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Subject: Re: Boys what's your story about your first dry orgasm? Author: Spencer 1999 [ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ] Date Posted: 15:12:26 03/28/26 Sat Author Host/IP: 72.52.87.21 In reply to: Naked Questions 's message, "Boys what's your story about your first dry orgasm?" on 10:54:58 03/28/26 Sat Ok so here is my story and just so you all know I will be writing it from my perspective at the time and for privacy reasons all the names have been altered but the ages are real. Just to be as vague as possible I'm a male born in May of 1999 and this takes place in the North East United States. So for the characters in this story there is me Spencer, my cousin Brittany who is my dad's brother's kid who is 11 years older than me and 10 years older than Joey. Joey is my dad's sister's kid who is 1 year older than me. Also Brittany is my Uncle Drew's kid and Joey is my Aunt Casey’s kid. Back when I was growing up my Uncle Drew had a timeshare membership at this casino about 45 minutes away from my town and he would invite his siblings and their significant others (my Aunts and Uncles) to stay the night. The timeshare had 3 king sized bedrooms for each couple and one kids bedroom with bunk beds and a large bed for me and my cousins or their friends to stay over on occasions also all of the bedrooms had a private bathroom. In the basement there was a playroom with video games, pool table, board games, a foosball table, and other stuff I can't remember. Our parents would go out to the casino or other grown up entertainment around 7:00 P.M and not return until 2:00 A.M. During that time my cousin Brittany would be in charge of me and my cousin Joey. She would do the maternal duties such as giving us a bath, making sure we brush our teeth and tucking us into bed, ect. This would happen every other Friday so it was a bi-weekly timeshare. One time when I was 6 years old Brittany was giving me and Joey a bath and noticed when cleaning us we both had a stiffy. Now she wasn't like my mom when she cleaned me. Brittany was very thorough. She would use hand soap and a washcloth on every part of our body including under the fingernails, behind the ears, scrub our backs. Also she would take a washcloth in between my butt cheeks and scrub hard. Last but not least she would give special attention to our private parts by pumping hand soap on her soft hands, rubbing the soap spreading on our private areas very thoroughly it felt very intimate. As you can imagine this would result in me blushing when I got hard. She would whisper in my ear and say softly don't worry, nothing to be ashamed about, it's only natural then she would kiss me on the cheek and then do the same to Joey. When we got out of the bath and she started drying us with a towel then she said wow those bad boys won't go down. They might need a pp tickle to get them down. Me and Joey confused asked what's a pp tickle? She said well follow me to the bedroom and I will show you. Me and Joey, now in the bedroom with towels wrapped around our waist, were instructed by her to sit on the end of the big bed next to each other in the kids bedroom. She told the both of us to lay down at the end of the bed and if you feel uncomfortable or something hurts please tell me and I will stop immediately. She said now close your eyes. I remember laying down as she took the towel off of me then Joey, she spread my legs apart, and then did the same to Joey. Brittany got on her knees in between me and Joey. The cold breeze blew over my groin. Brittany said ok I see you boys are soft again but do you still want your pp tickle? We shook our heads nodding yes at the same time. She said ok here we go and she started playing with our privates (mostly tickling and massaging our balls), Joey with Brittney's left hand me with Brittney's right hand it took about 2 minutes before we became stiff again. Brittany asked us, So how does it feel? We opened our eyes and Joey replied it feels icky but nice. Brittany then asked do you want me to stop? In unison me and Joey said NO! Brittany smiling said ok ok but now listen to me carefully you are going to feel like you need to go pp just let it happen ok that's when she started pumping out polls up and down. I asked will pp come out? She said no you're too young! I closed my eyes again to enjoy this moment of intense pleasure then I heard Joey moaning saying I think I really need to go pp. I turned my head to look at Joey as his hips were rhythmically moving as Brittany pumped him. Then I heard a loud moan as Joey climaxed. Then Brittany said good job baby boy kissed him on the lips and his head. Joey out of breath whispers to me it feels really good at the end. Brittany, now fully focused on me, She took the hand that was on Joey and used it to play with my family jewels. It started feeling really intense. Joey kissed me on the cheek and said you got this little cousin, then 30 seconds later my