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Date Posted: 18:31:33 05/04/01 Fri
In reply to:
storm
's message, "Todays question and inspiration" on 03:06:57 05/04/01 Fri
hey everybody. sorry i haven't posted in a while. this board picked up speed way too fast for me and just keeping up with all the posts was too much. aside from the fact i haven't felt emotionally capable of contributing lately. didn't want to bring everyone down, and i didn't want to fake happy-happy joy-joy because you'd all see right through me anyway! we lone wolves, by our very nature, foster our innate empathetic powers to a honed super-empathy; something our very survival depends on.
but that's another topic by itself. right now i just wanted to pitch my two bits into the pile and answer storm's question of the day! :0)
love at first sight has happened to me. i knew in the first 2 seconds of seeing him that this was The One i would live out my eternity with, bear his child, and be driven insane by his compulsive leaving the toilet seat up. :0) i knew beyond all doubt that this was the man that i'd literally dreamt about for years. the man that, when i was a child, kneeling beside my bed and saying my prayers, i would pray "and god? the man that i'll marry when i'm grown up, right now i know he's just a kid like me, but could you do me a favor and watch over him anyway? make sure he's happy and has lots of toys and friends to play with, make sure his parents are happy and married, and for every day that i'm sad, give him two days of being happy." as i got older, my prayer matured, but still...the basic intent was the same.
this was the man who's world i would learn and integrate into my life. we would laugh and understand each other's humor (mine's a little warped), relate to things that no one else had been able to relate to, finish each other's sentences, and he would love my cooking.
well, best two out of three, i suppose. he's a very picky eater. lol
of course, by the time i finally laid eyes on him i'd already known him two months, emailing (yes, we were email pen pals!) and talking on the phone. but i saw him and that was it. time literally slowed to a crawl and i got a divine kick in the butt. the skies parted and a thunderous voice said "I shalt join thee together so that no man may tear thee asunder. Be fruitful and multiply." well, not really... lol
so yeah, i believe in love at first sight. :0)
as for soulmates? i used to believe, but now i know better. there are no soulmates, no one person in the entire universe that god (or the goddess, or whatever divine powers you believe in) created you for specifically. we, as humans, are social creatures no matter if we're lone wolves or not. no man is an island unto himself.
we need people. period.
we do, however, have kindred spirits. people that we find not only common ground but a sense of kinship and connection so deep that we only have to look at one another and say "i know you," and we understand what is truly being said. kindred spirits connect on a spiritual, mystic level. it goes beyond mere friendship. scratch that. it transcends mere mortal relations.
kindred spirits are everywhere. i have fallen in love with one before, but it wasn't meant to be. at the time i thought he was my soulmate, and it took me a very long time to heal after i lost him. but as kindred spirits, we couldn't live apart from one another, and now we have the closest friendship anyone could hope for.
besides, i don't think my soulmate would drive me crazy with his tendency to leave the toilet seat up, knowing how i feel about it... (have a laugh, there)
but love is forever. love in all its forms (i.e. friendship, family, passion) that's why the greeks had three words for it, because it covers such a broad spectrum of human relationships: eros, agape, and i forget the other one and have just spent a half hour looking for it. :0)
it's a lot of work, love, but it's forever. the only way it fades or fails is by human nature. and love turns to hate, but that's only because they are the same thing. two sides of the same coin. you hate something the same degree that you once loved it. you hate because the love is still there, if that makes any sense.
the true opposite of love (or hate) is indifference. total and complete apathy. and love can become this, especially since 'familiarity breeds contempt.' love is more work than play.
but the fruits of love are boundless. but did i mention it takes a lot of work?
and anyway, that's my two cents...and my fumbling, aimless wandering. if you've fallen asleep during any part of this, my humblest apologies.
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