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Date Posted: 20:00:30 09/08/08 Mon
Author: Nanette
Subject: Wow, another addiction tackled & 2 yrs sober!

It's been a very long time since I have written an original post here. And, as I sit here writing this I realize it has been appx. 2 yrs. since I left the SSH program. Wow...seems a lifetime ago.
I decided this past April, when my son turned 18 years old, that it was time for me to let go of another addiction. Nicotine. It has now been 5 1/2 mos. I had tried to quit on several occasions in the past, but had a really tough time and was unable to succeed. Strange as it may seem, this time, I can truthfully say, was easy. I think I had been practicing what I had been taught at SSH for a long enough period of time I was able to just let go of this habit I had had for more than 20 years. I prepared for the worst, but, after not drinking for so long, and learning not to care about it one way or the other, I was able to apply that to giving up another addiction. So, like how a feel about alcohol, I just shrugged my shoulders, and with it, shrugged off the smoking habit. (I did start another habit to replace that one though...I started riding a bike to and from work. I hadn't rode a bike in over 10 years, and had not bought myself one in over 20. I love riding my bike! I forgot how much fun it is. I feel like a kid again! And it is so right in so many ways.)
I am free. I feel completely free. And I want whomever may read this to know that I have not been leading an entirely charmed life either. Yeah, I think things go pretty smoothly for me now, but that's not because life is not in the habit of throwing sticks and stones at me. I have debt I wish I didn't have, my father-in-law is dying of lung cancer and just went through radiation and chemo-therapy, I just put my only son, who happens to be deaf, on a plane to go to college clear across the country, on the other coast...(yeah, huge mix of feelings there), my husband just left to work out at sea and won't be back until mid-January, which means I am alone, completely, in my home for the first time in years. I found out this last winter I have mono, and I'm still getting over it (probably take the greater part of the year to wrestle with it)...and on, and etc. I could be feeling tight and trapped and in need of some relief from a substance, but, I don't. Not at all. I have a lot of positive things going on too. It's not all sour around here. It's just a nice life, with lots of adventure, tons of love, some huge disappointments, a few minor obstacles, and is very, very busy.
Two years ago, I would never have imagined how completely I would be able to call my life my very own. On occasion I do re-read the posts here. They are nice reminders.
I hope everyone that has graduated has been able to gain their lives back, and are free.

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