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• And I'd give up forever to touch you
  Cause I know that you feel me somehow -- Alysia, Wed, Jun 07 2006, 12:23pm PDT
  She awoke early as the light was switched on- around 5am- as the doctor was doing her morning rounds. She blinked sleepily as the doctor checked her charts and her BP and the other monitors. She groaned a little and blinked her eyes open glancing around for charlie absently "Did my husband go home?" she asked the doctor quietly. They had made her stay in for the night for observation and to keep a progress report of the fragile baby's state, and hers. They had told her last night that they couldn;t garentee the baby still being with her by morning- but if she made it through and her BP remained low and there were no complications there would be a chance both mother and child would survive healthily.
  

  
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  • He had actually gone for coffee - sitting up in a chair all night had not been comfortable by any means but there was no way he would leave her for more than a few minutes for a quick break to the bathroom or for more bitter coffee from the vending machine down the hall. He made his way back in as he heard her asking, the coffee as well as a sugary, processed snack in hand and moved to the edge of the bed so she could see him without craning her neck too much. "No, I'm still here baby.." He settled in his chair, out of the doctor's way and waited - he had spent much of the night in this pose, just watching her sleep, breathe, lulled by the sound of the heart rate monitor. (NT) -- Charlie, Wed, Jun 07 2006, 12:32pm PDT
  • She glanced up at him as she heard him and smiled a touch glancing back to the doctor as she finished up her examination "Well?" She drew a soft breath, looking up at the doctor hopefully. "Does the baby still have a heart beat?" she twisted her fingers into her sheets, drawing a deep breath. "Yes... its been inconsistant through the night, but its still there... we may need to keep you in for another night... and you'll have to take it very easy from now on... i'm booking you in for a scan for ten, so we'll be able to have another look and see that theres no sign of distress, and we'll monitor the heart beat for another twenty four hours Mrs Belluci"// Aly released a breath and closed her eyes softly, resting her head back intot he pillows with relief- smiling a little at the doctor "Thank you..." She let her gaze drift to Charlie, a soft little smile on her lips- it was hope at least. (NT) -- Aly, Wed, Jun 07 2006, 12:51pm PDT
  • Charlie waited with the same bated breath he saw Aly holding while they waited for the doctor's response and breathed out a slow, long, relieved breath before rising to shake the doctor's hand and thank him as he left the room. Once he was gone, he approached the bed and smiled down at her, reaching to squeeze her hand. He was cautiously optomistic - he knew she was still in some pain, but the reality of the baby surviving made his heart flutter. "That's good.. I knew you were strong." He leaned down to brush a kiss to her forehead. "Love you.." (NT) -- Charlie, Wed, Jun 07 2006, 1:00pm PDT
  • She closed her eyes softly and inclined her head to him, breathing out a soft murmer of a 'love you too' in return. she reached for Charlies hand and squeezed it in return, her lips meeting his tenderly "I'm gonna try so hard to keep the baby safe charlie... I think its gonna be okay now... I don't hurt nearly as much..." (NT) -- Aly, Wed, Jun 07 2006, 1:07pm PDT
  • He leaned down on the bed and brushed her hair away from her face, pressing one more kiss to her forehead fleetingly. "You're doing a good job, baby. Want a sweet?" He inclined his head toward the sugary snack he'd bought - not typical fare for either one of them but the hospital offered little in the way of vegetable stir fries and the like. (NT) -- Charlie, Wed, Jun 07 2006, 1:15pm PDT
  • She scrunshed her nose up a little and shook her head a touch, smiling a little "Nah I'm good baby...its 5.30...way too early... I'm gonna try and get some more sleep." She squeezed his hand gently, closing her eyes "You need to go home and feed the dogs... they'll be worries... and you can bring me some things... my toothbrush and such, if thats okay?" (NT) -- Alysia, Wed, Jun 07 2006, 1:22pm PDT
  • "Are you sure?" Afterall, this entire thing had started because he hadn't been there. He fully intended to keep her in his line of sight from now until the baby was born - he usually hated those hovering, overprotective type, but they really couldn't take any risks. "Mali will be up shortly, I can get her to get the stuff and bring it in, she has the key..." He was pretty reluctant to leave at all, and at the risk of sounding whiney and controlling, he probably would go call Mali to do it anyways, regardless of what she said. (NT) -- Charlie, Wed, Jun 07 2006, 1:32pm PDT
  • "Please baby" She murmered, her fingers twisting loosly and soothingly into her curls like she always did when she was tired. "I don't really want visiters... just my mom... have you called her?" Her mother was the only person she wanted around her just now- her and charlie of course- but Charlie needed some air- he'd been by her all night "I'll be fine baby, just go." (NT) -- Alysia, Wed, Jun 07 2006, 1:44pm PDT
  • "I called her last night but we decided she should wait until this morning, I just called her again while I was out... " Echo had been terribly worried but the woman had been born with some common sense - recognizing that now, even though Aly was her baby, Charlie could look after her just as well as she could herself. He rubbed a hand over his eyes - he could use a shower, some sleep, a change of clothes - he was still wearing his suit from the office. "I'll go, but you should know that I really am doing this against my will.." (NT) -- Charlie, Wed, Jun 07 2006, 1:51pm PDT
  • Aly smiled a touch and nodded, she could just imagine her mothers struggle not to come down here and set up camp by her bedside. "I know you are baby... but for my own peice of mind i need you to. I'll be fast asleep anyway- I wont even miss you" She opened her eyes and smiled playfully at him, lifting his hand to her mouth to kiss it softly. I'll see you in a few hours baby" (NT) -- ALysia, Wed, Jun 07 2006, 2:02pm PDT
  • He sighed heavily, nodded and leaned over her bed to give her a firm kiss on the lips, murmuring his love for her before reluctantly heading out, dragging his feet with coffee in hand.. It wasn't much later that she came in - hardpressed not to BOUND into the room, but she was eager to see her daughter. She hadn't slept well the night before but she hardly showed it as she made her way in, a soft smile crossing her features as she saw her daughter breathing, her heart beating, living. "Hey babygirl.." (NT) -- Echo, Wed, Jun 07 2006, 2:12pm PDT
  • She had fallen back asleep but woke as her mother spoke, a smile touching her lips as she opened her eyes softly, murmering sleepily "Hey mom... is daddy ok? not stressing too much?" she knew her father was away on business but no doubt her mother had called him. Her hand searched for her mothers as she brushed her hair out of her face with her other hand and then let it fall to rest on her swollen stomach "I realised something last night..." (NT) -- Alysia, Wed, Jun 07 2006, 2:17pm PDT
  • The slight woman perched on the edge of her daughter's bed, spry and slender as she had been twenty years ago, and she picked up her daughters hand. "Daddy is okay, he's worried but Charlie is gonna call him.. " Lifting her daughter's hand to her lips, she pressed a kiss to it. "What did you realize, honey?" She spoke as she reached out to brush blonde curls, a fascimile of her own, out of her daughter's eyes. (NT) -- Echo, Wed, Jun 07 2006, 2:20pm PDT
  • She swallowed softly and closed her eyes, her mother relaxing her and soothing her in the way only a mother could, brushing her hair back from her face likeshe had when aly hadn;t been able to sleep as a child. "I realised...." She spoke softly, just a whisper "That I want my baby more than anything... I want her to be healthy and well and I want her love her as much as you love me" She had even tried to hide her true feelings about the baby from her mother- but Aly knew theat her mother knew her better than that- better than anyone- they were so alike the pair of them. (NT) -- Alysia, Wed, Jun 07 2006, 2:25pm PDT
  • A slow smile spread across the woman's lips, her heart warmed by her daughter's words and she squeezed her hand gently, pressing it over her own heart. "I know, honey, I knew that all along." She knew what it was to be thrown off kilter by lifechanging news - Isaac's father's death, for example, but she also knew what it was to want a baby more than anything, to want it to flourish and live and be strong, and she knew that her daughter had her same heart, she had known all along. Again she smiled and set Aly's hand down on the bed beside her. "Did you tell Charlie this?" (NT) -- Echo, Thu, Jun 08 2006, 10:07am PDT
  • She nodded softly, a smile touching her lips as she opened her eyes upto her mother "Yeah... I told him. He's being quietly optimistic I think... and I am too. The doctor said that if the baby survived the night it should be okay... and theres still a heartbeat. They're going to take me for a scan and sonogram in a bit- so we'll know for sure then... and then I think they'll want to keep me in to moniter us over night again." (NT) -- Alysia, Thu, Jun 08 2006, 11:20am PDT
  • She smiled at the optomisim - she was sure this child would survive, it had Carruthers blood in it - they were a whole gang of survivors, and her daughter had proven that during her stint with Jake - they didn't just easily give up. "Good.. good. I'll hang around to find out those results, I think." Now that she was here, there would be no getting her out of here, she had been on pins and needles all night and awake long before Charlie called her. "Is there anything you need? I can run out to the store if you want something.." She knew she had had her own weird cravings, and if Aly was anything like her, she'd be wanting something right now. (NT) -- Echo, Thu, Jun 08 2006, 11:24am PDT
  • "I want watermelon..." She grinned a touch, glancing up at her mom, "but i dunno if the hospital gift shop would supply you with any. Charlies gone to get me some stuff though so he might pick some up." She hadnlt asked for any however and she knew he would have a million things on his mind. (NT) -- Alysia, Thu, Jun 08 2006, 11:27am PDT
  • She grinned a little at her daughter's request. "No, I don't think they run a grocery down there, but I can call Charlie's cell, do you want me to go place an order for you?" He had called her and sounded exhausted, just from his voice she had known and ordered him to bed - as soon as he could tear himself away from the hospital, he needed to stay safe too. (NT) -- Echo, Thu, Jun 08 2006, 11:30am PDT

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• -- -- Charlie, Mon, May 22 2006, 7:24am PDT
  He had been staring at a file bleary eyed all afternoon, gleaning it for facts and details to hand on to the lawyer working on the case, tired from a night staying up chatting with Aly like they often did when he had finally gotten the call. Immense guilt had consumed him when he discovered that they'd been trying to get ahold of him sometime but with a deadline looming on the case they were working on, he had shut out all outside communications to work it to the best of his advantage, never expecting to be needed for something like this, and his heart was pounding a million miles an hour as he finally got to the hospital, bursting through the doors. He'd done double the speed limit the whole way there, and was in a frenzy by the time he got there, rushing the nurse's station -- "I need to see Alysia Bellucci.. I need to see my wife." A nurse pointed him down a hallway and he took off at a run, nearly upsetting a patient with an IV stand walking the halls.
  

  
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  • They had her hooked up to all kinds of monitors and machines, her young form looking tiny and pale in the hospital bed, her blonde curls spilling over the pillows haphazardly. Tear tracks were still obvious down her pale cheeks, her dark eyes like bottemless black pools of ink as she watched the beeping monitor. She'd been helping them set up the stage for the final night of the performance, rushing aorund doing this and that like she had been all week, and she had started feeling awful, sick and dizzy and a sharp ache has started in her stomach, the next thing she knew she was in an ambulance on her way to the hospital. She'd asked for him as soon as she awoke on her way in, and again every five minutes since then, all they would tell her was they were trying to reach him. She kept a hand resting over her small bump in her belly, trying her best to hold back her tears, doing a poor job of it. (NT) -- Alysia, Mon, May 22 2006, 7:31am PDT
  • The second he saw her in the bed, he calmed, but was washed over with more guilt than he could imagine. Whatever personal berating he had been doing in the car on the way here intensified when he saw her looking so sick and pale, and he immediately went to her bedside. A doctor just leaving her room with a chart in hand identified him as her husband and informed him that she was stabilized and on painkillers and they were doing their best but she was under strict surveillance - she was overexhausted and things were still up in the air right now. "Baby... I'm so sorry.." he murmured, going to her and immediately picking up the hand that rested on her stomach, brushing a kiss across her forehead. "I'm so sorry I wasn't there." (NT) -- Charlie, Mon, May 22 2006, 7:36am PDT
  • She looked up at him as he entered, murmering his name softly as more tears fell. The pain wasn't as bad as it had been at first- largely due to the painkillers they had given her, but she was still uncomfortable. "They said they couldn't get hold of you..." She bit at her lip as the tears pooled in her dark eyes, her fingers clutching at his hand tightly "I think I'm gonna lose it charlie...it hurts..." She was trying to be strong, but she felt torn apart at the thought of losing the baby she so much hated- why was she so scared of losing it if she didn;t want it? It wasn;t just out of guilt for charlie- it was her own heart that hurt- at the thought that they wouldn;t have their child... (NT) -- Alysia, Mon, May 22 2006, 7:41am PDT
  • "No, no baby be strong.. " He spoke reassuringly, brushing hair back from her face and locking his eyes with her, his hand still holding hers and giving a little squeeze. "We can fight this together.." His heart shattered at the thought of her in pain, and also at the thought that his idea of their perfect family, with their child, could be shattered -- "I love you, you can do this." His free hand dropped down to her stomach, he could tell she was in pain, her muscles all knotted up and tensed, even if her body couldn't read all of the pain, it was very obviously still there. "I'm so sorry, I was working a case and I had a deadline.." (NT) -- Charlie, Mon, May 22 2006, 7:51am PDT
  • Her brow furrowed softly as she faught off the pain and the tears, bringing her gaze back up to him, whispering softly, looking filled with guilt and fear "I'm sorry... I didn;t want her... I wished and prayed for it to be different but I didn;t want this.... I don't want to lose her... " Her face was almost panic striken as she clutched still at his hand, tears falling softly down her cheeks. "I want our baby Charlie... I love her already... I'm sorry... I'm so sorry" (NT) -- Alysia, Mon, May 22 2006, 8:07am PDT
  • "I know you do, baby.." He finally settled himself on the edge of her bed, he hadn't let go of her hand yet, and reached up again to brush hair out of her eyes. "Don't be sorry, babe, I know.." He lifted her hand to his lips and pressed them there -- she looked so tiny and helpless in the bed, nothing like the strong, stubborn woman that he had married. "Whatever happens, it doesn't change the way I love you, you know that? And I am more concerned about you right now, sweetheart. I need you more than I need any baby." He reached to pull the blankets up her chest a little. (NT) -- Charlie, Mon, May 22 2006, 8:24am PDT

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• I found what I needed on the seashores of old mexico -- Nick, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 6:40pm PDT
  He had been pretty paniced when, before his parents could even stop by, the baby's heart monitor had started beating wildly and then slowed dramatically. He had nearly freaked out but tried, to little avail, to be calm for Karlie. He had been whisked out of the room in no time, told to wait in the waiting room and now was pacing the floor, his hand over his face. She had seemed fine a moment ago, totally fine and then suddenly the baby was freaking out and she was still fine but the baby's heart monitor was going crazy and...he was just so confused. His head ache was starting to come back, he was starting to get overwhelmed, his sentenaces weren't coming out right and it was frustating him. All he could hope was that his parents would be there soon and sit with him to calm him down before his head just exploded. Was it possible for heads to just explode? Maybe he would be a first, they could write about him in medical journals and he could be famous. Wait, he was already famous. Damn, his thoughts were just moving to fast for him to control and it was making physically dizzy and sick to his stomach...
  