toes curled up and I climaxed. I opened my eyes to see Britney staring at me with a smirk then she kissed my lips and said good job baby boy! I almost wasn't sure if you were too young to do it but I’m proud of what such a big boy you are Spencer. Brittany laid down to the left of me. Brittany and Joey gave me a kiss on each cheek at the same time. I never felt so loved and cared for in my life. Then Brittney washed the sweat off of my body with a baby wipe and I passed out. The next thing I know I have my PJ's on under my blanket in bed. Joey wakes me up and whispers in my ear we can't tell our parents what Brittany did to us last night because those are big kid things and our parents won't let us do it again. I told him ok it can be a secret. This stuff happened almost every two weeks except for holidays and it definitely improved my relationship with my cousins. About 8 months later I'm 7 and Joey is 8. (We are a year and 11 days apart btw). We are doing our usual bath routine and Brittany says well since you are a year older now (our birthdays just passed) I think it's time to learn a new activity. Confused me and Joey asked what do you mean? Brittany says do you want me to show you a kissy pp massage? We said yes not knowing exactly what that is yet. We get out of the bath and excitedly head to the bedroom when Brittany calls Spencer and says you're up first. I laid down on the bed in the usual position. Brittany says first let's make this pp hard and proceeds to start kissing my family jewels, each one slowly then my rod and everywhere in between. She starts with slow kissing and then fast kissing and It feels really good. Next she licked everything I laughed because it was ticklish. Next with my pole sticking up I can see Joey out of the corner of my eye clearly being aroused by what is taking place in front of him. Brittany takes a baby cloth, cleans my pole, then says ok get ready this is going to feel different. She opens her mouth and puts my whole private area in it. Joey, looking concerned, says wait, don't eat his pp! Then Brittany pulls out and says don't worry he likes it and I'm not biting him! Me with a big smile says this is the most amazing pp game ever. Brittany continued and I climaxed after only 5 minutes. Brittney does the same thing to Joey and it takes him the same amount of time. Our usual 1 - 3 hour session was done in 30 minutes unfortunately. The next morning Joey snuggles next to me and says do you want to feel something special baby cousin? Confused, I say yes? Joey goes under the blanket, pulls my pajama pants down and starts licking and sucking my privates. I say wait a boy can do that too? Joey says sure why not! So I return the favor to him once he finishes me (It’s a good thing Britney is so thorough with her cleaning of us boys because I might not have done it because our bodies did smell and taste really good although I am always turned on by the smell of lavender because of Britney's special soap). The next week before our bath we excitedly show Brittany our new trick and she says crying oh that is adorable and starts taking pictures. She says people really like the way little boys look when they get that happy feeling. She has us do a few poses and records a few things and takes high definition quality pictures of our pp's. It only happened a few times but I have a sneaking suspicion she either kept it for personal use or sold it on the darknet I'm not really sure. A year passes and I'm 8 and Joey is 9. Brittany again says time for a new trick and this time I have tools and toys for your little pp's! We say toys? We dry off and Brittany drops a bag of colorful yet confusingly shaped toys. Brittany says Joey let's try you with this! Brittany says these were the smallest sizes they had, hopefully we can make use of them! She takes this tool that goes over Joey's poll and Brittany says good it fits now let me stick the jell in. Brittany sticks it on him again and says get ready this is going to be fast. She pumps him real fast and out of joy he almost does a split. I ask how it was and he says now this is the best pp game. I politely asked Brittany if I can have it slower she said yes but this one is different. She throws batteries in the device then pumps air in it to give it a snug fit around my little poll then automatically I hear a humming noise, a warm jelly like fluid drops in the container and it automatically starts rhythmically pumping me. Joey kinda jealous says I'm trying that next. Brittany and Joey grab body lotion and start lathering me up. My 8-year-old mind could not comprehend how great this felt. Also for some reason they started kissing my Tummy. I just wish Brittany would let us keep the toys. I think that was the first time I ever was edging. Because anytime I was close Brittany would slow the machine down with the buttons on it. Finally I climaxed then Joey and Brittany started licking me down there and I got a stiffy again, they kissed and licked me until I