Subject:  DELENA....PLEEEEEEEEASE READ THIS BEFORE YOU GO! Hmm...I hope this makes things a bit better |
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Date Posted: 04:49:56 07/04/01 Wed
Delena.
You may beleive it would be my nature to have a go at you now and slag you off to the heavens...but no!
Dont take this wrong...but I DONT understand what your going through, so Im not going to pretend to. I have never been robbed, and I dont have a child of my own, so Im afraid I cant relate to your exact problems directly. But...I know of people who have been through what you have, and I know it is not nice. You have every right to vent. Everybody does. Hey....you must remember my grand entrance! A vent of all time...well...so I thought! Until ur superb bit of bitching! - (that is meant as a friendly joke said with an extended arm offering you my hand with a cheeky but caring smile on my face...and hoping you laugh at the comment and take my hand and listen to what I have to say?)
Look...I feel soooooo bad. I mean....it appears to have been my comments that started this whole thing...about the vote thing. Also...you are wanting to leave because you have been gunned down twice in a short amount of time in your haven for giving your views. If it wasnt for me...it would have only been once and you may still have been staying.
At first I thought a little bit upset because you had said what went on between us was forgiven and forgoten...but then I realised,...just because you have forgiven me and forgoten about the bitterness we may have had for eachother, it doesnt erase the fact that it actually happened. Nothing can do that. I am so sorry. The last thing I want to happen is for you to leave. I was truely hoping we could get on and have water fights in the lake and team up with medeis and mass attack storm...hehe!
Seriosly though...If you deceide to go...its your choice. But please can you review what I am about to say before you make up your mind.
How did this happen? Well, we had a big row to start! I felt tense in here with everybody, thinking they didnt like me.....so...after a little bit of talking...I wanted to just start a light hearted bit of fun off, and somebody mentioned that they cant always call me boyfriend...so...I thought...aha!! So...I done the competition. I thought that I would make the rules so strict that it was just tooooooooo strict and nobody would take it seriously...just a bit of a laugh...which is what it was intended to be.
Now...please forgive me on this because it may have been my fault. I would probably argue that it was a misunderstanding than anybodys falut here:
Once I posted the list of names that got through to the final, you replied underneath:
''I still like draven, draven all the way baby''
I mean, I wasnt really combing the posts with a toothpick, but I saw that and just gave Draven a tick. Im sorry if I shouldnt have done this. But I intended the thread following my post to be one of the votes for my name. I must have just taken your the wrong way. I am sorry.
When Daven and daysleeper was at a draw with 4 points each, I had to decide what to do. It just happened that I rememberd you were the one to sugest Draven which I thank you for totally. So, I just thought...well...I need to do somehting...and I had stated that I would prefer if you didnt vote for your own name, so I just took a tick away and daysleeper won. I wanst trying to have a go at you. It was just incase anybody went back and looked and saw that Day/s and Draven got the same points and questioned it.
It was not meant to sound as harsh as it did. I wrote it and thought the second I hit 'send' hmm....she may no like that. But being me...I forgot about it, and thought hopefully you may take it light-heartedly. I know it sounded real bad. Sorry. Really. I never wanted this to harm anybody. I only wanted people to talk to me so I could build friendships.
The fact that you dont like my name and think Im stupid...thats neither here or there at the moment...it is quite obviously the smallest of the problems here at the moment. Later you went on to say that you didnt mean it.
Well...I said some stuff to you when I first came here.... I said I didnt mean it and you forgave me. I was hurt by your comments. But, in the end. It doesnt really matter if you dont like my name! If you had a problem with me, maybe I would be more offended...but a name is a name...just a refrence. I dont care if nobody likes it! I think its alright! And in the end to me that is all that counts. Still the fact that you said you didnt mean it comforts me a bit. Because no matter how much a person says it doesnt bother them...to a degree it always does. But...again. As we have done before. Shall we just move on? Forgive and forget as a wise woman once said to me?
(Oh...the only reason I took the thing about the blokes so bad..probably was because it was aimed at a group of people who were not here to defend themselves. Probably a contributing factor...Im still very sorry about all that and regret it deeply. The name thing...it was at me...and you told me you have a problem with it...and I respect you more for doing that than just telling me it was a nice name and hating it!)
And...for as far as people having a go at you for your own beleifs, Im not telling you how to do stuff....Im just gonna tell you my view. If this board is your haven, then, you are more than intitled to vent and speak freely. As you can see, you have friends here who have stuck up for you time and time again. They will continue to do so I have no doubt. Speak your mind. Sometimes....tact is a very good way to do stuff...be gentle about it...but if u need to explode....nobody says you cant. I dont think people will mind if you shout your lungs out and feel better....if you dont mean it...say so...as you have done...and if you do mean it..well...fair enough!!
I know you and I did not get off to a great start...but Im here to talk to so you dont have to sit on your anger or whatever it is building up inside you.
And hey....you cant go....u are my fellow final fantasy lover....Storm is gonna have a field day with taking the piss out of it when your gone to fight a good fight side by side!
Im not gonna tell you what to do...Im going to tell you my wish.
dont go. Bad start for me and you....yeah......so? I like you. I do! I like the way u speak. I like your game reviews...I like things you say and the way you can use humor at times and in ways most people couldnt.
Hey...and if your worried about people knowing your name....Im not gonna laugh....or....I dont know...do whatever you think people might because they know it. My names Paul Cable. I live in a little rainy....but at the moment suprisindly sunny little town called Biggin Hill in England. There really is nothing wrong with people knowing you.....beleive me...it is something I have really come to grips with myself over the last couple of years. An expericen I will gladly share with you if you will stay to listen?
However...Im not speaking to you like you HAVE to tell us everything...or anyhting...coz that would be condisendin...and I HATE that! Im just saying...we would not think any different of you through anything. You are who you r....I dont know if Im making things better or worse..Im sorry...Ill stop now.
All of this is ment in total kindness, please do not think I mean any other way?
And about the thingy on the other board thingy!! (haha...can u beleive I have a good qualification in English...thingy!!!) I cant really say. this is the first baord I have ever been on or posted on...before you lot...I was a board virgin! Thank for....nah....probably not the right time for all those obvious jokes! But...like....I cant really comment on what was happening there coz this is my first board and I have cocked up a lot on this so far and I would like to thank people for putting up with me! But..hey....please stay!
ill miss you loads. I know everybody will! What do you say? If not...I understand. Everybody needs there own space....but this place can still be yours!
I hope I have made things a little bit better. Sorry this was so long. Didnt mean to bore you!
Daysleeper.
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