  
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  • (They had been on their way down to visit with him anyway, but it was a shock when they had passed a bunch of panicked looking doctors wheeling Karlie down the hall on a gurney, all of them talking in huge words that he couldn't quite understand.) Hes going to be in a fit. (He said under his breath as he watched them enter the OR at the end of the hallway. He pursed his lips as he looked over at Kate, concern in his expression.) He was having a fit earlier and his head was bothering him.. we have to find a way to calm him down and you're the best at that. (He admitted, though that bothered him now that he knew what it was like to be the one who was there for his kids. He put his arm around Kate as they walked down to the waiting room and right over to where Nick was pacing.) Nicky.. (He called to him softly, putting a hand on his arm to stop his pacing.) What's going on? (NT) -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 6:48pm PDT
  • He nearly jumped out of his skin when his dad touched him, his eyes narrowing for a touch as if for a second he didn't recognize him. His eyes flitted between Quin and his mom before he let out a deep breath, shaking his head. "Dunno. Didn't understand." He spoke shortly, his lip tucking between his teeth as his brow furrowed and he tried to focus on his words, tried to be able to tell them what was going through his head and what was going on his with his girlfriend but nothing sounded right in his mind so he knew it wouldn't if he opened his mouth. With a growl, he turned away from them, a furious kick sending a plastic chair into the nurses work station and catching the attention of pretty much everyone anywhere near them. (NT) -- Nick, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 6:55pm PDT
  • (He knew as soon as Nick opened his mouth that he had stressed himself to what was probably a breaking point now that he was so dangerously close to further brain damage.) Nick.. calm down. (He said after cringing at the loud echoing bang in the waiting room. He held up a hand when a nurse went to call a security guard, smiling apologetically as he walked over to put his hands on Nick's shoulders.) Whatever it is we'll get it all worked out.. I am sure they will be fine and you need to calm down right now. (He looked over his shoulder at Kate, pleading with her for some help.. he didnt have much experience with this sort of thing.) (NT) -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 7:00pm PDT
  • inside -- Nick/Kate, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 7:12pm PDT
    • (Unlike earlier, when he had been so calm and collected and had been able to help Nick through his episode, he wasn't sure what to do now. He knew that his son would need more than just a brave face and calm words.. he needed his mother to hold him and tell him it would be alright. He chewed the corner of his lip in an unconscious and rare display of his confusion before walking over to the nurses station and getting some water for Nick. He came over to the sofa and sat down on Kate's other side, letting out a breath and just looking at his son. He had missed out on so much with him and now he ached to know more about this broken man before him.. he wanted to have the arrogant and self-assured Nick back and would move mountains to make it happen for him.) (NT) -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 7:23pm PDT
  • His shoulders were shaking as if in sobs but no tears were falling, he was just holding onto his mothers shirt and letting her comfort him. After a few minutes he pulled back, his brow furrowed as he looked over at his mom, lifting his hand to head and tapping his temple. "Messed up." He stated softly, rubbing his temple a touch in hopes of getting the pain in his head to release. He had to calm down a little bit, he had to because he had to be able to communicate with the doctors. "Pills?" He questioned, looking over to his father. He had gotten him pills before...maybe he could again. (NT) -- Nick, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 7:37pm PDT
  • (It broke his heart to see Nick so upset about everything.. though in all actuality, he was one of the few people who could truly understand what Nick was feeling. It was sort of like what he had gone through with his anxieties and the medications he had been on that had made it so that he couldn't properly communicate when he was upset.. He nodded at Nick's words and got to his feet, walking over to the nurses station and having his friend paged down there before filling him in on what was going on and getting some painkillers and a mild depressant for Nick to take, walking back to hand them to him as he took his seat again.) Here, take these. (He said as he held the water out for Nick, then exchanged a look with Kate, shifting his arm around her shoulder.) You should go up later and say hi to your new neice.. it might do you some good to see Brooke and Josh. (NT) -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 7:47pm PDT
  • He nodded gratefully to his dad, taking both the pills and then dropping his head between his knee's, taking a few long breaths. Kate just rubbed his back gently, as she looked over at her husband with a heartbroken gaze. "Shay called, she's excited about little Maddie...she said she misses you..." She spoke softly, just trying to soothe Nick. Nick listened to her, focusing on her breath and slowly felt his mind falling back into proper working order, clearing his throat, he lifted his head after about five minutes of silence, speaking softly. "When that happens..I can't..I can't graps onto anything, no words, there's nothing I can..communicate..." He shook his head, running his hand down his face slowly. (NT) -- Nick, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 8:03pm PDT
  • (He watched as Kate soothed Nick, his expression concerned and yet calm as he listened to her voice and then let his eyes search Nick's face when he looked up at last.) You're not supposed to stress yourself this much.. you just had massive surgery, Nick.. it's to be expected. (He said with a bit of a rueful expression taking over his face as he reached over to absently tuck Kate's hair back where it had fallen forward and was in his viewline.) Did they tell you anything about Karlie, or do you want me to go talk to the doctors.. (NT) -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 8:23pm PDT
  • He took another low breath, his eyes moving over both his parents before he tried to focus and tell them what he knew. "They were going to wait a few days befoe they induced labor but then the baby's heart monitor started going nuts..." He let out a slow breath, his head cocked to the side as he thought it all out. "They said something was wrong with the baby...it wasn't getting the air it needed or something..and they had to perform a c-section and then they just took away." He bit his lip at that, his eyes moving to his parents again. "I'll never forgive myself if something happens to that baby." (NT) -- Nick, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 8:33pm PDT
  • Inside -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 8:52pm PDT
    • inside -- Kate, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 9:02pm PDT
      • Inside -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 9:20pm PDT
        • She let out a soft breath as she watched her husband go out of the room and as if feeling that his mom was sad and his dad had left, Nick lifted his head - having caught about ten minutes of sleep which was good enough for him. His hand rose to run over his face as he looked around, looking towards the door before he pressed a kiss to his mothers cheek and stood, heading outside where his father was. Quietly he came up next to him, pulling out his engraved zippo and a cigarette - if a brain malfunction didn't kill him a little bit of nicotine wouldn't either. Lighting up, he offered his dad the pack to see if he wanted one, inhaling deeply and letting the drug calm him. (NT) -- Nick, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 9:30pm PDT
      • (If he was surprised that Nick had shown up at his side just then, he didn't show it.. it was as though he had expected him to be there all along as he looked over and then took one of the offered cigarettes and made use of Nick's lighter. Man and son stood there in silence for a long moment, watching the cars pass in front of the hospital complex, until at last he found his voice and spoke.) Your old man's a fuckup, Nick. (He said in a matter of fact tone, shifting his weight and looking down at his feet for a moment before his gaze shifted to the road again.) I doubt I'll ever be able to make up for all the hurt I've caused all my life.. but at least I can warn you not to do the same. (NT) -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 9:43pm PDT
  • He shrugged a little, looking out over the parkingly as he let out a soft breath, exhaling the smoke on it. "Can't say I'll do a whole lot..but I'll stick around." He stated, talking about he times his dad had taken off. His eyes moved back to his dad, clearing his throat a little bit. "Look, I know this is kind of awkward and I am not saying that we are going to have the perfect father son relationship or anything like that, cuz I really don't see that happening." He stated honestly. "But I mean...if we can get some mutual respect going at least, that would probably be a start." He shrugged a little. "It's not for me that I am bitter toward you for..." He smiled ruefully, looking over his shoulder to where his mother was sitting in the waiting room. "Someone's got to be pissed at you for her, you know? Cuz she's not and I never understood that." (NT) -- Nick, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 10:26pm PDT
  • (He had to fight back the defensive spirit that welled up inside him.. the need to fight back and defend himself against the shame and guilt he felt at knowing how his son viewed him. He wanted nothing more than the chance to prove to Nick that he could be a father to him.. a grandfather to the next generation as well.. but he would never be able to escape his past.) I am just as angry wth myself for distancing myself from you as I am for what I did to Kate.. and trust me I dont understand why she stuck with me either, Nick. (He ran a hand back through his hair, for once looking a little less than the impenetrable fortress he usually was.) I have a lot of regrets in my life, but being your father is not, nor will ever be, one of them. (NT) -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 10:35pm PDT
  • He let out a soft breath, running his hand through his hair which was now laying shaggy against his head. "It's a lot to let go of in a day." He stated softly before he looked up to his dad. "Wasn't your fault you know, that I got into the accident. Would have happened regardless of what was said between us that day..something would have pissed me off, I was looking for a fight." He shrugged a little, letting out a soft breath before he looked back down to the parking lot, watching the lights from an ambulance as it left the hospital. "I am not saying we can never be close...I am just saying it's a long way to repair some things, you know?" He didn't want his relationship with Quin to be his father's big regret in life either... (NT) -- Nick, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 10:41pm PDT
  • (He nodded, though he wasn't so sure Nick's words would take away the guilt he felt over that day.. he had had a chance to handle the situation better and he hadn;t.) I was so mad that day that I could see myself in you. (He admitted, since it seemed they were both in for admitting things at the moment.) I thought if I got mad enough at you you would want to be different than me.. I'm sorry for that. (He looked up as a streak of lightning flashed across the sky in the distance.. another storm was coming in.) When you were in the hospital I had a lot of time to look back over things.. and now that I have things under control.. with.. (He gestured to his head, meaning the suppressants the army had had him on so that he wouldnt remember the details surrounding his breakdown.) .. I guess what I am trying to say is that things are going to be a lot different between all of us from now on. (NT) -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 10:57pm PDT
  • He took another long hit off the smoke before he looked back to his father finally at his last words. "Yeah? Mom's looked kinda happier the past few weeks..." He stated, he obviously had lived being very concerned for his mother for quite some time - he was definitely protective of her to say the least. "Shay's not really getting any better...been trying to get her to go out and make some friends at school, you know? That kid, he screwed her up pretty bad...problem with getting into a relationship so young I guess." He looked back to the doors of the hospital, sighing softly. He just wanted to be home, with Karlie, curled up in his obnoxiously large bed, comfortable and resting. Instead, he was standing outside of a hospital while who knew what was going on with his kid with some cold rain misting over him. Great. (NT) -- Nick, Mon, May 01 2006, 9:14pm PDT
  • (He too took a long drag off the cigarette he had before dropping it and toeing it out on the pavement, watching the orange cherry die on the ground before slowly exhaling and thinking about things.) I think through all of it your mom saw the good in me, even when I didn't... I'm damn lucky to have her, and I intend on spending the rest of my life making it up to her. (He laughed a little.) I couldn't have a prettier ass to spend the rest of my life kissing. (He teased, shoving his hands into his pockets so that his thumbs were the only thing showing.) I don't understand what happened there.. seemed like everything was going so good and then suddenly that McLean kid was gone.. (He looked over at Nick and then back at the cars again.) You're a good brother, she needs that right now. (NT) -- Quin, Mon, May 01 2006, 9:32pm PDT
  • He shrugged a little at his compliment. "She's a good kid...just fell to fast, to hard, to young. I wish she'd just let her herself meet someone else, I think that would help her take her mind off of him." The conversation was good for him, taking his mind off of Karlie and the baby and allowing his brain to just relax from over taxing itself so many times. "I bet Brooke and Josh are going to have a bunch of kids, never thought I would say it but she's the domestic one in this family these days...I can't see Shay ever wanting to settle down with a kid...she's to into all this politics stuff..." (NT) -- Nick, Mon, May 01 2006, 10:01pm PDT
  • Inside -- Quin, Mon, May 01 2006, 10:09pm PDT

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• Baby, if you can hear me... we need you.. -- Karlie, Sun, Mar 05 2006, 10:52pm PST
  (Had she not spent the entire night awake and simply looking at the peacefully sleeping form of her lover, she would never have made it through the almost eight hour long surgery that day. As it was, she was only fitfully sleeping in the incomfortable chair near the coffee maker in the private waiting room the hospital had provided for her and Nick's parents. She had listened for a while as Kate and Quin quietly discussed what was going on but she had been so distraught and privately exhausted from worrying and staying awake and not caring for her pregnant body that she simply passed out in the chair. Now, almost nine hours later, she stirred and yawned, stretching and wincing at the pain in her back. She looked around the room and frowned, the MacAlister's were gone and she was completly alone. Reaching down, she ran her hand comfortingly over her slightly swollen belly and then noticed the note on the side table, which she reached for with a pensive expression. Flipping it open, she smiled a little at the crooked scrawl of Joaquin MacAlister, telling her that he and Kate had gone home shortly after they had received word that the surgery would take longer than expected. Getting up from her seat, she paced the room for a few moments, eyeing the clock and the window alternately.. waiting for word.)
  