climaxed again. A few years have passed and Joey starts showing the first signs of pre-puberty. A little bit of fuzz starts to develop around his private area and a little bit of leg, chest and arm hair is clearly visible. Britney says I think it's time to make you a little boy again! Joey, confused, says how? Britney says don't worry about it just come here after a shower. I'm playing a video game and I notice Brittany grabbing a bag of tools and creams. I asked what is that for? It's to keep Joey young and beautiful Brittany says. Joey gets out of the shower and Brittany says it's time and instructs Joey to lay down. She says this is going to hurt but you will look beautiful when we are done to Joey. Brittany applied waxing gel all over Joey's naked body then Brittany grabbed the blow dryer to heat up the gel. Then finally me and Brittany helped Joey peel everything off like he was a statue coming to life. Joey looked at himself in the mirror crying saying I look like a baby boy again. Brittany I love it! Brittany gives him a hug and says you will always be my baby boy. Joey jumps back in the shower to get rid of any extra dead skin cells or gel that didn't come off. Now with an extra sensitive body Joey lays down on the bed on his stomach. Me and Brittany give him a back massage then an oil back massage. Without even touching his privates he climaxes in the middle of his massage. I couldn't believe how sensitive his skin was. Starting from around age 11 Brittany would wax each of us once a month But we got a lot faster at it over time (also I'm a half swedish half Irish pale blond white boy so the hair isn't as visible as it was on Joey with his Italian jet black hair on pale white skin) then about a year later we got a nono laser hair removal tool and ever since then my skin has been as hairless and smooth as a dolphin. Brittany in college now, started going to the timeshare a lot less than usual. Also at this age we really didn't need a babysitter, we would just ask for the keys from our uncle Drew to use the resort facilities but Brittany would still show up with some friends occasionally (she had a key copy). I did finally ask Brittany why she didn't take her clothes off during our intimate times? She said I'm doing this for you. It's not a girlfriend boyfriend type of relationship. I'm being your teacher, mentor and guardian. I think it would be inappropriate for you to see me in that way. I also want to give you plenty of pleasure and love but save your virginity for that special girl you and Joey will meet one day. I know you and Joey very deeply and intimately since changing your diapers as newborns Brittany said. The world lacks touch and intimacy and twice a month for 2 - 5 hours I can wipe the stress out of your special fragile bodies. She said I know more about you than you know yourselves in some ways. It was a deep conversation. A year later was the last time she pleasured me and Joey the old fashioned way. Brittany told my 15 year old self to jump into the bath with Joey for old time sake, it made me feel like a little boy again. Standing there I said pp massage? She nodded with a tear in her eye and it started how it ended. After she wiped my stuff off I gave her a hug whispered in her ear thank you for everything. Holding my naked body like she did when I was a little boy she whispered back I did it for you. The three of us started to cry knowing this truly was the last time. My uncle got rid of the timeshare in late 2016 Brittany also moved to California, She got married and had twin boys around that time too. Brittany had Unfortunately passed from covid in the fall of 2021 but I do wonder if she did anything to her own kids like she did to me and Joey. As for me and Joey we did continue doing stuff from time to time but it really wasn't the same after high school. It felt weird and we decided to stop. I was invited to a 3 sum with his girlfriend but it just felt off. But that's the last time we did anything sexual together. We still have a great relationship and are definitely mourning over the death of our cousin. As odd as it may sound I always think me and Joey were straight but since we really couldn't find a girl to do intimate stuff with us at that age it was purely convenience of pleasure but we still definitely platonically love each other. Obviously I think sexuality is a spectrum from straight to bi to gay but I would put myself in-between bi and straight. As for me, I have a great relationship with my current partner. I think eventually I'll tell her what happened to me but I'm nervous she will never understand. Listen, I think what happened to me was completely wrong first of all but I really did enjoy almost all of it like 99.9999% of it. Now that being said, should this behavior be normalized? HELL NO! But I like who I am and who I have become and without that experience I'm not me. I do not have any trauma ( I don't think so at least ) but that doesn't mean I'm not a victim even though