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Date Posted: 04:57:36 05/23/02 Thu
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In reply to:
aleXX
's message, "Wednesday May 22, Late at night" on 19:04:49 05/22/02 Wed
Alexxx,
Well here I am again!I can't resist this thing!I have to hear from you!I guess things are okay!The house is calm now...I had a brief bout of tears,everyone was out of the house I laid in my babies bed and it just hit me,I was so tired and I missed you so much.They had a great first day of summer,quality time I don't know about that they spent most of the day outside and visiting their friends around the neighborhood.I didn't mind not being the hangout for once though!I hope that you do call...I just hope that you call before nine or after 11:30 because I have to go to the school this morning at 10:am.I hope that you are okay!I worry about you!I worry that I am not helping with all of this sometimes I wonder if I am in the way if I am causing more problems with you because of my own!I don't want to do that.I worry about you when you love someone you really do want the best for them ya know...I am very selfish sometimes and I realize this I don't seem to be able to over ride my emotions sometimes to see that you might just need to deal with your problems with out me adding my problems to your list and for that I am sorry!I want you to know that I want you to do for you make your self happy because we both know that if you are not happy with yourself no one else can make you happy.I want to make you happy I don't want to cause you pain...I LOVE YOU don't you know that boy I LOVE YOU and I want good things for you,I see so much...things I think you would love to do,things you have not been able to do for one reason or another .I know there are alot of things I have not been able to do that you have and I hope one day we can share these things!You know,I'll kind of take you back to the basics,like you said hop on a 4-wheeler and go slop in the mudd,put a little cheese in your life.I have to say you are going to think this is crazy,but I want you to take me for a ride on a tractor!I don't even know if you have one to be honest but,I was thinking about the land and the way it is and just climbing on this big ole thing and zooming around on it...I don't know crazy or what!I also want you to show me things in differant places that you've been.I hear you talk about things sometimes and it makes me want to grab you and say take me there,show me!I remember you talking about the seaside how you like the way things are...I love the ocean breeze the way things smell believe it or not I like that fishy water smell,salt,the sulfer smell doesn't even bother me actually it tends to excite me.I associate alot of things with smell...like the sulfer thing just reminds me I am somewhere else,that I am not in the swamps anymore.I even associate this place with smell!There's a road that goes deep into the country,towards the swamp that you have to go down to get to my moms F-inlaws house down here,it smells like trees,fish, water,and I don't know if you have really ever stopped to think about what wet red clay smells like a dirt road,but it smells like that and it also feels abot 10 degrees cooler because the further you go down the road the more trees there are!Okay,I have rambled enough about that.I am going to get off of here it's about that time,I think I might be able to catch you in chat!I LOVE YOU my sweetALexxx.
ALWAYS
I LOVE YOU
JeNNN
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