  
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  • The couple had left hours earlier after being assured that they would be contacted as soon as Nick was out of surgery. It was a long, drawn out, complicated and delicate surgery that had seven of the top neurosurgeons in the room for a total of twelve hours. Nick had lost all brain activity twice but was now resting and in a recovery room. The surgery as far as they could tell had been an success and thats what they told Karlie when they came in to update her though they also told her that they would have to wait and see how it went when Nick woke up to see if it was a complete success. The big thing was that there was brain activity being registered which meant that if nothing else...he would come out of the surgery no worse then how he had gone into it. After explaining it all to her, they quietly informed her that she would be allowed to see Nick as soon as he was settled into the ICU and sure enough, twenty minutes later, a nurse was leading the way to the private room Nick was in. (NT) -- Nick, Sun, Mar 05 2006, 11:27pm PST
  • Inside -- Karlie, Sun, Mar 05 2006, 11:35pm PST
    • inside -- Nick, Mon, Mar 06 2006, 12:13am PST
      • Inside -- Karlie, Mon, Mar 06 2006, 12:22am PST
        • He searched her gaze before he realized that she really did understand him and a low breath escaped his mouth, his lips curving into a slow, self satisfied smile as if he had done this all by himself without the doctors help. He laid his head slowly back onto the pillow and closed his eyes for a long moment, just letting himself calm down and really absorb the fact that he was going to be alright, that life would move along as it should as long as he gave it a chance too before he slowly let his eyes open again, the smug, almost cocky expression firmly in place on his face and in his eyes that were suddenly so much brighter then they had been. "Hey." He smiled again, lifting his hand to gently brush away the tears from her cheeks. (NT) -- Nick, Mon, Mar 06 2006, 12:39am PST
      • Inside -- Karlie, Mon, Mar 06 2006, 12:48am PST
        • His eyes drifted over her slowly, taking in her haggard apperance that he had only watched deteriorate without being able to say anything for the past few weeks. "You've looked better, princess." He murmured, though his words weren't mean, more worried and a little scolding. "Think they'll let me out of here soon now?" He was anxious to be home now, to be in his apartment with her and back to work and just living life again. Hell, he was anxious to have a drink of bourbon and smoke a cigar and enjoy life and all its luxeries even more then he had before this had all happened. He would be enjoying that cuban to the fullest extent of enjoying it, not to mention he wanted to be able to make love to her - definately on the top five list of things missed. (NT) -- Nick, Mon, Mar 06 2006, 10:47pm PST
  • (Her eyes rested softly on him and she smiled in a sweetly lopsided sort of way. She had never in her life felt so immensely happy and had such a sense of hope and love within her. She shrugged a little at his comment on her appearance, though oddly enough she wished she did look better for him at the moment, he didn't deserve to see her so drawn out.) I haven't spoken much to the doctors, sweety.. I just wanted to see you. (She had cried against his chest the night before in fear of losing him during the surgery, and all she had wanted was to see him for herself, to prove to herself that he was okay. And now that she knew, like him, she wanted to go home and be normal... hell, she wanted to take care of him and love him.) (NT) -- Karlie, Mon, Mar 06 2006, 10:53pm PST
  • He nodded a little at that, running a hand over his stomach absently before he shifted a little in the bed. "I am kinda hungry...are my parents here?" He had been thinking about his father a lot since the accident, he hadn't been able to communicate with his old man but he did see the way his father looked so guilty and he wanted to assure him that he shouldn't be laying the blame on his own doorstep. Nick had made the decisions he had on his own and wouldn't let anyone else take the blame, especially not Karlie and not his father either. His mind was already working through all the things he wanted to do, he was just excited to feel like he had his life back. (NT) -- Nick, Mon, Mar 06 2006, 11:55pm PST
  • (She shook her head, though she was smiling softly at him.) They went home early this morning, the doctors were going to call them when you got out of surgery. I am sure they are on their way here. (She got to her feet and ran a hand over his hair as though reassuring both of them that everything was okay before looking towards the door.) I am going to go talk to them for a moment, I will be back. (She leaned down to press a kiss to his lips before walking out of the room to find the doctors.) (NT) -- Karlie, Mon, Mar 06 2006, 11:57pm PST

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• She says she's no good with words
  But I'm worse -- Nick, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 7:54pm PST
  Eleven days had gone by with no change in the young mans status. It seemed that his internal injuries were healing as they should be but there was something wrong with his brain, something that was keeping him from opening his eyes and talking to them. They had run every type of test they could think of, brought in specialists from all over the country after being assured by Quin that money was no object. All of them had left puzzled though, not understanding what was keeping the man from waking up, there didn't seem to be any physical abnormalities with his brain, no swelling, no ruptures, no sign of an aneurysm or a stroke, there was just nothing for them to go on. It was a waiting game that was slowly driving everyone crazy and the wear of it was evident on each and every one of their faces and deep into their eyes, it was affecting everyone's very souls. Kate had gathered herself together - due to her husbands being there for her, being her rock and her strength - and was making sure Karlie would eat and get some sleep now and again and while Karlie rarely ever left the room, Quin, Kate and Shay would take turns sitting with her and with Nick. They talked to him, pleaded with him, cried and begged him to wake up to no avail until the evening of the thirteenth day.
  
  It had been a normal day as far as normal went that week, Kate had come in the morning to sit with Karlie and then Quin had come after a few hours of work - life couldn't just stop as much as they wanted it too - and they had just sat in Nicks room, comforting one another and talking to Nick when suddenly, as if he had just been sleeping, his eyes opened and he looked around the room. His eyes focused on his father first of all and he offered a slight half smile though his head felt so groggy. When he continued around the room, his eyes finally laid on Karlie, seeing how drawn and tired she looked, how her eyes were so red and bloodshot and he realized he had done that to her. She must have found out about the girl he had slept with, she looked like she had been crying for days but for some reason he couldn't quite remember coming home that afternoon and telling her. His brow furrowed as he suddenly looked around, realizing that it was weird to have his parents in his room with his girlfriend but this...this wasn't his room. The monitor that was gauging his heart started beeping wildly as he started to panic in his confusion, not understanding what was going on or why he was here. His breath turned a little shallow and ragged as he shifted, wanting to move, wanting to get out of the bed. His arm that had the IV in it jerked, causing his eyes to widen and look down at the needle in his arm. He hated needles, always had, one of the real reasons he had never gotten a tattoo.
  
  "Up!" He suddenly spoke, his eyes pleading with the family around him before he looked back down to the IV. "Up!!" He insisted again, bringing his gaze to theirs and then frowning, panicking more when they didn't respond to his pleads to get the IV out of him. "Over, over, up!" He insisted, pleading with them to please, please get it off. Why weren't they understanding?! His other hand came up to run over his face making him realize he could use that hand and he moved to just pull it out himself, leaving a stain of blood there. He had to get out of there, he was fine, there was nothing wrong with him. He had been a bit stressed over his infidelity and he had been pretty drunk but that was no reason to look at him like he was crazy and put him in the hospital. He had to make Karlie understand it had just been a mistake, a drunken mistake, if he didn't make her understand then his guilt would consume him from the inside out, god, why was it getting harder to breathe and why the Fuck were they still looking at him like that?!
  

  
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  • Inside -- Quin/Karlie, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 8:11pm PST
  • He stilled when his dad touched his arms, his eyes up on him pleading, begging him to understand. "Candy?" He questioned, biting his lip as he looked over at Karlie, his brow furrowed, confusion and pain lining his beautiful eyes. "Open, open days.." He pleaded with her, asking her not to cry and when she didn't stop and his father didn't respond he just growled out, throwing his head back onto the pillow in frustation. Did everyone lose their fucking hearing or what? Why was he the one laying in the bed when they were all the ones who apperantly had something wrong with him? His movements had caused something inside of him to strain and a sharp pain gripped him, his eyes squeezing shut as he shook his head. "Inside! Inside!" It hurts, it hurts, it hurts, he was trying to tell them but they all just stared. Was this his punishment for hurting his girl? That they would all just stare at him while he tried to make amends, while he laid there in pain? (NT) -- Nick, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 8:19pm PST
  • (He kept holding him because he needed to make sure he didn't hurt himself, but he was completely unprepared for what was about to happen..) (She suddenly found her voice and got to her feet.) Let him go.. (She all but screamed the words, causing Quin to jump and leap back from him as she moved to his side, running her hand over his forehead and up into his hair.) Nick.. baby.. calm down.. (She said, her voice shaking with fear and pain.. ) He's hurting.. (She said, looking over at Quin, and when he didn't move she shouted at him.) He's hurting, damnit - get someone! (She was physically shaking then, and turned back to Nick, brushing his hair back and pleading with her eyes.) Baby.. we can't understand what you're trying to say.. (NT) -- Karlie, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 8:36pm PST
  • As soon as he saw her, his eyes filled with tears. He had fucked it all up, messed everything up and he didn't think she was ever going to forgive him and he wasn't sure now how he would make it without her. She could nag him sometimes if she wanted, he wouldn't even complain about it if she would just stay and not leave him. "Remote...can't remote.." He stated, whimpering, lifting his hand to trace over her face before it dropped, his eyes going with it, to her stomach. His hand shifted to push her shirt up, moving his fingers over her stomach. It was the first time he had really acknowledge the baby being there as he played his fingers over the swell, his eyes moving to hers, pleading with her to understand how sorry he was. (NT) -- Nick, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 9:04pm PST
  • (Her brow furrowed and tears filled her eyes as she watched his face, trying desperately to understand what was going on.. she could see the remorse and pain in his eyes.. and she didn't understand either. She knew that he would be upset about not coming home, but she trusted him too much to believe him capable of cheating on her.) We're both fine, Nicky.. (She said, her heart leaping at his acknowledgement of the baby, her eyes softening a little as she pushed his hair back, all but scrambling up onto the side of the bed to sit at his side.) I.. I don't understand.. (She said at his words, his hands moving to brush the tears from his eyes, her touch gentle and loving.. she was so desperately in love with him that it hurt to even consider the fact that he wasn't making any coherant sense.) (NT) -- Karlie, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 9:17pm PST
  • He groaned, dropping his head to the pillow again before he looked at his father, motioning for him to come over to the side of the bed with them. His dad knew, his dad could remind her of what he had did and that way she would leave him now so that he could just be by himself and deal with his breaking heart, he wouldn't have to see her crying. His jaw clenched at his gazed into his dad's eyes, hoping he would get the point as he looked between them, opening his mouth to try and get them to understand with words. "cat gone.." He stated but then growled, jerking away from both of them when they just stared at him confusion. (NT) -- Nick, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 9:24pm PST
  • (She looked at Quin pleadingly, trying to understand what was going on.. he was an adult and a man and both of those things made him the prime candidate for fixing things.. she was in desperate need of her boyfriend, she loved this man.. ) Quin.. get his doctor.. (She said and wet her lips, looking back at Nick when Quin left the room.) Baby, I know you understand what I am saying, but you're not making sense.. nothing you've said has made sense.. (She ran her hand over his cheek, smiled just a little at the fact that he was alive before she leaned down to gently hug him, pressing her face into his neck and tearing up when she caught the familiar scent of him on his neck, mixed with the antisceptic scent of the hospital.) (NT) -- Karlie, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 9:34pm PST
  • He didn't know what he did to deserve her but he was begining to understand that something had happened to put him in here, something was wrong, he just couldn't grasp what it was. His arm moved to wrap around her, holding her tightly to him as he pressed his lips to the top of her head and laid his head back, blinking against the moisture in his eyes. He remembered the fight with his dad, he remembered getting in the car but he didn't remember coming home and facing her...was he just blocking it out? Had it been that bad? A low breath escaped his as he held her, resting his cheek against the top of her head softly. (NT) -- Nick, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 9:53pm PST
  • God, baby I love you so much.. (She murmured against his ear as she held him, her chest constricting in pain as she could almost feel him fighting internally, wishing there was something she could do to help him or make him understand.. but she didn't care what she had to do from now on as long as she had him with her.. that was all that mattered. If he wanted to talk like that.. with odd words that made no sense to her.. she was fine with that.. she just needed him alive to love him, to share their baby with him.. She lifted her head to look down at him.) Don't you ever scare me like that again, do you hear me, Nicholas McAlistar? (She said scoldingly through her tears, brushing his hair back and pressing her lips to his, tasting her own tears. Where the hell was that doctor? They had to fix him.. ) (NT) -- Karlie, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 10:01pm PST
  • He just remained quiet, pressing kisses to her hair before he kissed her lips deeply, not caring that his mother was there. His hand fisted in her hair as he held her to him, kissing her passionately as if to show through the kiss how much he really did love her and he had just been afraid to say. When she broke back, he watched her with silvery blue gray eyes, his hand moving again to her stomach, rubbing over the swell before he looked up to her again, eyes shining with tears still. His eyes moved to the door as the doctor came in, asking him some questions which he once again answered with nonsensical phrases and then growled, huffed and jerked around when he wasn't understood. He was pissed off, he hated the way everyone was looking at him like he was crazy, he wasn't crazy, damn it. (NT) -- Nick, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 10:42pm PST
  • (The passionate way he had kissed her brought out a possesive feeling in her at the knowledge that this was her Nick, he was in there.. this speech thing that was going on was not affecting his thoughts because he had kissed her the way he used to kiss her before.. well, before she'd gotten pregnant. She sighed a bit at his hand moved to her stomach again and she laid her hand over it, smiling gently at him as though knowing he was apologizing to her with his actions. Seeing him get frustrated with the doctors questions made her feel protective and again she waited until breaking point before shouting at him.) Can't you see you're making him angry, will you just tell me what is going on here? (She barely registered Quin's hand on her arm calming her, her eyes were sparking angrily and her hand was tight on Nicks at her stomach.. this was pissing her off as well.. why was he acting this way? Was it some medication they had given him?) (NT) -- Karlie, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 10:59pm PST
  • He frowned heavily before he cleared his throat and ran his eyes over the doctor before closing his eyes as if saying he was done with this all. After a second, the doctor turned to the people in the room. "I can't be sure but what I think is that there has been an injury to his cortex, in the left hemisphere of the brain. We will perform another c-scan to make sure but I have seen this kind of disorder before. I've seen it before in journals...we'll call back the neuroligist from London, he's had experience with this type of disorder before and go from there." He took a deep breath. "The words are sounding right to Nick when he speaks, he's forming the words in his mind but the communicators aren't working as they should and thus the words are coming out scrambled." (NT) -- Nick, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 11:13pm PST
  • (She shook her head.) No, we're not waiting for some crackpot to come here from London.. if you know what's going on then you should damn well fix it because I need to take him home. (She said, and her eyes suddenly filled with tears again, angry and pained tears.. her Nick was not going to have this sort of lasting effect.. he was going to be fine and they were just going to have to fix his.. cortex.. or whatever so that he could speak to her again and she could take him home and baby him and then he would be back to yelling at her and being rude and just being himself.. ) Make it okay so I can take him home. (She said in an angry tone that had everyone in the room looking at her.. she was fed up with this.. they were making Nick feel upset and she didn't want that.. she wanted him to be happy again.) (NT) -- Karlie, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 11:17pm PST
  • He frowned at Karlie's freaking out, he didn't want her to get so upset, all this stress couldn't be good for the baby. His hand slipped to hers, tugging her back to sit next to him instead of standing by the bed. He looked back to the doctor, his brow furrowed heavily. The doctor just waited until she was calm. "Nick has a serious brain injury, he needs to be kept for observation and the specialist is needed for this type of condition. We only want the best for Nick, correct and he is the best there is." He looked to Nick, his head cocked. "For right now, son, just keep resting and work on keeping your mind as calm as possible." (NT) -- Nick, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 11:35pm PST
  • (She looked down at him as he took her hand and tugged her back down to sit next to him, nodding at the doctors words like a pouting child. She wanted to make him happy and he had to be feeling just as frustrated as she was right now. This just wasn't fair.. she promised herself she wouldn't nag him anymore if he would just get better and come home. When the doctor was gone, she shimmied up onto the bed more and curled up against his side, pressing her lips to his neck before laying her head on his shoulder.) Everything will be fine.. (She said more to herself than to him, her hand moving in a lazy circle over his heart. This was all so screwed up.. and she didn't deal well with screwed up.) (NT) -- Karlie, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 11:39pm PST
  • He just nodded and sighed, shifting to tuck his head into the curve of her hip and close his eyes. His body hurt quite a bit, the soreness was really starting to set in and he was seeking the rest that the doctor had talked about. The doctor, seeing that he was in pain, shifted to turn the morphine drip back on - the young man would be knocked cold in no time. She had kept quiet the whole time, sitting in the background and just watching what was going on in quiet shock. A low breath escaped her lips as she ran her hand over her face, her baby would never want to live like this...she knew him. He was to independant, to strong..., (NT) -- Nick/Kate, Wed, Feb 15 2006, 11:42am PST
  • (She was indignant with the doctors, but loving and patient with Nick - it was like a lightswitch that shut off as her eyes moved to him, her hand moving to brush his hair back as she looked down at him. She felt helpless and it was driving her insane.. she wanted to go back to the apartment, to see him sitting on the sofa with his glass of Ecco Domini and his stinky cigars.. she wanted it all back. She could see from the fatigued lines around his eyes that he was in pain, and she wanted to ease that pain, to let him rest.. but she didn't know what to do. Hearing Kate, she turned her head and looked over at her, tears pricking her gaze again.. she didn't have a real close mother figure and she was feeling pretty needy at the moment. Dropping her gaze back to Nick, she soothed herself by smoothing his hair back.) Why don't you get some sleep, Nick.. do you want me to stay with you? (She asked quietly when the doctor left, concern in her gaze.) (NT) -- karlie, Wed, Feb 15 2006, 11:55am PST