I don't feel like one. I have been able to have a positive normal life outside of the bedroom and maybe even better because I wasn't craving sex or was sexually repressed in highschool and college years like my peers which probably led to me being less stressed and distracted leading to higher grades ironically ( just my lived experience it doesn't mean the opposite could happen to you) . Now onto the real negatives. For one I don't think I will ever have a sexual experience as good as the ones I had as a child and preteen/tween years. I also want to mirror my look from that era. Wearing childlike clothes, having no body hair, keeping a skinny build like a prepubescent boy. Yes, I do have some self image problems. I get turned on if my girlfriend is wearing clothes and I'm not, I also fear if I become a father one day which I want to be I will be very overprotective if there is something I missed but at the same time might have a very laxed way of looking at sex if they have a girlfriend or boyfriend in late highschool because somehow in my mind that is late to have your first sexual experience to me. I am still constantly in fear that the pictures of me and Joey that Brittany took of us will show up on the dark web one day ( they might be on the SD cards at her house) and that's not a conversation I want to have with my parents and grandparents or my uncle seeing it was clearly at his timeshare and I wouldn't have the heart to tell him that his recently deceased daughter was a child molester. I would rather him know that he gave me and my cousin a safe space to hang out after a stressful school week. Me and Joey have a vow of secrecy. I did ask him for permission before posting this and he will be lurking and reading your comments as well. For obvious reasons this is a throwaway account but I'm glad you brave commenters convinced me to post the story. And if there's any other subreddits I should repost this to please DM them to me. Again me and my cousin were victims of child molestation and unfortunately most people take their stories to the grave ( hell I almost did ) . I know my perspective may appear as downplaying what happened to me but I want to be as truthful about my experience as possible. [ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ]

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[> [> Subject: Re: Boys what's your story about your first dry orgasm? Author: Cute Little Irish Boy [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 16:18:56 03/28/26 Sat Author Host/IP: 108.181.31.219 >Ok so here is my story and just so you all know I will >be writing it from my perspective at the time and for >privacy reasons all the names have been altered but >the ages are real. Just to be as vague as possible I'm >a male born in May of 1999 and this takes place in the >North East United States. > >So for the characters in this story there is me >Spencer, my cousin Brittany who is my dad's brother's >kid who is 11 years older than me and 10 years older >than Joey. Joey is my dad's sister's kid who is 1 year >older than me. Also Brittany is my Uncle Drew's kid >and Joey is my Aunt Casey’s kid. > >Back when I was growing up my Uncle Drew had a >timeshare membership at this casino about 45 minutes >away from my town and he would invite his siblings and >their significant others (my Aunts and Uncles) to stay >the night. The timeshare had 3 king sized bedrooms for >each couple and one kids bedroom with bunk beds and a >large bed for me and my cousins or their friends to >stay over on occasions also all of the bedrooms had a >private bathroom. In the basement there was a playroom >with video games, pool table, board games, a foosball >table, and other stuff I can't remember. Our parents >would go out to the casino or other grown up >entertainment around 7:00 P.M and not return until >2:00 A.M. During that time my cousin Brittany would be >in charge of me and my cousin Joey. She would do the >maternal duties such as giving us a bath, making sure >we brush our teeth and tucking us into bed, ect. This >would happen every other Friday so it was a bi-weekly >timeshare. One time when I was 6 years old Brittany >was giving me and Joey a bath and noticed when >cleaning us we both had a stiffy. Now she wasn't like >my mom when she cleaned me. Brittany was very >thorough. She would use hand soap and a washcloth on >every part of our body including under the >fingernails, behind the ears, scrub our backs. Also >she would take a washcloth in between my butt cheeks >and scrub hard. Last but not least she would give >special attention to our private parts by pumping hand >soap on her soft hands, rubbing the soap spreading on >our private areas very thoroughly it felt very >intimate. As you can imagine this would result in me >blushing when I got hard. She would whisper in my ear >and say softly don't worry, nothing to be ashamed >about, it's only natural then she would kiss me on the >cheek and then do the same to Joey. When