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Date Posted: 21:58:39 01/03/03 Fri
Author: Janelle
Subject: I fell in love with a French man

I know I shouldn't be thinking about this, but I just can't help it. It's pain, really harsh pain, and I'm doing it to myself. I've never really taken relationships seriously. Probably because I've grown up with no real male-like parental figure. I've always tended to push guys away and try to piss them off just because I think that they'll end up being my father. And I really REALLY don't mean to sound like a bitch but the whole male area was always just a little game to me because I always thought that all guys were scum. I'd go to one, get bored, then move to the other. I couldn't help it, I don't ever want to end up with someone that will make my life miserable. But one day I met an amazing guy named Olivier. I think that Olivier is the first guy that I actually let into my heart. He's the most pure, generous, intellegent, beautiful, loving person that I have ever met.

What's the problem? Well we met my senior year in high school, he's a foriegn exchange student from France. And in a couple of months he's going back to France to finish his studies for a year. After that year he can go to college in France or he also has a slight chance of being able to go to college in America. The answer if he will come back or not will never really be answered until the time comes, because it's expensive to go to college here and during that year that he's back in France ... he could meet someone else. I love him and he loves me. It's perfection now, but I don't know if his heart will stay with mine when he's away for one whole year. He tells me that he won't find another and that he'll try his hardest to come back, but then I also think, I'm so young what do I know and what about the year that he's gone? I really wish and hope that we're meant to be, so that we meet again. He's definitely someone that I can really LOVE. He's someone that I've found light in out of all the others. So if this isn't just an infatuation, or a high school crush, this is a test for myself. No more tests for guys ... this is for me. If we're meant to be ...

But is it worth the chance? Should I stop the relationship now and save my tears? I don't know what to do. I feel like I've found my other half, but of course with my luck, the other half lives in a total different country.

Thank you so much for reading this and I'd appreciate any comments ... I need truth, reality, and hope all at the same time.

Janelle, NY, USA

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