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• She says she's no good with words
  But I'm worse -- Nick, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 7:53pm PST
  Eleven days had gone by with no change in the young mans status. It seemed that his internal injuries were healing as they should be but there was something wrong with his brain, something that was keeping him from opening his eyes and talking to them. They had run every type of test they could think of, brought in specialists from all over the country after being assured by Quin that money was no object. All of them had left puzzled though, not understanding what was keeping the man from waking up, there didn't seem to be any physical abnormalities with his brain, no swelling, no ruptures, no sign of an aneurysm or a stroke, there was just nothing for them to go on. It was a waiting game that was slowly driving everyone crazy and the wear of it was evident on each and every one of their faces and deep into their eyes, it was affecting everyone's very souls. Kate had gathered herself together - due to her husbands being there for her, being her rock and her strength - and was making sure Karlie would eat and get some sleep now and again and while Karlie rarely ever left the room, Quin, Kate and Shay would take turns sitting with her and with Nick. They talked to him, pleaded with him, cried and begged him to wake up to no avail until the evening of the thirteenth day. It had been a normal day as far as normal went that week, Kate had come in the morning to sit with Karlie and then Quin had come after a few hours of work - life couldn't just stop as much as they wanted it too - and they had just sat in Nicks room, comforting one another and talking to Nick when suddenly, as if he had just been sleeping, his eyes opened and he looked around the room. His eyes focused on his father first of all and he offered a slight half smile though his head felt so groggy. When he continued around the room, his eyes finally laid on Karlie, seeing how drawn and tired she looked, how her eyes were so red and bloodshot and he realized he had done that to her. She must have found out about the girl he had slept with, she looked like she had been crying for days but for some reason he couldn't quite remember coming home that afternoon and telling her. His brow furrowed as he suddenly looked around, realizing that it was weird to have his parents in his room with his girlfriend but this...this wasn't his room. The monitor that was gauging his heart started beeping wildly as he started to panic in his confusion, not understanding what was going on or why he was here. His breath turned a little shallow and ragged as he shifted, wanting to move, wanting to get out of the bed. His arm that had the IV in it jerked, causing his eyes to widen and look down at the needle in his arm. He hated needles, always had, one of the real reasons he had never gotten a tattoo. "Up!" He suddenly spoke, his eyes pleading with the family around him before he looked back down to the IV. "Up!!" He insisted again, bringing his gaze to theirs and then frowning, panicking more when they didn't respond to his pleads to get the IV out of him. "Over, over, up!" He insisted, pleading with them to please, please get it off. Why weren't they understanding?! His other hand came up to run over his face making him realize he could use that hand and he moved to just pull it out himself, leaving a stain of blood there. He had to get out of there, he was fine, there was nothing wrong with him. He had been a bit stressed over his infidelity and he had been pretty drunk but that was no reason to look at him like he was crazy and put him in the hospital. He had to make Karlie understand it had just been a mistake, a drunken mistake, if he didn't make her understand then his guilt would consume him from the inside out, god, why was it getting harder to breathe and why the Fuck were they still looking at him like that?!
  

  
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• We're making up -- Kate, Sun, Feb 12 2006, 10:35pm PST
  She had gotten there before they had and tried to find word on her baby but it took awhile, finally she found out that he was in surgery, trying to repair a punctured lung and a ruptured something or other. At the moment she was sitting on the bench, her knee's pulled up to her chest and her forehead resting on her knee's as she sobbed into her legs. She had no idea what had possessed him to drink and drive in the middle of the day, they said his blood alchol was near double the legal limit at the time of the accident. She was just waiting for her husband, needing him desperately at the moment. None of her kids had ever been seriously hurt before, this was the first time anything had happened like this and she just didn't know how to handle it.
  

