Date Posted:17:54:22 02/06/07 Tue Author: N Subject: Releasing myself from other addictions
When I consider time these days I have a tendency to overestimate the amount that has passed. However long it has been, the passing seems doubled in days.
For this I have mixed feelings. I'm sorry there are not more hours in a day to do more. I am grateful that I am busy living and doing. I'm also glad that I perceive the time away from drinking as longer than it actually has been. Because of this I think I'm ready to start letting go of some of my other self-destructive habits. Smoking being the #1 most destructive one. Because quitting smoking, in the past, has been rough, and because SSH was so successful for me, I am considering using their aversion therapy program to stop smoking also. (I understand it's rough too, but, at least, no duffy's. Phew!) Some may say I am a glutton for punishment. I think, on the contrary, I've punished myself enough, and aversion therapy is a much easier route to take. Only because, I have been both routes. One where cravings felt as bad as the addiction, and the other that was rough for a short time, but left me with no cravings whatsoever.
I suspect that this time, even with aversion therapy, giving up other addictions will prove to be much easier. The reason being - not only have I already once given up abusing a substance, but I have been given more tools to better understand, like, and even, love, myself. My self-confidence and self-esteem are at much better levels than they were before. (Just like my liver enzyme count levels, got to keep track of those esteem and confidence levels.) I understand now, how to not fall into the self-deprecation trap. That trap that has a tendency to help keep an addiction healthy, instead of killing it off.
So, when I go to give up caffeine and sugar, it should be a piece of cake(fruit juice sweetened, of course).
I want life so much now. I can't help but want better health for myself in ever increasing doses.
Hope everyone is well!
