter and took a seat.

She was taken aback by his quick response, and stopped in front of the door, keeping her back to him. “That’s it?.. Ok?”

“Yeah….. That’s it Mac. If you want to go, I am not going to try and stop you. I love you Mac….but….”

Startled by his words, she turned around. “What did you just say?”

“I said I love you Mac.” He said it with no hesitation, no reservation, as if he had said it a hundred times before. In his own way he had. The only difference now was the words finally caught up.

“Just like always, Harm. You wait until I am walking out the door……” She responded so quickly, that she didn’t allow what he said to really register. He just said he loved her. There were days she thought she would have given anything to hear him utter those words. Now that he did, she simply used them against him.

“That’s not true, Mac.”

For a moment, Mac felt frozen in place. She didn’t want to stay. She didn’t want to go. She turned back and looked at him, hoping he could see the apology in her eyes. She then turned around and walked out the door.

Harm just sat there, trying to absorb what just happened. He wasn’t quite sure what he was expecting, but this wasn’t it. At the same time, he wasn’t surprised by her leaving. Similar moments in the past were as much a part of their history as anything else. It did surprise him though that, although he knew he wouldn’t, there was still a part of him that wanted to go after her. As he stood up, she came walking back through the door.

“I guess I will have that tea now.”

Harm smiled at her. “I’m glad you decided to come back.”

He began busying himself with making the tea. It was looking like it was going be a long night after all. She again took a seat at the counter.

“Why do we always wind up here?” she asked.

“I wish I knew. I don’t know… maybe it’s inevitable. I do know I don’t want to hurt you anymore Mac….and I…….” Harm let his words drift off.

“Don’t want to be hurt by me, anymore. It’s ok, you can say it. I know I’ve hurt you Harm. Maybe I just didn’t realize how much until tonight.”

To be continued……………………………………………………..

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[> OMG ! I can't stop to want to know what follows !! Please, Alicia, update as soon as you can. :) -- Laurence, 06:00:10 11/29/14 Sat [1]


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[> More conversation now. This is so good. -- Beth, 07:45:27 11/29/14 Sat [1]


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[> This is soooooooo good more please and soon. -- Bev uk, 12:11:01 11/29/14 Sat [1]


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[> As much as the word is over used, 'WOW', great read Alicia. Waiting for part 2! -- JoyZ, 23:35:52 12/01/14 Mon [1]


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