  
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  • Inside -- Quin/Karlie, Sun, Feb 12 2006, 10:43pm PST
    • She nodded through her tears, sobbing into her husbands shoulder for a good minute before she looked up, her eyes finding Karlie and shaking her head. "Get her, she doesn't need to hear what they say..god they make it so cold..get her Quin, before they say anything to her." She pleaded, her whole body shaking. They had been so descriptive when they told her about the bleeding and the ruptures and the tearing and scars and the car being torn in half...she had thrown up in the bathroom after it all and was about again just thinking about it as her husband went to guide Karlie away from the nurses and doctors, bringing her back to him. "It's...its not good, sweetie." Was all she managed to say before she broke down again, Kate never broke down, she wasn't afraid of gore and she rarely cried but right now she was sobbing and shaking, unable to breathe and about to make herself sick. (NT) -- Kate, Sun, Feb 12 2006, 10:46pm PST
  • (He was looking between the two women after he sat Karlie back down, the girl immediately pulling her knees up like Kate had done and looking around like a deer in the headlights.. they were counting on him and he had caused this. He ran a hand over his face and started to pace a bit, feeling the guilt choking him inside.) (She watched Quin pace, her eyes worried.) I threw the remote at him.. I said horrible things.. (She sobbed the last part out, tears swimming in her eyes again, her stomach aching and her head throbbing.) (He shook his head as he looked at Karlie.) It's not your fault, Karlie.. if it's anyone's, it's mine.. I yelled at him before he got in the car.. (NT) -- Quin/karlie, Sun, Feb 12 2006, 10:51pm PST
  • She looked between the two of them with clouded eyes, shaking her head. "It no one's fault but his! What the hell was he thinking driving? It's his own, fault, damnit, for drinking a bottle of bourbon in the middle of the day and then getting behind the fucking wheel!" She looked a little shocked at her own outburst, her hand coming up to cover her mouth before she stood up jogged back to the womens restroom, getting sick once again as she cried, sinking down onto the floor there. She hadn't even told the two of them what all had happened. She forced herself to stand up, going to the sink and splashing cold water on her face before she stepped out of the bathroom, motioning for her husband to come over there with her so she could speak to him privately. (NT) -- Kate, Sun, Feb 12 2006, 10:55pm PST
  • (He left Karlie sitting in the seat crying, glancing back at her worriedly as he walked over to where Kate was, lifting his hand to caress her cheek even though his heart was aching desperately.) Kate.. I did a horrible thing.. (He said before she could speak, the guilt on his chest was just too much for him to bear any longer.) He came over this morning half stinking of alcohol and mused cause he didn't go home last night and we had a really bad fight.. he was crying when he left and he had alcohol in the car I am sure.. (He had a hand on his forehead and he shook his head, his eyes pained, tears threatening again..) He doesn't think I love him, Kate.. He hates me and I let him go.. (NT) -- Quin, Sun, Feb 12 2006, 10:59pm PST
  • She bit her lip at the part about Nick crying, Nicky didn't cry, he already been his mama's strong little boy, taking care of her whenever she was upset. It had to have been a bad fight. "Quin, baby..." She murmured softly, moving to wrap her arms around his neck, squeezing tightly as her own tears streaked over her cheeks. "You didn't force him to drink that alcohol, you couldn't have known he had it in the car, this is not your fault." She stated softly, soothingly, she had meant what she said, it was no one's fault but Nicks, he knew better then to drink like that and then drive afterwards. "I know he won't blame you for it and you shouldn't be blaming yourself love.." She was talking like her baby was going to make it because she knew he would, he was so strong. "He's so strong, he'll make it through this, he has to make it through this..." Quin and Karlie didn't know how serious it was, how Nick was laying between life and death right now. (NT) -- Kate, Sun, Feb 12 2006, 11:04pm PST
  • (He felt like he didn't deserve her coddling when he had been such a loser.. he deserved to walk out of their lives and never look back, to suffer through this on his own the way Kate had suffered through his meager ability to be there for her.) I'm so sorry Katie.. God I'm sorry.. (Now he was crying.. and he had never cried in front of her before.) I'm sorry I wasn't there for you and for Nick.. God, I thought I was helping him not be like me and I made him hate me.. and now he's... (He trailed off, trying desperately to gather himself, men like him just didn't cry in public.. but he was so broken down about this.) He has to make it through.. (He had to set things right with his boy.. that was all their was to it.. so Nick had better make it, he wouldn't let his boy go.) (NT) -- Quin, Sun, Feb 12 2006, 11:08pm PST
  • She ran her hands over the back of his head, holding her husband closely as they cried for their boy together. It must have been one hell of a fight because she knew Nicky would never bring up the way he felt his father neglected him to Quin, he was to proud for that so all of this had to have come out that day. Plus, he only called her Katie when he was feeling particulary emotional. Her hand soothed over his hair before she leaned back to speak, swallowing heavily. "He hit a semi, his car was torn in half.." It made her ill to even talk about it and it showed the way her eyes closed and she leaned more heavily against him. (NT) -- Kate, Sun, Feb 12 2006, 11:18pm PST
  • (He seemed to go from loosely sobbing to suddenly tense in a split second, his shoulders tightening and his breath stopping for a long moment. When his head came up, his eyes were shocked, as though perhaps he expected her to suddenly admit that she had been joking.. his boy had only been in a car accident.. it couldn't be as bad as she made it sound. The expression on her face when her eyes closed had his breath coming out on a choked sob, and his knees suddenly felt very weak.) Is he... will he..? (He was asking her just how bad it was, not for the specifics, but for the general prognosis.. he needed some hope to cling to because he was slipping swiftly into a dispair that would land him in a hospital bed beside his son.) (NT) -- Quin, Mon, Feb 13 2006, 7:21pm PST
  • She let out a shaky breath, pulling back from him as she ran her hand down her face, trying to keep control of her emotions and gain control and some grip on herself. "They don't know..he was in surgery last time I talked to anyone." She stated with a shaky breath, her brow furrowed as she looked up at her husband. Now that she knew that he had gotten into the fight with their son she knew he had to be feeling horrible. Her eyes moved over to Karlie, crying on the bench, as she let out a soft breath, her brow furrowed. "She can't talk to a doctor, I got sick from hearing the details, she won't be able to handle it." (NT) -- Kate, Mon, Feb 13 2006, 7:49pm PST
  • (He sighed as well as she took a shaky breath, his hands brushing aside his own tears as a cold and resolute darkness filled him inside.. he felt like of all the people in the world that deserved a miracle to occur, he was not the one to ask for his son's recovery... but for Karlie, he would ask - because she deserved for Nick to recover.. and for Kate who deserved her son's love.) She feels like it's her fault that he went out last night. (He said as though it were rediculous she think it, when it was so obvious that he was the cause.) I need a moment, will you go to her? (He needed to go outside for a moment, he was suddenly feeling really warm and the anger boiling in him needed to come out.. just not in front of the women.) (NT) -- Quin, Mon, Feb 13 2006, 8:00pm PST
  • She gazed at him for a second before she nodded and turned away from him, letting out a soft breath as she just tried to get a grip on herself. She went over to the bench where Karlie was at, wrapping an arm around the girls shoulder. "He's a strong headed boy with a quick temper like his father, you can't be blaming yourself for this." She murmured softly, brushing her hand over the girls hair as she watched Quin's back as he left to go outside. She seemed to always be seeing his back...shaking her head she focused back on Karlie, intent on just holding the girl and comforting her. (NT) -- Kate, Mon, Feb 13 2006, 8:28pm PST
  • Inside -- Karlie/Quin, Mon, Feb 13 2006, 8:55pm PST
    • She wasn't quite sure what to tell the girl, she was good at talking people out of shooting someone but comforting really wasn't her strong suit when she just wanted to be comforted herself. She was also a little confused when she didn't see Quin come back in and it had been a half hour. "I'll be right back, sweetie..." She murmured to Karlie who had almost cried herself to sleep. She stood up, heading out the doors to look around, figuring he was indulging in a smoke or something, hoping to God he hadn't left but when he wasn't anywhere to be found her heart sank, her eyes closing as she let out a slow breath. She needed him so desperately right then and he just...left. (NT) -- Kate, Mon, Feb 13 2006, 9:51pm PST
  • (The doctors had run several scans on him and had found a substance in his blood that was acting as an inhibitor - which they found out was in the drug he had been prescribed by the agency. They had spent the next twenty minutes on the phone with doctors at the agency running through the information in his file from when he had been enlisted in the force.. and they had finally figured out what had made him snap. One of the doctors finally realized that his son was the one in the ER and that his wife would be out there waiting for him, so he walked out to find her outside.) Kaitlyn McAlistar? I have some information regarding your husband, can I see you inside please? (He asked and then lead the way into a patient room where Quin was sitting in a chair with an IV in his arm, his head leaned back as he dozed from the sedatives.) (NT) -- Quin, Mon, Feb 13 2006, 10:04pm PST
  • "My husband?" She questioned, standing up. "My husband isn't here, my son is...my son Nickolas.." She followed the doctor none the less but then stopped suddenly when she saw Quin. "What happened? What happened to him?" Her voice was near hysterics at that question, she couldn't handle this, she couldn't deal with something being wrong with him too, she just couldn't. Her heart couldn't take anymore and if anything else happened to her little family she may just take off running out the door screaming. (NT) -- Kate, Mon, Feb 13 2006, 10:17pm PST
  • (The doctor laid a hand on her arm as Quin groggily lifted his head.) He had a bit of a breakdown, we had to sedate him. He'll be just find when he wakes up fully. (He frowned a little as he looked at her.) I brought you in here because I am concerned about some information I found when I dug into his medical files. It seems they've been treating him for Asperger's Syndrome.. which is sort of like autism.. but he doesnt display any of the symptoms of that disease. (He crossed his arms over his chest as he looked from the groggy man sitting next to him, trying to open his eyes but failing miserably. He patted Quin's shoulder to get him to settle down and relax before he continued.) When we did some blood work on him we found high levels of inhibitors in his blood.. this wouldn't be a huge issue unless I hadn't already seen a lot of the symptoms of Post Traumatic Stress in your husband.. how long has he been taking this medication? (NT) -- Doctor, Mon, Feb 13 2006, 10:25pm PST
  • "I..I don't know..." She couldn't handle this right now, her son was fighting to live on a surgery table just a few rooms down and this was going on now? Her hand was shaking as she raised it to her forehead, trying to think. "Years, we've been married twenty two years and he went on it before we were married..." She ran her hand down her face, trying to keep from breaking down in sobs at the very moment but it was difficult. If she were a lesser woman she would be breaking down right now but she was using ever ounce of strength within her to stay focused and help Quin and soothe Karlie and pray for her son and she needed to call someone to go over and let Shay know what was going on, there was just to much to take in at the moment. Her hand went to her stomach, fighting the queasiness and the urge to just scream out the injustice of all this to god. What had she done wrong to deserve all this to be rained down on her family at once? (NT) -- Kate, Mon, Feb 13 2006, 10:46pm PST
  • (He nodded and wrote something down before he went over and checked Quin's IV, sighing a little bit before he looked to her.) I am running some liquids through him to cleanse his system out, it should help clear his head a bit. As far as I can tell someone has been keeping him from remembering something that happened to him and it has been causing these reoccuring episodes that keep showing up in his records. Any solitary behavior or mood alterations would be due to this drug. (He realized he was rambling and that the woman was probably on the verge of a breakdown herself.) I'm sorry to break all this on you today.. have you heard anything more about your son? (NT) -- Doctor, Mon, Feb 13 2006, 10:53pm PST
  • She was about to say something before she shook her head, her hand going to her mouth. "I am going to be sick." She muttered out before she spun around to the bathroom attached to the room, dropping down on the tiled floor once again and losing...well nothing, her stomachs contents had long since been emptied so it was yucky stuff really. She absently noted how bad it tasted through her tears before she just reached up, patting around to find the faucet and turning on the water, running her hand over it and bringing her hand to her face, her hands shaking as she fought the sobs that were inside her throat, tearing it apart. This wasn't just an emotional pain, it was physical, her family was falling apart in front of her and she couldn't do a damn thing to stop it. She was supposed to be the strong one, damnit, the one who held everything together and kept everyone else going and she just couldn't stop crying. (NT) -- Kate, Mon, Feb 13 2006, 11:15pm PST
  • (He watched the woman run out of the room and registered the fact that her words had elevated her husband's pulse, showing he was near free of the sedatives effects. He sighed and followed her out into the hall, getting one of the nurses to take her a glass of water with electrolyts in it to calm her stomach and to show her back to the room her husband was in while he went to check in on her son. It would only be another ten minutes before Quin was able to blink groggily at the door opposite him, his throat was dry and he was feeling really disoriented and confused,, but for the first time in a long time his head felt clear. He kept opening and closing his hand on his thigh as he tried to figure out what had happened and why he was in this room when it all started to come back to him.. the fight, the accident, Kate and Karlie and his anger.. ) (NT) -- Doctor, Mon, Feb 13 2006, 11:34pm PST
  • inside -- Kate, Mon, Feb 13 2006, 11:38pm PST
    • Inside -- Quin, Mon, Feb 13 2006, 11:58pm PST
  • Tears were streaking her face, her hair was mussed, her eyes swollen and red as she looked up at him, sobbing heard when she heard her nickname that only he was allowed to use so tenderly come from him lips. "God..Quin..." She murmured, dropping into his arms and clinging from him, for the first time in years seeing the love of her life in those green depths, she couldn't put into words how much she needed him then, how much she needed his strength and his support that was her baby in there, their first born child, their only boy and the sobs that were coming from her could only be those of an anguished mother in pain for her child and her family. "Shay..someones got to be there for Shay..." Their girl had just turned eighteen and had gotten heartbroken and she couldn't be left alone when she heard this news on top of her heartache, Shay had always been Quin's favorite, though of course the kids didn't know that but Kate did... (NT) -- Kate, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 12:12am PST
  • (He made soft soothing sounds to her as he rocked her, his embrace strong and at the same time tender. He felt horrible for her.. for what she was going through in all this trying to hold her family together. Now he could help her shoulder that weight.) It's okay.. we'll go out there and be there for her.. (He said and pressed his lips to hers, trying his best to comfort her when he could feel the anguish in her breaking his heart.) (NT) -- Quin, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 12:20am PST
  • She took some solace from the kiss, her hand moving up to his face as she swallowed and drew back, her eyes searching his - not even realizing how strange it was to be sitting on the bathroom floor - as she let out a shaky breath. "Are you ok?" She questioned, the sobs subsiding though the tears were still falling and her hand was still on his cheek as if to make sure he was really there and with her. "You..you disappeared and then the doctor came and got me and said..I don't know what he said..something.." She bit her lip, her brow furrowed gently as she gazed at him, into those bright, alert green eyes that she had fallen in love with. (NT) -- Kate, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 12:30am PST
  • (He searched her gaze with his own as she pulled back, framing her face with his hands and brushing her hair back.. his poor sweet Katie.. she looked so warn and afraid and he wanted to slay her dragons so badly.) I got really angry.. (He brought his hands up to show her the white wrappings that covered his knuckles from where he had beaten them again the bricks outside. Nevertheless, he reached over to pull her up to her feet as he got to his own.) Physically I feel perfect.. (He kissed the tear tracks from her eyes and steadied her with his hands on her upper arms.) We should go back out to Karlie.. Shay will be here soon too.. (NT) -- Quin, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 12:41am PST
  • She was tired of being the strong one, she didn't want to be the parent anymore, she just wanted to curl up in her husbands lap and cry until her baby was ok. Instead, she just nodded and let him lead her out there, though her eyes seemed bleak and empty. She was just about to sit down when Shay came in, tears on her own cheeks as she ran to her mom and hugged her tightly. Kate just rested her cheek on the top of her now fakely dark haired childs head and ran her hand over her hair soothingly, trying to comfort her littlest girl while she felt like death herself. (NT) -- Kate, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 1:23am PST
  • (He sighed when Shay ran in, his eyes taking in the tears on her cheeks and the pain in her eyes. He put his arms around the pair of them and offered them both his strength.. he was feeling the most level headed he had been since before he had married Kate and he would question it all later.. for now he had to be there for his wife and kids, and oddly enough he felt like if he shouldered the burden for them now it would help him undo some of the hurt he had caused in the past. He just wished he knew what was going on with his son.. and as his eyes wandered over Karlie, asleep on the couch near the wall and rumpled from her tears.. he lifted a prayer that everyone would make it through this okay.) Come on guys. let's go take a seat, I think Karlie might like some company.. (NT) -- Quin, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 1:31am PST
  • She nodded at Quin's words, heading over to the bench where Karlie was and settling down, letting go of Shay as the girl moved into Quin's arms as soon as he sat down. She gazed over at the two of them blankly for a moment before she looked up as the doctor came in, letting out a soft breath at the serious look on his face. Her boy had to be ok there was no way he was anything but ok. He cleared his throat lightly. "Your the McAlistar family, correct?" He questioned before he spoke. "Nick is out of surgery for the time being and in the ICU. We were able to repair all the internal injuries to the best of our ability. Our biggest obstacle is that as of yet he hasn't regained consciousness and we are now playing the waiting game. We can't tell if there is any brain damage until he awakens... (NT) -- Kate, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 1:43am PST
  • (He held Shay tight to his side as the doctor came over to them, his eyes sharply assessing the man as he spoke and his hand moving over her arm as she held onto him. He looked over at Kate and sighed a bit, at least Nick was out of surgery and alive.. they would take one thing at a time and be pleased with it.) Thank you. (He said and was about to keep talking when little Karlie finally spoke.) (She had been good about behaving herself all along, but she was fed up with waiting and her heart was breaking....) I need to see him. (The voice that came from her didn't sound like her, it was a resolute sound and born from her intense need to reassure Nick that she loved him.) (NT) -- Quin/Karlie, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 1:46am PST
  • The doctor paused, his brow knitting together for a second. "One person can go in at a time but I have to warn you...he doesn't look good." Honestly, he didn't even look like Nick, his face was bruised and swollen as was most of his body and his chest was wrapped in guaze thanks to the surgeries. A few ribs were broken, his wrist had been smashed to piece, it just wasn't a pretty sight. "When your ready a nurse will take you back." He felt horrible for the young man's family, it had been a long time since he had seen an accident this bad. (NT) -- Doctor, Tue, Feb 14 2006, 1:59am PST

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• (He was humming a song that had been on the radio on the way to the hospital even when they had been settled into a consultation room. The nurse had come in and taken Skye's weight, blood preasure, temp and other readings and then left the two of them to wait for the doctor. He had started to get bored and that damn song was stuck in his head, so after a few seconds silence.. he started humming. He looked the picture of calm and cool, in faded jeans and a black wool sweater, his hair a few weeks past due for a trim and a few days worth of growth shadowing his face. He tapped his left hand on his knee as he hummed, getting into the song, his eyes wandering the room and the many instruments and diagrams.) -- Niko, Tue, Dec 20 2005, 9:03pm PST
  
