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Date Posted: 07:04:59 02/15/07 Thu
Author: cathy
Subject: Re: Thinking of going to SSH - encouragement needed!
In reply to: Jacqueline 's message, "Re: Thinking of going to SSH - encouragement needed!" on 00:30:32 02/15/07 Thu

Jacqueline,

Good Job on making your appointment! You have made a great decision and will look back after the treatment and wonder why you did not do it sooner.

I graduated almost 3 months ago(Nov 23) but it feels so much longer since my LIFE has become FULL again. It's hard for me to explain. When I used to drink, three months would go by and the days would seem so long and empty. I would sit around on a sober day (usually a day I would have to take off from work because of "brown bottle flu") and try to think of what I have accomplished (nothing), beat myself up for not getting things done and then promise myself I would accomplish goals/tasks that I just "haven't had time for". After those few hours of self abuse and giving myself the personal pep rally, I would feel better, have the "no more drinking after today" toast and the whole cycle would start again... another 3 months of broken promises, accomplishing nothing and feeling like crap.

Now that everyday after Shick has been a sober day there just aren't enough hours to get everything done! I make it a point to spend at least 10 minutes each morning thinking of the things I have accomplished the day before and I never have time to make it through the entire list because I am too eager to get going on what I want to get done today. For instance, I have been meaning to post to this site for 2 months but by the time I read all of the great postings and think "wow... that is totally what I am going through and I couldn't have said it better... I will reply later" ...but later never comes because I have too much to do.

You mentioned that you have a high pressure job and you have been feeling yourself "slipping". Been there. That is one of the many reasons I decided to go to Schick. I thought about it for 2 years but was not quite ready and then one day, 4 months ago, I gave myself a scare at work and knew I needed help. I have a high pressure job and deal with a lot of peoples lives and money as well as my company's. A major mistake could lead to great ruin. I have had this job for 20 years and have been drinking for about 20 years. I know my job like the back of my hand but had started to feel myself slipping. I noticed myself making little mistakes that I never used to make before or take shortcuts (so I could get to drinking faster) but since nobody looks over my shoulder I would catch the mistakes before any harm was done. The last mistake I caught was a big one and scared me into calling in sick for 2 weeks while I sat at home drinking and beating myself up for all of the problems that my alcohol abuse had caused. It is sad to say but I kept myself drunk while I made my appointment to go into Shick the following day. I knew that if I sobered up I would manage to talk myself out of it again.

I was scared and my voice was shaky when I called my boss to tell him what I was going to do. He was extremely supportive and told me to take as much time as I needed because "he wanted and needed me back and he didn't mean to the jobsite". He knew I had a problem and I am sure he noticed mistakes that I thought I had covered up well. I knew there was no turning back... and although drinking was my comfort zone... I did not want to feel that way any longer.

Although your decision to go to Schick is a scary one, think about how scary it would be to have to tell your boss you just made a $25,000 mistake or got a DUI and have to go to jail or something.

Congrats in your decision! You will be amazed how much better you will feel. The Schick staff is incredible and the people you meet there are amazingly friendly and uniquely inspirational.

Feel free to email me anytime.

GOTTA GO!

Cathy

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