we got out of >the bath and she started drying us with a towel then >she said wow those bad boys won't go down. They might >need a pp tickle to get them down. Me and Joey >confused asked what's a pp tickle? She said well >follow me to the bedroom and I will show you. Me and >Joey, now in the bedroom with towels wrapped around >our waist, were instructed by her to sit on the end of >the big bed next to each other in the kids bedroom. >She told the both of us to lay down at the end of the >bed and if you feel uncomfortable or something hurts >please tell me and I will stop immediately. She said >now close your eyes. I remember laying down as she >took the towel off of me then Joey, she spread my legs >apart, and then did the same to Joey. Brittany got on >her knees in between me and Joey. The cold breeze blew >over my groin. Brittany said ok I see you boys are >soft again but do you still want your pp tickle? We >shook our heads nodding yes at the same time. She said >ok here we go and she started playing with our >privates (mostly tickling and massaging our balls), >Joey with Brittney's left hand me with Brittney's >right hand it took about 2 minutes before we became >stiff again. Brittany asked us, So how does it feel? >We opened our eyes and Joey replied it feels icky but >nice. Brittany then asked do you want me to stop? In >unison me and Joey said NO! Brittany smiling said ok >ok but now listen to me carefully you are going to >feel like you need to go pp just let it happen ok >that's when she started pumping out polls up and down. >I asked will pp come out? She said no you're too >young! I closed my eyes again to enjoy this moment of >intense pleasure then I heard Joey moaning saying I >think I really need to go pp. I turned my head to look >at Joey as his hips were rhythmically moving as >Brittany pumped him. Then I heard a loud moan as Joey >climaxed. Then Brittany said good job baby boy kissed >him on the lips and his head. Joey out of breath >whispers to me it feels really good at the end. >Brittany, now fully focused on me, She took the hand >that was on Joey and used it to play with my family >jewels. It started feeling really intense. Joey kissed >me on the cheek and said you got this little cousin, >then 30 seconds later my toes curled up and I >climaxed. I opened my eyes to see Britney staring at >me with a smirk then she kissed my lips and said good >job baby boy! I almost wasn't sure if you were too >young to do it but I’m proud of what such a big boy >you are Spencer. Brittany laid down to the left of me. >Brittany and Joey gave me a kiss on each cheek at the >same time. I never felt so loved and cared for in my >life. Then Brittney washed the sweat off of my body >with a baby wipe and I passed out. The next thing I >know I have my PJ's on under my blanket in bed. Joey >wakes me up and whispers in my ear we can't tell our >parents what Brittany did to us last night because >those are big kid things and our parents won't let us >do it again. I told him ok it can be a secret. This >stuff happened almost every two weeks except for >holidays and it definitely improved my relationship >with my cousins. > >About 8 months later I'm 7 and Joey is 8. (We are a >year and 11 days apart btw). We are doing our usual >bath routine and Brittany says well since you are a >year older now (our birthdays just passed) I think >it's time to learn a new activity. Confused me and >Joey asked what do you mean? Brittany says do you want >me to show you a kissy pp massage? We said yes not >knowing exactly what that is yet. We get out of the >bath and excitedly head to the bedroom when Brittany >calls Spencer and says you're up first. I laid down on >the bed in the usual position. Brittany says first >let's make this pp hard and proceeds to start kissing >my family jewels, each one slowly then my rod and >everywhere in between. She starts with slow kissing >and then fast kissing and It feels really good. Next >she licked everything I laughed because it was >ticklish. Next with my pole sticking up I can see Joey >out of the corner of my eye clearly being aroused by >what is taking place in front of him. Brittany takes a >baby cloth, cleans my pole, then says ok get ready >this is going to feel different. She opens her mouth >and puts my whole private area in it. Joey, looking >concerned, says wait, don't eat his pp! Then Brittany >pulls out and says don't worry he likes it and I'm not >biting him! Me with a big smile says this is the most >amazing pp game ever. Brittany continued and I >climaxed after only 5 minutes. Brittney does the same >thing to Joey and it takes him the same amount of >time. Our usual 1 - 3 hour session was done in 30 >minutes unfortunately. The next morning Joey snuggles >next to me and says do you want to feel something >special baby cousin? Confused, I say yes? Joey goes >under the blanket, pulls my pajama pants down and >starts licking and sucking my privates. I say wait a >boy can do that too? Joey says