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  • She was all settled into the examining gown as she laid out on the bed, cocking a brow at his humming and tapping. She knew those signs, he was as nervous as she was, he was just better at hiding it. Sliding her eyes closed, she absently prayed that this whole thing would go better then she thought it would. Within moments a doctor came in, smiling at them and then proceeding with the initial examination. It took a good half hour and by the time it was all done she was exhausted from being so tense. The doctor left the room, promising to be back shortly before Sky finally looked to him. She was wondering if he was thinking about when he went through all of this with Fyre. It had to have been so much easier with her, less tension, more happiness... (NT) -- Skye, Tue, Dec 20 2005, 9:23pm PST
  • (He hadn't been thinking that at all, he was mostly just thinking that doctors offices had a really odd smell to them.. and wondering what could cause that smell. That thought was closely followed by one along the lines of how he wasn't sure he liked having the doctor's hands on an area of his woman that was his. That made him smirk a little and the song went ahead and took his attention again. He caught her looking at him and arched a brow.) Something on my face? (He questioned, lifting his hand to his cheek, smiling though. He knew she was nervous, and wanted to ease her tension.. but he figured if he started to worry it would just make it worse.) (NT) -- Niko, Tue, Dec 20 2005, 9:27pm PST
  • "No..just..thinking." She stated softly, pursing her lips before the doctor came in. Softly, the young man cleared his throat. "First of all, I would like to say that your main focus right now should be on the fact that you are pregnant." He stated, trying to make things a little easier on this couple. "With all the scar tissues and internal damage in your fallopian tubes, it's a miracle in itself that you concieved." He tipped his head to the side, looking down at his clipboard. "This baby obviously is very strong and has a good chance of making it through this." He paused, letting out a low breath. "That being said, I can tell you that currently the baby is healthy and seems to be doing well, your vitals are good and so are its...the chances that you are going to be able to carry to term though is very, very slim." (NT) -- Doctor, Tue, Dec 20 2005, 10:02pm PST
  • (From the moment the doctor said the word 'damage' until the end of the lecture, Niko had been holding his breath, brow furrowing in question. He looked from the Doctor to Skye and back, and when the doctor finished speaking his breath rushed out of him.) What kind of damage? (He asked, concern and worry running through his eyes, he went to Skye's side and took her hand, looking down at her and then at the doctor. She had to be feeling like hell, and he was just so damned confused.. she had carried Sam fine.. why would she have trouble carrying this baby. They couldn't lose another baby.) So, we'll just have to have a scheduled cesarean, right? (He said finally, the last word carrying a tone that was almost daring the doctor to tell him otherwise.) (NT) -- Niko, Tue, Dec 20 2005, 10:07pm PST
  • She stiffened at Niko's question, her eyes squeezing shut as she shook her head. She knew this was going to come back to her, she couldn't believe she had tried to act like it hadn't happened. It had happened and she couldn't get away from it. The outward scars may be gone but the internal ones would never go away and now these men were causing her even more pain even though they were locked behind bars hundreds of miles away. Her breath turned ragged as the thoughts of what they had done to her started accosting her mind, her heart picking up pace as she swallowed, shifting in the bed as if trying to get away from the memories. "I told them no..Niko..I swear to god I did.." She gasped out, the words choked on a sob that was lodged deep in her throat. (NT) -- Skye, Tue, Dec 20 2005, 10:25pm PST
  • (His eyes took on a bewildered look.. she looked like she was having a nightmare and he was at a loss for words. He turned to face her totally, his back to the doctor, laying a hand on her shoulder gently, the other to her cheek. His voice was slightly hoarse as he tried to figure out what was going on here.) Skye, baby.. what's going on? (He ran his hand through her hair, eyes searching hers, wanting to fight the battle for her and ease the pain etched into her face.) Who did you tell no? What happened? (NT) -- Niko, Tue, Dec 20 2005, 10:29pm PST
  • She shook her head, drawing her gown closer around herself as she tried to stop the tears that were threatening. The doctor who was in there stepped out, calling to someone before he came back in with the agency's official doctor. He was always alerted when an agent came in for anything, just to be on the safe side, and when he heard about this appointment he had made sure to be here. Clearing his throat, he nodded to Niko. "Mr. Marita, long time no see." He stated softly before he looked towards Skye. "Angelhawk, why don't you get dressed and then we'll talk a little more about all this, shall we?" (NT) -- Skye/Doc, Tue, Dec 20 2005, 10:58pm PST
  • (His eyes glazed over with anger when he saw the agency doctor and two seconds after he heard him use her call name, he had the man by the collar backed up against the wall.) What the fuck is going on here? (He demanded, his lips drawn tight in a thin line of determination, his eyes steely mahogony slits, and his fingers bruising the man's neck. He wasn't angry, he was seething.. and people got hurt when Freebird hit seething. The last time he had seen this man, Skye had had to have an abortion.. so they weren't on good terms to begin with.) (NT) -- Niko, Tue, Dec 20 2005, 11:04pm PST
  • The man took a long slow breath as deep as he could as his muscle tensed. "I think we should talk about it when Skylar is fully dressed and more stable." He stated, looking over at Sky who was crying and had her arms wrapped around herself. The flashbacks hadn't been happening, the dreams had stopped as long she was sleeping in his arms but all this was bringing back the pain and memories with a vivid detail that was attacking her emotionally and mentally. She could feel the rape, feel the cuts as they tore at her, she couldn't get away from the heat that branded her skin. She just wanted to be with Nio, to be wrapped in his arms, talking about their life and their baby, not talking about how terrorists could have taken that all away from them - could still be taking that all away from them quite possibly. (NT) -- Skye, Tue, Dec 20 2005, 11:26pm PST
  • (His eyes had softened when he looked at her, but they were tiger's eyes that turned on the man he held in his graps, feet barely touching the floor. He could hear Sky crying and that made him even angrier. Someone had hurt her deeply, and he was going to find out who it was and kill them.) Get the fuck out of my sight. (He said in a commanding voice, a tone he hadn't used since he left the agency. He dropped the man from his grip, taking satisfaction in the deep bruising on his neck, the man was lucky he hadn't taken a swing at him. He turned then, the fire in his eyes almost visible as he went to her, gathering her into his arms and tucking her face into his neck. Rocking a little with her, he fought the anger and the ache that was assaulting him.) (NT) -- Niko, Tue, Dec 20 2005, 11:32pm PST
  • She sobbed into his shirt, twisting her fingers there as she tried to stop the memories from assaulting her. Her sobs caught in her throat, almost choking her as she stiffened in his arms, still clinging to him as if she knew that he was her life line but the terror just wouldn't let her go. "I wanted them to stop, I asked them, I begged them..." She muttered against his chest, the tears hot and rapid as they strayed down her cheeks, her neck, all over his shirt. She was a mental and emotional mess, he had been the dam that had stopped it all from overflowing but now this, this was beyond him being able to hold back. This was a threat to their baby, to their family, to their relationship and it made her remember how unworthy she was of all of this. "So dirty...so used..." She choked out, shaking in his arms. "So broken..bleeding everywhere...hurt so bad..." All the words were broken, choked out. (NT) -- Skye, Tue, Dec 20 2005, 11:38pm PST
  • (His hands started to shake as he held her there, pressing soft kisses to her face, tasting the tears on her cheeks.) God.. baby.. (He all but moaned the words, feeling weak at the knees with the anger and hurt. This was what had happened to her when she had been held hostage.. they had violated her.. He usually had the words to say when she was upset, he was usually so apt to find his inner strength when she needed a warrior at her side.. but now, he felt useless.. helpless.. he had failed her. His fingers twisted into her gown the same way hers were in his shirt and he felt hot tears spring to his eyes. He hadn't cried for anyone since Fyre, but he had never felt so rocked to the core before either. This was something he couldn't save her from, he couldn't take from her.. it denied him his fundamental position in her life.. he couldn't protect.) I love you baby.. (He murmured, his chest tight with anguish for her.) (NT) -- Niko, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 12:07am PST
  • "I didn't mean to hurt our baby..I didn't mean it..." She shook violently in his arms, desperately needing something that only he could provide just by being there. "I knew I would be bad, I knew I would be so bad...I knew I would hurt it, I always do. I hurt everything..ruin everything..slut..whore..." She shook her head, her jaw clenched, her teeth gritting together as she squeezed her eyes shut against the memories. "Plastic, not real..no heart, no feelings..." She bit her lip, drawing a slight bitter taste of coppery blood into her mouth. "Please make them stop..." She wrapped her arms tighter around herself, her breath coming in short gasps. The threat of what they had done to her harming Niko's child had just sent her over the edge, into the memories but this time she didn't have the shield of anger, it was just the pain and the hurt...the terror most of all. (NT) -- Skye, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 12:16am PST
  • (Panic welled in his eyes and he felt like he was losing her somehow, like she was drawing into herself and he couldn't stop it. He put his hands on her cheeks and held her face steady.) Skylar, look at me, damnit. (He said in a panicked tone, his hands shaking as he willed her to open her eyes, to stop this frightening display. She felt cold, like a ghost.. and her face had gone pale and her eyes were so dim.. so much like when she had come home to him from that awful ordeal.. no wonder she hadnt wanted to talk to him. ) It's not true, Skye.. don't give into it.. you're safe now, safe.. (He muttered, feeling her heartbeat picking up, wondering if she was going to be alright.. how did he help her?) (NT) -- Niko, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 12:27am PST
  • She stopped talking but she kept crying and it went on, the harsh sobs turned into a torrent of tears and then a trickle and then silence as she just rested against his chest. She didn't want to move, she felt so drained. She didn't think she would be capable of speaking or moving for some time. Her eyes closed and within minutes she was fast asleep. A few minutes later, the agency doctor stepped back in, letting out a soft breaht. "Now, do you think your ready to talk?" he questioned, his hand moving to rub at the bruises at his neck, eyeing the young man with the so broken woman in his arms. "There are things that you should know...if she's going to be in your care." (NT) -- Skye/Doctor, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 12:34am PST
  • (He stood there, holding Skye in his arms as if she were a precious item that he was afraid to let go of. His eyes narrowed at the entrance of the doctor, but he refrained from throttling him as his instinct urged. Instead, he lowered Skye to the bed and placed a kiss to her forehead, whispering in spanish that he loved her and would be there for her. Raising his head, he eyed the doc.) Speak. (He said, hands going into his pockets.) (NT) -- Niko, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 12:42am PST
  • <<>> -- Doc, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 12:51am PST
    • (He narrowed his gaze at the man and sighed.) So you aren't going to tell me what happened to her, you're just going to give me more bad news to hand to her on top of this. (He nearly growled.) If she had been more aware of this maybe she would have taken more precautions against the pregnancy in the first place. (He paced the room, eyes filled with temper and barely tapped rage. She had been going through this all along and he had been blissfully unaware.. had he hurt her when they made love? Had he said things to her to make her afraid of him? No wonder she saught reassurance from him about his feelings.. she must have felt so alone.. He looked over at her laying there sleeping, unconscious seeming, and sighed. He wanted to help her but he was at a loss.) (NT) -- Niko, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 12:57am PST
  • "I am fairly certain she thought it was near impossible to get pregnant by natural means." He stated before he cleared his throat. It was hard to be a man in love and see your partner suffering so much. "You want the details, Niko?" He questioned, his brow furrowed as he spoke softly, going into vivid detail of the crimes that had been committed against his girlfriend. Humiliating, painful, inhuman things. Things that were enough to make a girl be afraid to be touched for the rest of her life and she would have been except that it was Niko and she knew Niko wouldn't hurt her like that. After a long breath, he almost felt ill himself, he finally stopped. "There, now you know." (NT) -- Doc, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 1:06am PST
  • How could this happen on my watch? -- Niko, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 1:13am PST
    • She didn't move for a few long minutes, it was about twenty five before she opened her eyes, her brow furrowed. She had a pounding headache and was a little confused as to where she was when she looked around. She felt the strong reassurance of Niko behind her though, so she moved back a little closer to him, her brow furrowed. "..Damn...my head is killing me." She stated absently, running a hand down her face. Her mind had blocked out what had just happened for the moment, unwilling to deal with the memories again. She ran her hand down his arm, frowning when she felt how tense he was. Her thoughts ran trying to recall what had happened, why she had fallen asleep here, why he was so tense....it was like a bad dream that was evading her. (NT) -- Skye, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 1:03pm PST
  • You're all I want, you're all I need.. you're everything.. everything. -- Niko, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 1:11pm PST
    • She shifted a little to face him a bit more, her arms slipping around his body and hugging him tightly as she pressed a warm kiss to his jaw, her eyes concerned. "Whats wrong?" She questioned, her brow furrowed. "Is something wrong with the baby?" Her voice turned a little worried, trying to remember what had happened before she fell asleep. Her hand shifted to squeeze his softly, a little worried and concerned at the tone of his voice and the look in his eyes. "Niko?" She knew what had happened to her but she had managed to section it off into another part of her mind where it didn't seem so real. All the torture, thats why she had been so intent on dying when she first came back from the mission, she hadn't wanted to live and have to deal with all the afteraffects of everything that had been done to her. (NT) -- Skye, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 1:41pm PST
  • (He was quiet after she kissed him, drawing his hands up to her cheeks and bringing her lips back to his, kissing her like he was dying and she held the only source of breath left to save him. His eyes were so sad, his throat felt so tight and he felt utterly unworthy of her.. this strong woman who had made it through so much on her own.. she had no need for him. Yet he held her anyways, uncapable of letting her stand on her own in a world without morals.) Damnit, Skye.. (He said, his hands caressing her cheeks, running down her arms.) They hurt you. (He said through gritted teeth, unable to say what he was feeling, it was deeper than anything he had ever experienced.) (NT) -- Niko, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 1:52pm PST
  • She searched his gaze for a moment before she let out a soft breath, her brow furrowed a touch as she suddenly remembered what had brought them here, what had made her exhaust herself to the point of near passing out. Her eyes slid shut for a second, resting her forehead against his, her voice soft when she spoke. "Yeah..they did..." She murmured softly, tipping her head to the side to brush her lips softly against his. "...but you saved me." She wasn't lingering on the pain anymore, if she had a flashback it felt real and that was terifying but when she was just thinking about it all, she wasn't focused on what happened. Now, her fears were based in how what had been done could affect their baby. (NT) -- Skye, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 1:59pm PST
  • (He let out a soft sigh when she kissed him, wanting to be angry.. to throw a tantrum.. break things and react as he would have when he was a volitile agent.) I didn't save you.. I left you in the agency to fend for yourself.. (He had told her back then that he knew she could protect herself, she was a powerful agent.. she had riveled and matched him and they had worked well together. He tangled his fingers in her hair and held her close to him, his forehead against hers still.) I let them hurt you.. I couldn't protect you.. God.. (The last word came out on a moan as he felt the defeat taking him over. He had damaged her so many times.. gotten her pregnant, sent her into the arms of an overbearing man and then deserted her in a job they had tackled together.. and now he had gotten her pregnant again and she might not be able to carry the baby.) I'm so sorry, Skylar.. I love you so much. (NT) -- Niko, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 2:09pm PST
  • "..you didn't let them hurt me baby.." She murmured softly, drawing his eyes to meet hers. "No one could stop what happened there except for me and those men and neither one of us did. You couldn't have helped me at all, it was beyond your power. If it wasn't for you though, Niko, I would have been gone right after I got back home. You were the only thing that kept me alive during that. If it wasn't for you I would either be dead or still laying in that dark room, refusing to see light or people." She let out a slow breath. "I'm sorry I didn't stop them, I am sorry I didn't get them to stop before it got to this point where my shitty decisions could hurt our baby..." Her brow furrowed, her hand splaying over her flat stomach. (NT) -- Skye, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 2:23pm PST
  • (He took her hand from her stomach and brought it to his lips, kissing it in a gentle touch that was the opposite of the fierce look in his eyes.) You couldn't have stopped them either, amante, and you know that. If anyone is to blame it is the agency. (He said, his voice taking on a dangerous edge to it as his eyes narrowed.) They're turning their back on you now, because you want a normal life. (He said with a gritted voice, a muscle working as his jaw clenched.) They told me everything that happened to you, Skye.. like it was a list of things to be picked up at the store. (He pressed his lips to hers again, several times, little kisses to calm his nerves.. to keep him from searching that man down and harming him again.) We'll find a doctor to help our baby, Skylar.. we'll get through this. (NT) -- Niko, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 2:30pm PST
  • She rolled her eyes, smiling lovingly at him if not somewhat humoringly. "They are giving up on me because I am pregnant, for the second time, with one of your children and they are starting to realize they aren't going to be able to keep us apart. Plus, I think they think I am crazy." She offered a slightly smile, tipping her head to the side and brushing her hand over his shaved head. "I love you Niko..." She murmured softly before she cleared her throat, looking around the hospital room. "Are we done here?" She questioned, she would like to get dressed and get out of there. (NT) -- Skye, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 2:46pm PST
  • (He let his brow furrowed.) Good.. they don't deserve you, amante. (He said, sharing in her smile and leaning forward to kiss her firmly, possessively. She was his now, no agency was hurting her anymore, no one was getting between them- not his mother or anyone else. He nodded and rose from where he was sitting, straddling an examination bed in a gynological office- somewhere he would have never pictured himself.) Yes, they were done. (He stopped her before she could rise though.) We'll find a specialist Skylar, someone that can help us. (He smiled reassuringly, getting up then and handing her her shirt.) (NT) -- Niko, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 2:52pm PST
  • She let out a slow thoughtful breath before she started getting dressed, her expression pensive before she looked up at him again. "We need to tell our parents soon...I don't want to tell them about the complications..." She didn't want to have to talk about it to anyone but Niko. "I have to tell Jag too." She wanted to break it to her ex husband easy, she knew he still carried some feelings for her, though she kinda hoped this girl he was talking to occasionally would keep him company... (NT) -- Skye, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 3:23pm PST
  • (He looked at her thoughtfully, tilting his head a bit.) I want you to marry me, Skye. (He said after a beat of silence, knowing he was rushing her yet again.. but he had wanted to marry her a long time, and he knew the news of the baby would go down better with his mother if he could tell her he was marrying Skye as well. But most of all, he just wanted to know that she was his wife, that no matter what happened through all of this he could look at their marraige and know that their relationship was built on love and trust. He wanted her to be his and only his, at his side forever.. and he wanted the right to be the same for her, to stand at her back and be her protector.) I know you don't want to get married.. but I really think you should consider it.. I've wanted you for so long. (NT) -- Niko, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 4:02pm PST
  • She paused in buttoning up her shirt, letting out a slow breath at that before she offered a slight smile, finally turning her eyes towards him. "Honey, your going to have to come up with a better proposal then that if you want me to say yes." She stated with a soft teasing tone to her voice. She was calming down, back to herself again for right now though sometime this was going to have to be taken care of. She was going to have to talk to someone, see someone, get the mental anguish taken care of. It couldn't be put off for much longer or it would just keep getting worse. She needed to know more about his feelings, that he cared about her for her, that he wanted to marry not because she was carrying his child but because he loved her. (NT) -- Skye, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 6:35pm PST
  • (He ran his hand over his head as she spoke, brows furrowing.) Oh. (He said, sort of defeated, but he had sort of been expecting her to reject the idea. He really did want to marry her, had for a long time.. he knew he couldn't be asking her simply from the emotions of the moment, though it was possible that the sheer pain he had felt had spurred him into voicing his desire to marry her. He watched her silently for a while, brooding on her answer. So he would have to figure out what she meant.. was she just being coy, or did she really want him to wait and try again.. He felt like a kid with the damned magic eight ball, that always said ask again later.. and he had always wondered what the hell that was supposed to mean, it was like a slap in the face. His hand lingered on the back of his head as he stood there, looking in her direction but not really seeing her.) (NT) -- Niko, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 6:44pm PST
  • She smiled a little, taking a step towards him as she tipped her head. "Last time you asked me to marry you it was a spur of the moment thing, Jag and I eloped, he insisted we get married and we did it the same day...just..just once...I want it to be special." She rested her hand on his chest, her brow furrowed as she thought that over. "It sounds kinda selfish but..I don't know. When I was younger I always dreamed of us having this special night and you asking me to marry you and me doing the whole teary excited yes and then us making love for the rest of the night...pictured a white dress and a church and all that. Now I know I can't get away with a white dress..." She laughed lightly. "...but a ring would be nice." (NT) -- Skye, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 6:52pm PST
  • (He understood her then, and the releif that poured through him like holy water made him smile. If she wanted romance and lovemaking and a ring and even the white dress, then damnit he would make it happen. She deserved it for putting up with him, he supposed.. and he wanted it for her too, he realized. He swept her into his arms and turned around before setting her down and kissing her.) OKay then, amante.. special is what you'll have. (He tugged her hair and picked up their jackets before opening the door to let them out.) And I think you could definitely get away with a white dress. (He said with a husky laugh.. he would pound anyone who said otherwise.) (NT) -- Niko, Wed, Dec 21 2005, 7:10pm PST

