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>I guess crying is relative. I don't think I ever got a >real spanking that didn't leave me in tears. I was a >crybaby when it came to spankings. Even one that >didn't really hurt would would still bring tears. I >don't know if it was the embarrassment or the fear of >pain, or just having my feelings hurt. A good example >was I got a spanking with a plastic ruler when I was >in first grade. It was over my jeans and I didn't even >really feel it. But I cried like a baby. Most of the >spankings I got at school didn't hurt all that much, >but they hurt my feelings. So I would usually cry at >least a little. I would try to hold it in when I was >at school even though I was scared and embarrassed, >but once it started, the waterworks turned on. > >Spankings at home, forget it.. I always ended up >crying even in my teens. It was as much from the >embarrassment as it was the pain. When Momma spanked >me in front of Mark, I tried as hard as I could not to >cry. Not out of defiance to her but I just didn't want >him to see me cry. I managed to not bawl like a baby, >but I couldn't hold the tears back. When she let me >tell him good night, I tried to wipe the tears away >but they were streaming and my make up was a mess. >When I talked to him the next day after Church, we >were walking together and I apologized for him having >to watch me get spanked and for seeing me cry. I told >him how embarrassed I was and that I know I had to be >a real mess with my make up running. He hugged me and >said it was a beautiful mess. > >Now I never cried when I got birthday spankings or >playful spankings. Sometimes the playful ones were >almost as hard as the real thing, but I never cried >when I got them. I also mentioned in another thread >about a teacher I had a serious crush on. When I found >out he was engaged, it really hurt my feelings and I >got really hateful toward him. I was really that >jealous. It finally came to a head and he kept me >after school one day. He probably intended to paddle >me but he wanted to talk to me to see what was going >on with me. He kept trying to find out what was wrong >and what he did to make me so angry at him. I asked if >he was going to paddle me and he told me, "Not if I >don't have to." then he asked me again what was going >on. I didn't know if he was going to get mad or tell >me I was being stupid but I finally blurted out that I >loved him. He got me to calm down a little and just >sat and talked with me. After we had talked for a >while, I asked him again if he was going to paddle me. >He looked a little puzzled and asked me, "Do you think >you deserve it?" I nodded my head and said that I >think I did. So he had me follow him to his desk, and >he got his paddle out. Then he had me lean over with >my hands on the desk. I braced myself and my eyes were >starting to well up a little, but then he gave me just >two really light pops, then said, " think that'll do >it." Then he put the paddle up. I was kind of worried >because it was more than an hour past dismissal and I >was afraid I'd get in trouble. So he took me home and >said he'd talk to my Momma. After we went in, He and >Momma sat down to talk and I was asked to go to my >room. So I told him bye and I'd see him in the >morning. After he left, Momma came in my room and sat >down with me and we had a woman to woman talk. No she >didn't spank me for getting in trouble at school that >time. He was still my favorite teacher and I guess I >still had a little bit of a crush, but I started >noticing Mark not long after that and had a crush on >him that I still have today. > >So no, when it came to real spankings, I was a crybaby.

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