sure why not! So I >return the favor to him once he finishes me (It’s a >good thing Britney is so thorough with her cleaning of >us boys because I might not have done it because our >bodies did smell and taste really good although I am >always turned on by the smell of lavender because of >Britney's special soap). The next week before our bath >we excitedly show Brittany our new trick and she says >crying oh that is adorable and starts taking pictures. >She says people really like the way little boys look >when they get that happy feeling. She has us do a few >poses and records a few things and takes high >definition quality pictures of our pp's. It only >happened a few times but I have a sneaking suspicion >she either kept it for personal use or sold it on the >darknet I'm not really sure. > >A year passes and I'm 8 and Joey is 9. Brittany again >says time for a new trick and this time I have tools >and toys for your little pp's! We say toys? We dry off >and Brittany drops a bag of colorful yet confusingly >shaped toys. Brittany says Joey let's try you with >this! Brittany says these were the smallest sizes they >had, hopefully we can make use of them! She takes this >tool that goes over Joey's poll and Brittany says good >it fits now let me stick the jell in. Brittany sticks >it on him again and says get ready this is going to be >fast. She pumps him real fast and out of joy he almost >does a split. I ask how it was and he says now this is >the best pp game. I politely asked Brittany if I can >have it slower she said yes but this one is different. >She throws batteries in the device then pumps air in >it to give it a snug fit around my little poll then >automatically I hear a humming noise, a warm jelly >like fluid drops in the container and it automatically >starts rhythmically pumping me. Joey kinda jealous >says I'm trying that next. Brittany and Joey grab body >lotion and start lathering me up. My 8-year-old mind >could not comprehend how great this felt. Also for >some reason they started kissing my Tummy. I just wish >Brittany would let us keep the toys. I think that was >the first time I ever was edging. Because anytime I >was close Brittany would slow the machine down with >the buttons on it. Finally I climaxed then Joey and >Brittany started licking me down there and I got a >stiffy again, they kissed and licked me until I >climaxed again. > >A few years have passed and Joey starts showing the >first signs of pre-puberty. A little bit of fuzz >starts to develop around his private area and a little >bit of leg, chest and arm hair is clearly visible. >Britney says I think it's time to make you a little >boy again! Joey, confused, says how? Britney says >don't worry about it just come here after a shower. >I'm playing a video game and I notice Brittany >grabbing a bag of tools and creams. I asked what is >that for? It's to keep Joey young and beautiful >Brittany says. Joey gets out of the shower and >Brittany says it's time and instructs Joey to lay >down. She says this is going to hurt but you will look >beautiful when we are done to Joey. Brittany applied >waxing gel all over Joey's naked body then Brittany >grabbed the blow dryer to heat up the gel. Then >finally me and Brittany helped Joey peel everything >off like he was a statue coming to life. Joey looked >at himself in the mirror crying saying I look like a >baby boy again. Brittany I love it! Brittany gives him >a hug and says you will always be my baby boy. Joey >jumps back in the shower to get rid of any extra dead >skin cells or gel that didn't come off. Now with an >extra sensitive body Joey lays down on the bed on his >stomach. Me and Brittany give him a back massage then >an oil back massage. Without even touching his >privates he climaxes in the middle of his massage. I >couldn't believe how sensitive his skin was. Starting >from around age 11 Brittany would wax each of us once >a month >But we got a lot faster at it over time (also I'm a >half swedish half Irish pale blond white boy so the >hair isn't as visible as it was on Joey with his >Italian jet black hair on pale white skin) then about >a year later we got a nono laser hair removal tool and >ever since then my skin has been as hairless and >smooth as a dolphin. > >Brittany in college now, started going to the >timeshare a lot less than usual. Also at this age we >really didn't need a babysitter, we would just ask for >the keys from our uncle Drew to use the resort >facilities but Brittany would still show up with some >friends occasionally (she had a key copy). I did >finally ask Brittany why she didn't take her clothes >off during our intimate times? She said I'm doing this >for you. It's not a girlfriend boyfriend type of >relationship. I'm being your teacher, mentor and >guardian. I think it would be inappropriate for you to >see me in that way. I also want to give you plenty of >pleasure and love but save your virginity for that >special girl you and Joey will meet one day. I know >you