Date Posted:12:54:05 03/30/04 Tue Author: Sara Subject: Very Guilty
I married my husband because we had a child together, and I felt that was the right thing to do. We moved 3 states away from my family to be near his family who hates me. When we moved here he was physically violent with me twice, and I did not leave because I had no where to go. Things got better, and we have been here for a couple of years.
I recently left my husband to be with a man I met and fell in love with at work. I am struggling so bad with feelings of guilt because I know divorce is wrong, and my husband had been good to me in the last days of our marriage. He has moved back home and he calls me all the time trying to reconcile. I feel like I should go back to him, even though I can't imagine being truly happy if I made that decision. I am in love, and happy now, but Unbelievably guilty, and suffering emotionally over this. I feel so alone, and scared. I want to be happy, and I want my husband to be happy, I just don't know how that is supposed to work. We are both christians, he has renewed his luke warm faith since the separation, and I have started attending church. I don't know what to do. I want so much to be happy, and not hurt anymore people.