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• Look for the girl with the broken smile
  Ask her if she wants to stay awhile -- Shay, Wed, Dec 14 2005, 11:25pm PST
  They had gotten to the hospital a little while earlier and she had stayed with him for some time before she was instructed to step out so they could do a physical examination. She sighed, pacing the room back and forth, biting her lip absently as she tried to control her worry. There couldn't be anything seriously wrong with him, she refused to believe that, it couldn't be true. Finally, she wore herself out and curled up into the corner of the couch in the waiting room, closing her eyes and trying to rest for just a second at least. In the room, the doctors finished their examination and then brought down another doctor to do a neurological examination. They asked him tons of questions, did a c-scan the whole nine yards. Turns out, Shay got in about a two hour nap out there in the waiting and she was out cold. The doctors, having come up with their evaluation and prognosis, looked down to Remy. "We are going to call your mother and father in now, to discuss the test results, alright Jeremiah?"
  

  
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  • (He had put up with most of it without any sort of fuss, even the physical.. which was something he never wanted to repeat again in his life. His had a splitting migraine, but at least they had given him some morphine for it earlier and he simply felt like he was sitting on cloud nine. He nodded at the doctor and arched a brow.) It's Remy though. (He said softly, wondering if they had shoved Shay in a closet somewhere.) Could you bring my... sister.. Shay in here too please? (He said, knowing they wouldn't let non family in there.. but he wanted her by his side.) (NT) -- Remy, Wed, Dec 14 2005, 11:28pm PST
  • The doctor was well aware that the boy had no sisters but he had a feeling the boy was just wanting some support so he nodded. "She was sleeping out on the couch, I'll have your parents bring her in also." He stepped out, talking to the McLean's for a second before Dani shifted Shay awake and they headed into the room. Shay was groggy, as she always was when first waking up but when she saw him she woke up a little bit more and headed quickly to the side of the bed, picking up his hand. She wanted nothing more then to cuddle up with him, to kiss him and hold him and play with his hair to relax him but she restrained herself. Her green eyes on him though, they expressed all of that without words so clearly... (NT) -- Shay, Wed, Dec 14 2005, 11:35pm PST
  • If the pain doesn't end.. I'm not gonna make it.. -- Remy, Wed, Dec 14 2005, 11:41pm PST
    • She bit her lip a little bit at that, her hand squeezing his softly, her other hand moving to gently run up and down his arm in a soothing sensation. She had always noticed that he was more observant then other people, her especially. He could pick out the tiniest detail in a huge mess, like at the concert, looking down at the throng of people, he had picked up on things that she never would have seen if he hadn't pointed them out. She looked over at him tenderly, her eyes soft as she saw him frown. "Always told you that you were to smart for your own good..." She teased softly, leaning forward to press a soft kiss to his cheek, just reassuring him before she drew back. She didn't care if his parents and the doctor were watching, she had to be close to him, had to be touching him. (NT) -- Shay, Wed, Dec 14 2005, 11:53pm PST
  • (He smiled at her, though it was slightly forced. He was trying to take all this in with a head full of morphine. The doctor smiled and looked around at them all.) I know this sounds pretty bad, but really it isn't something that will affect Remy in a bad way. As he grows older he will be taught how to handle situations and will live a very normal life. Most doctors look at someone who handles this disorder like Remy has as a genius, it takes a lot of intelligence to take so much information and process it without going insane. (She thought she was helping Remy by giving hima complement, but really he was just tensing up and getting more and more upset at her words. It wasn't until she and his parents left the room for perscription and checking out procedures that he let out his breath. He had a tense and brooding look to him.) Genius.. whatever. It's not so much fun. (He spat, eyeing his hands, feeling sorry for himself a bit.) (NT) -- Remy, Wed, Dec 14 2005, 11:57pm PST
  • She frowned softly, her hand reaching up to run through his hair softly, letting out a gentle sigh as she tried to figure out what to say to him to make him feel better. "At least now we know what causes your headaches and we can get them under control..." She murmured softly, trying to look for a bright spot in all of this. She used the word 'we' without even thinking about it, she was in this with him no matter happened, she didn't have to think about it, it was just natural for her to assume so though really it was a tad bit presumptious. Her hand soothed through his hair, a low breath escaping as her brow frurowed. "..and hopefully nothing like what happened today will happen again." (NT) -- Shay, Thu, Dec 15 2005, 12:03am PST
  • (He nodded.) They said it happened because I had already had an episode this morning with the movie.. and the lights were too much. (He shrugged, relaxing under her hand.. he had always been incapable of brooding when she played with his hair.) The medication is supposed to stop that from happening. I guess I should be happy.. but I'm not. (He gazed at her with somewhat sleepy and moody eyes.) I don't like feeling different, you know? Like something is wierd about me.. everyone at school prolly knows by now that I did the fish flop.. and now I am a freak to boot. (NT) -- Remy, Thu, Dec 15 2005, 12:06am PST
  • She frowned a little, her green eyes running over his face as she sighed again. "Honey, there's nothing freakish about you, not in the least." She murmured softly, her brow furrowed as she pressed a soft kiss to his chin gently. "I love everything about you, you know that and this is just another part of you that makes you who you are. It's something you've always had, you've always been super observent about things and you've managed to deal with it your whole life so the only thing thats really going to change is that its going to be easier to deal with now then it was before, thats all." She stated firmly, not taking anymore pity parties from him but not being harsh either, she was just telling how it was in her mind. (NT) -- Shay, Thu, Dec 15 2005, 12:12am PST
  • (He hooked his fingers into her necklace and pulled her close to kiss her softly, thanking her for being there for him. When he released her he smiled, that sheepish little boy smile he had.) You have a way of making me look at things the other way, Shaylin.. (He said softly, not missing the fact that she had used the 'L' word in his terms.) I love everything about you too.. (He said in a tender tone, letting go of her necklace to run a hand down her arm as his father came in to let them know they could go home now. Remy stood and put an arm around Shay.) Let's get out of here. (NT) -- REmy, Thu, Dec 15 2005, 12:16am PST

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• Well She's gonna live forever if the good die young -- Jewel, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 8:35pm PST
  After a distressed call from Kelci earlier that day, the girl had been on Jewel's mind all day. A couple of hours after hanging up the phone, she had decided to head over to check on her. As soon as she had come into the apartment she frowned, the hard wood floors were slippery from everyone tracking snow in and out, she almost slipped herself when she had gone in. She had thought about how it wasn't safe for Kelci to be carrying Ana up and down those stairs even as she took a few of them up to the first landing. As soon as she turned the curve for the second one, her ears were pierced by the shrill cry of Ana's screaming bloody murder and she started taking the steps two at a time, nearly stepping on Kelci where she was laying on the second landing, her wrist twisted at a weird angle, not to mention the girl was knocked out cold. Jewel had kept her cool though, checked her pulse and then whipped out her cell phone, calling 911 and giving the information quickly before she hurried up the stairs to get Ana, comforting the little girl. She had no idea how long ago Kelci had fallen but Ana was absolutely terrified and her diaper was wet, her face red from screaming, her little voice hoarse. She murmured softly to her in Spanish as she had called Rico, filling him in and telling him to meet her at the hospital. Now, here she was, sitting in the waiting room with the little girl tucked close to her chest before it finally dawned on her that she should call Gabe. She handed over Ana to Rico and stood, heading over to the payphones to dial Gabe's cell...
  