and Joey very deeply and intimately since changing >your diapers as newborns Brittany said. The world >lacks touch and intimacy and twice a month for 2 - 5 >hours I can wipe the stress out of your special >fragile bodies. She said I know more about you than >you know yourselves in some ways. It was a deep >conversation. A year later was the last time she >pleasured me and Joey the old fashioned way. Brittany >told my 15 year old self to jump into the bath with >Joey for old time sake, it made me feel like a little >boy again. Standing there I said pp massage? She >nodded with a tear in her eye and it started how it >ended. After she wiped my stuff off I gave her a hug >whispered in her ear thank you for everything. Holding >my naked body like she did when I was a little boy she >whispered back I did it for you. The three of us >started to cry knowing this truly was the last time. > >My uncle got rid of the timeshare in late 2016 >Brittany also moved to California, She got married and >had twin boys around that time too. Brittany had >Unfortunately passed from covid in the fall of 2021 >but I do wonder if she did anything to her own kids >like she did to me and Joey. As for me and Joey we did >continue doing stuff from time to time but it really >wasn't the same after high school. It felt weird and >we decided to stop. I was invited to a 3 sum with his >girlfriend but it just felt off. But that's the last >time we did anything sexual together. We still have a >great relationship and are definitely mourning over >the death of our cousin. As odd as it may sound I >always think me and Joey were straight but since we >really couldn't find a girl to do intimate stuff with >us at that age it was purely convenience of pleasure >but we still definitely platonically love each other. >Obviously I think sexuality is a spectrum from >straight to bi to gay but I would put myself >in-between bi and straight. >As for me, I have a great relationship with my current >partner. I think eventually I'll tell her what >happened to me but I'm nervous she will never >understand. > >Listen, I think what happened to me was completely >wrong first of all but I really did enjoy almost all >of it like 99.9999% of it. Now that being said, should >this behavior be normalized? HELL NO! But I like who I >am and who I have become and without that experience >I'm not me. I do not have any trauma ( I don't think >so at least ) but that doesn't mean I'm not a victim >even though I don't feel like one. I have been able to >have a positive normal life outside of the bedroom and >maybe even better because I wasn't craving sex or was >sexually repressed in highschool and college years >like my peers which probably led to me being less >stressed and distracted leading to higher grades >ironically ( just my lived experience it doesn't mean >the opposite could happen to you) . Now onto the real >negatives. For one I don't think I will ever have a >sexual experience as good as the ones I had as a child >and preteen/tween years. I also want to mirror my look >from that era. Wearing childlike clothes, having no >body hair, keeping a skinny build like a prepubescent >boy. Yes, I do have some self image problems. I get >turned on if my girlfriend is wearing clothes and I'm >not, I also fear if I become a father one day which I >want to be I will be very overprotective if there is >something I missed but at the same time might have a >very laxed way of looking at sex if they have a >girlfriend or boyfriend in late highschool because >somehow in my mind that is late to have your first >sexual experience to me. I am still constantly in fear >that the pictures of me and Joey that Brittany took of >us will show up on the dark web one day ( they might >be on the SD cards at her house) and that's not a >conversation I want to have with my parents and >grandparents or my uncle seeing it was clearly at his >timeshare and I wouldn't have the heart to tell him >that his recently deceased daughter was a child >molester. I would rather him know that he gave me and >my cousin a safe space to hang out after a stressful >school week. Me and Joey have a vow of secrecy. I did >ask him for permission before posting this and he will >be lurking and reading your comments as well. For >obvious reasons this is a throwaway account but I'm >glad you brave commenters convinced me to post the >story. And if there's any other subreddits I should >repost this to please DM them to me. Again me and my >cousin were victims of child molestation and >unfortunately most people take their stories to the >grave ( hell I almost did ) . I know my perspective >may appear as downplaying what happened to me but I >want to be as truthful about my experience as That's intense! sounds like your older cousin really knew what she was doing and at the end of the day I think she was just trying to give you pleasure. I bet you looked forward to the fun you would have every other week. [ Post a Reply to This Message ]