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Jessica
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Date Posted: 21:28:01 06/21/06 Wed
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In reply to:
bee
's message, "Re: I WANT TO BE SKINNY!" on 18:52:05 01/18/06 Wed
Look I want to tell u that starving urself and throwing up is not the answer. When I was 19 I wanted to be in modeling so bad, so I started making myself throw up and then eventualy I would starve myself for weeks. Then it led to the use off drugs, so I could speed up my metabulism. My life went down hill from there, I was always sick, and people were talking behind my back on how skinny I was. The thing was....well.....everyday I looked at myself in the mirrior and I saw no change. I thought I was still fat. I did not understand bc I exercised for at least three-6 hours a day. I still didnt think I was thin. Then I started relising that my atitude started changing, and I was starting to act mean to every person that was bigger than I, so they could lose the weight like I did. I lost many sincere feeling I had towards everyone. All I could think about was me, me, me. Still to this day I have not gotten ne help for my problem, but I did fase reality and started to eat a little. I went from 146lbs, to 98lbs, and now I am back at 135-140. The thing was I started eatting and I gained about 15 lbs over than what I was from the beginning and I got up to almost 160 lbs. OMG!!!! I was miserable, so I started making myself throw up again and now I am back at 136-140. Xan u believe this is comming back to me, I thought this disease was over, and it just keeps comming back. So now that my metablism is not the way it use to be, its harder to loose weight, and its very dreadful. I cant even walk up a flight of stairs with out being out of breath. The only thing I can suggest is not to worry about being so thin. that is only the media world thats doing it to u. Stay fit, work out 30 minutes- hour a day. I promisec u will have a knock out body. I wish I would have done this when I started bc really my body was really fit before. I just needed a little cardio. now I need a whole gym to help me get back in shape. I might way less right now, but my muscle mass is gone. I use to be able to lift about 170 lbs and now I can barely lift 80lbs. Ur muscle is what keeps u healthy. dont over work urself with the weights. use light ones like 2 for ur arm lifts and 10 for chest impressions. and for legs use 15 lbs. I knew this before I started starving myself but I wanted to get things done quicker so I did that. But look at the long run it made me less muscle massed, drinkin problem, fatter, and out of energy, and still throwing up bc I have a diease that needs to be corrected. I never had ne one to talk to about these things. I just had a friend that didnt eat and helped me, and I helped her. so I am here for u no matter what, we can talk to each other if u like, and I am open to talk to ne one. DOnt starve urself, or throw up. It might take longer to see results but at least u will be healthy and u will stay fit longer. If u want to loose weight.....jog,bike,roller blade, roller skate, or ne thing cardio. Trust me, when I worked in landscaping I could eat ne thing I wanted and still lossed weight. to bad I was allergic to the UVS in the sun and I had to quit. so then I gained and the stopped eatting,and got really sick. so once agin just exercise alot but not to the extent its taking all ur calories. U need to calories to keep u going. its what gives u nrg. oh yeah stay way from red meat,chips, soda, high sodium, Light products, and ne sweets. if u have to induldge urself eat fruit, or yogurt w choclate or something. If u stick with this I promise u will stay healthier and slimmer/fit for a longer period of time than being sick. u will either die or get stuck with a bad metablism and a disease that u wish was gone. oh yeah,if u throw up ur teeth will become black,ur jaw drags, bad health, bad headaches, bad metablism,bad mannors, Bi-Polar, manic depression, and I can keep going. so once again u can email me ne time u want to talk. I believe they probably send it to u, if not I will check back up. U need to talk to someone about this that way they can help u. if ur parents are big and they dont want to eat healthy food, then but the food urself, and tel them u will not eat with them until they change thier ways. It will be hard but u will save ur life and theirs to if they help out. Thank you for reading this all. Happy thoughts Love Jessica
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