  
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  • (He yawned and looked at his bedside clock.. only it wasn't there. With a groan he rolled over to look on the other side and fell off the bed. Muttering to himself in spanish, he got to his feet and rubbed his sore eyes, wandering naked into the other room to get the cell phone from.. of all place.. in the fridge. He answered it, his voice scratchy and groggy.. he had slept off a killer night and it was almost three according to the clock on the stove.) Yeah? (He asked, scratching his bare stomach and yawning again with a groan.. his shoulder was hurting something crazy and he wanted to go back to bed.) (NT) -- Gabe, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 8:39pm PST
  • "Gabe? It's Jewel." She bit her lip a little, glancing over her shoulder to see if the doctors were coming out yet or not. "I'm at the hospital..." She hurried to continue on. "Don't panic, Ana's fine...but Kelci..she had a bit of an accident." She stated, though she was slightly annoyed with the boy after the conversation she'd had with Ana almost twelve hours before. "I just figured you might want to know, in case you went to see Ana or something in the morning..." She didn't have any details so she wasn't going to offer them, she could be such a vindictive woman sometimes. (NT) -- Jewel, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 8:42pm PST
  • (He stopped on his way back to the bedroom as she said accident and his eyes focused on the alarm clock upside down on the floor and blinking 12:00 at him in a horrid red color. The feeling drained from him and panic did set in, he'd never been good at heeding directions. He caught his breath and stuttered a little bit as he went to find clothes.) Wh- How-... is she okay? (He said as he tugged on a pair of jeans and rummaged around for some socks.) Where? (He finished by saying, he was going to be there for her, considering he had been an ass to her for more than a week now.) (NT) -- Gabe, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 8:45pm PST
  • "From what I saw, it looks like she took quite the tumble down the stairs..." She stated with a sigh, before she spoke again. "The doctors have been in there with her forever, they haven't told us anything...we're in the emergency room waiting room right now, Rico's here and we have Ana...he called most of your Uncles to let them know what was going on." Even if Gabe was being an ass, the rest of the family adored Ana and Kelci and were worried sick about them both right now. (NT) -- Gabe, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 8:49pm PST
  • (He muttered to himself in spanish about her having finally remembered to call him and then thanked her for the call and hung up to leave. It was only twenty minutes later that he walked in the front doors and looked around for them, his fatigued eyes filled with worry as he saw them and walked over. When Ana saw him she started crying and reached for him, so he took her from Rico and held her close, rocking back and forth and talking to her in spanish, taking as much solace in her as she did in him. After a second he lifted his gaze to Jewel.) Do you know anything yet? (NT) -- Gabe, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 8:54pm PST
  • She bit her lip lightly, shaking her head as she watched Gabe cuddle Ana, biting back a comment about how now he wanted to see his daughter, to hold her and comfort her, instead she just answered the question. "No, no one has come out yet." She stated, watching him again before the words slipped out, she couldn't help it. "Amazing isn't it, how children don't keep record of wrongs. They forgive almost as soon as something negative is done to them...we're lucky for that." She turned her attention back to Rico as he paced, her husband was horrible in hospitals. (NT) -- Jewel, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 8:56pm PST
  • (His eyes narrowed on her.) Can we keep the acidic comments for a better time, please. (He said in a tone that was more a demand, and was carried out in a way that made it sound like he was saying something pleasant to her for Ana's sake. He knew he had fucked up and he would deal with it later. Ana had a hand on his chin and she was looking up at him like he was her world... he felt horrible that he hadn't been there for Kelci.) Should we ask someone? (He asked, not sure about what to do, he had never been in a hospital.) (NT) -- Gabe, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 9:00pm PST
  • "We tried..." She started to talk before, as if on cue,a doctor came out. "Mr. and Mrs. Marita?" She questioned, pausing a second as they nodded. "We've checked out Miss Fuentes a few times now...her injuries supports your theory, Mrs Marita, that she took a fall down the stairs. I would say she was there a little over an hour before you found her. She has a fractured wrist from the fall, some bruising, a concussion..." She let out a soft breath, clearing her throat. "While running some tests to judge the severity of her head injury we...we came across something unexpected." (NT) -- Doctor, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 9:10pm PST
  • (He stood beside Jewel and contemplated running for it.. as he had that night with Karlie.. it had been easier than knowing what had happened.. only now that it was Kelci he couldn't move from the spot. He wanted to hold her and beg her to be okay.. and the Doctor's tone was frightening him. Ana patted his cheek and whimpered a little at his mood shift and he whispered softly to her, eyes on the Doctor as he took a step forward.) Unexpected? What unexpected.. (He said, furrowing his brows over worried blue eyes.. there could be nothing wrong with his spitfire.. not now that he was discovering that he had feelings for her.) (NT) -- Gabe, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 9:13pm PST
  • She sighed softly. "There's no easy way to say this but Kelci has a tumor in the cerebrum region of her brain. There's no way to tell right now if its malignant or benign, we'll know once more testing is done..." She cleared her throat, trying to explain as best as she could without making it sound to bad. The type of tumor, it's called glioblastoma multiforme and it tends to grow very quickly and is hard to detect unless a circumstance like this arises." She paused a second. "I know this is a lot to take on but I need to speak to someone who spends a considerable amount of time with Kelci to get some input on her recent symptoms..." (NT) -- Doctor, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 9:22pm PST
  • (It took a considerable amount of time for him to digest all the large words that he still didn't understand and that made him assume this was the end.. he felt his knees go weak but he kept himself standing and focused on his breathing and on Ana.) I'm with her a lot. (He said softly, since he was the only one there that spent any time around her.. and he knew her intimately. He sighed, holding Ana close and trying not to panic or think the worst.. but it was hard for someone like him, who was used to everyone betraying him... she was going to leave him alone with Ana now.. ) (NT) -- Gabe, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 9:24pm PST
  • Jewel dropped down to sit on the couch, her hand going to her mouth. This couldn't be happening to Kelci, the girl was young and so full of life...she wasn't sick. The doctor let out a soft breath, nodding as she turned back to the young man. "First I need you to tell me your name and your relationship to the patient." She stated, reading off her clipboard. She waited until she had that information before she spoke again. "Which, if any, of the following has Kelci been displaying? Headaches, dizzyiness, nausea, changes in speech hearing or vision, problems balancing, mood swings, problems with memory, trouble communicating, or numbness or tingling in the limbs?" (NT) -- Doctor, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 9:30pm PST
  • (He forced himself to focus on the doctor for Kelci's sake and rattled off a list of the things he remembered her having displayed in the past couple of weeks, admitting that he hadn't seen much of her for a few days. He soothed a hand over Ana's back and let out a deep sigh.) She's going to make it, right? (He couldn't be a single father.. fate wouldn't be that cruel.. even if he did believe in something as profane as fate.) (NT) -- Gabe, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 9:33pm PST
  • Her eyes were sympathetic as she looked at the young man and the baby. "Thinking positive is one of the main keys to recovery." She stated softly before she cleared her throat. "Kelci is in a bit of...denial...she refuses to listen to anything, perhaps if someone in her family talked to her we would be able to move along a bit in the tests and perhaps treatment..." She stated though it was more of a question. "I'll leave you alone now, when your ready to see her, just let the nurse know." She turned, heading back to the door she had come from. Jewel just let out a soft breath that was close to a sob, tears welling in her eyes. "This...this can't be right..." (NT) -- Kelci, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 9:39pm PST
  • (He nodded at her words and didn't look at his aunt and uncle for a long time, but when he did his eyes were filled with emotion for the first time in a very long time. He was scared, he was lonely and he was panicking. He looked from his Uncle, who had come up behind Jewel and was silently holding her around the waist, to his Aunt who was tearing his heart out with her teary eyes.) I have to go see her.. (He said, in a way that showed he was mentally forcing himself to do it. His instinct was to run from fear.. but he had no choice here.. he was in this for the long haul.) (NT) -- Gabe, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 9:45pm PST
  • Jewel nodded, finally standing and reaching to take Ana. "She doesn't need to see her mommy like this right now..." She stated softly, drawing Ana into her arms before she turned back to Rico, sitting down and letting Gabe go see Kelci. Kelci was laying on the bed, her head turned to the side. Her wrist was in a splint but other then that she didn't really look that bad. She didn't look like she could potentially be dying of some foreign growth in her brain... (NT) -- Kelci, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 9:53pm PST
  • (He had walked the hallway like a man walking to the electric chair on death row.. he hated hospitals already.. apparantly the sentiment ran true amongst the Marita men. When the doctor left him alone in her room he finally released his breath, his eyes full of worry and concern for her, his heart picking up when he saw how.. normal... she looked. He walked over to the side of her bed and ran a soft hand down her cheek, whispering.) Hey Kelce.. sweety.. I'm here. (He flicked his eyes back to locate a chair and sat at her side, slipping his hand into hers.. it just seemed like the right thing to do. Seeing her hand splited up was enough tomake his stomach tight and nausea creep up.. he had never dealt well with sickness.) (NT) -- Gabe, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 9:57pm PST
  • Her eyes fluttered open at his touch, a low breath escaping her lips as she looked over at him. She was still refusing to believe what the doctors had told her, there had to be some mistake, they had mixed her up with someone results, some tests had gotten crossed somewhere. A slight bitter smile curved her lips, her eyes on him for a brief second before they closed. "Come to break me out of here?" She questioned, clearing her throat. "Cuz I really don't need to be here...I want to go home." She was fine, they had her wrist fixed and that was all that was really wrong, nothing they could do about a concussion. (NT) -- kelci, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 10:02pm PST
  • (His smile was forced, rueful and slightly sad.) I wish I could, sweetheart.. but the doctors need to do some more tests.. (He ran his thumb over the back of her hand, his breath shaking out of him.. he felt like his life was on the line. He was realizing that without her he would have nothing.. he would have to fight to keep Ana.. and she would be gone and he would never get over that kind of loss.) Will you let them finish so we can find out what is going on? (He put his other hand up under hers, cupping her hand between his and eyeing her, forcing himself to appear hopeful.. it was a sham.) (NT) -- Gabe, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 10:06pm PST
  • She frowned again, her brow furrowed a little as she bit her lip. "I don't need anymore tests, I am fine, there was just a mix up or something." Really though, she had all the signs, just look at the day she had been sick and he had taken care of her, in that day alone she displayed nine out of ten of the symptoms. "I need to go home, Gabriel, Ana needs me at home." She stated firmly, frowning at the sad look in his eyes. "Damn it, why do you look so sad? There's nothing to be sad about, I am fine. Just slipped on some water, took a little tumble...I'm a klutz, thats all." (NT) -- Kelci, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 10:08pm PST
  • (He looked down at their hands.. she seemed fine to him and yet somehow something was sucking the life from her.) Just let them finish Kelce, for Ana.. we need to know. (He looked back up at her.) I am upset because I can't lose you now. (He admitted, bringing her palm to his cheek, holding it there and sighing. His whole body was shaking.. his mother had left him.. his father had left him.. his friends had left him.. and now she would leave him too.. ) We need you Kelci, and I cannot go on wondering if you are okay or if you are going to pass out again.. please let them run the tests.. (He was praying that she was right, that it was a mixup.. though he didnt know who he was praying to.. just whoever was listening he supposed.) (NT) -- Gabe, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 10:13pm PST
  • Her jaw clenched and her throat constricted tightly as the tears clogged and burned in its depth. She let out a slow breath, trying for all she was worth not to cry. She wasn't going to cry because that would make all of this real and it just couldn't be real. She knew his abandoment issues, knew how he felt everyone left him and she didn't want to be one of the people who left him. She squeezed his hand softly, her brow furrowed as she looked over at him. "It's going to be alright..." She murmured softly, her voice thick with unshed tears. "...I'm not going to leave you, Gabriel." She assured him softly, she was the one who was supposedly dying but here she was comforting him... (NT) -- Kelci, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 10:18pm PST
  • (He closed his eyes at her words and the depth of sorrow in them, turning his face into her hand and kissing the palm lightly.) I won't let you.. (He said softly, lowering their joined hands to the bedside and laying his other on her wrist. He cleared his throat, his eyes taking on a bit of shame as he looked at her.) I want to apologize to you for my behavior.. (He said slowly.. he had never apologized for anything since he had left his fathers home.. but under the circumstances he realized he might not have the time to feel sorry for himself before coming to her for forgiveness. He wanted her to know that he knew he was a shit.. and that he felt bad about that. He truly did want to be a good man for her and Ana.) (NT) -- Gabe, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 10:25pm PST
  • "Because you think I'm sick?" She questioned softly, her brow furrowed as she gazed at him curiously, though there was no anger or even upset on her expression. "I..I don't want you to be...be nice to me or there for me or whatever just because I am sick..." She watched him, a small bittersweet smile on her face. "I don't want you because of that anymore then I want you just because I am your baby's mama." She smiled a little, though she was serious, she wanted him to be with her because he wanted to be with her, not out of some twisted sense of obligation or responsibility. (NT) -- Kelci, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 10:38pm PST
  • (He nodded, but he was being truthful with her.) If you hadn't been those things first, I would never have stuck around long enough to get to know you properly Kelci. You stopped me from running. (He was looking down again, bearing himself for her was a humbling experience.) That night.. when you made dinner and everything was so perfect.. Kelce, I have never experienced anything like that in my life. (He raised his eyes to hers.) You've moved me, and I can't lose you now. I want to be here for you because of you.. that's all. (He had said everything short of the fact that he loved her.. which was something he was dancing around in his own mind.. but she needed to relax and he didn't want to risk saying something to make her upset or worried.) (NT) -- Gabe, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 10:47pm PST
  • She shrugged a little, blinking back the tears as she rolled her eyes up to look at the ceiling, trying to control her emotions before she shrugged again, clearing her throat and looking over at him. "I just..I wanted you to know that not everyone just wants something from you...not everyone is going to leave you..." She stated softly, watching him for a second. "I just wanted you to have a night that was just for you..with no...catches..nothing expected from you.." She stated softly, her brow furrowed as she squeezed his hand. Everyone was always taking from him, she wanted to give to him. (NT) -- Kelci, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 11:02pm PST
  • (He nodded and squeezed her hand back, sighing deeply as he looked at her with eyes that were softened with affection instead of worry.) You've given me more than anyone in my entire life has.. the love of a little girl.. the chance to be a father and the confidence to want to be a better man. (He smiled then, letting out a rueful breath.) I'm just sorry I didn't have better timing. (He said, his tone dropping a bit.. if only he had figured this out before.. ) (NT) -- Gabe, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 11:05pm PST
  • "...cuz everyone thinks I am going to die now..." She murmured, her voice laced with a twinge of fear. She didn't want to die, she had so much to live for, she had Ana and Gabe and the Marita's...there was just so much going on that she needed to keep a positive attitude or she was just going to break down. Right now all she wanted to do was just curl up in his arms and cry her heart out to him but he seemed to be pretty resigned to her fate. She needed something positive, the doctors weren't sounding to bright, he acted like she was gone already... (NT) -- Kelci, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 11:11pm PST
  • (He felt her fear and responded to it by squeezing her hand.) We don't know anything, Kelce.. we need the tests to know what is going on and how we can get you better. (He desperately wanted hope.. but life had let him down so often that it was impossible for him to see anything but letdowns.) You need to fight this for Ana, Kelci.. she needs you.. and I need you. (He didn;t know what to say to make light of the situation.. it wasn;t in his nature to do that sort of thing.. he was a raging pessimist.) (NT) -- Gabe, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 11:15pm PST
  • She shifted a little, her hand going to rest against his chest. "Ana hasn't eaten..." She felt sore and heavy, sure signs she needed to feed Ana. "Did Jewel get the milk out of the fridge?" She was pretty sure that Jewel would have at least Ana was something she could take care of, she could control and she had a handle on. She could make sure her baby was ok even if she couldn't make sure she was. "Can I see Ana? Can you bring her in? I need her here..." She needed the reminder that someone still had faith in her, that little girl had total faith and trust in her mommy. (NT) -- Kelci, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 11:21pm PST
  • She let out a soft sigh, the tears definately threatening to fall when she saw her daughter. She shifted to hold the baby who was clinging to her mother as soon as she was in her arms, pressing a gentle kiss to her forehead. "Mommy's so sorry..." She murmured to the baby before she shifted to feed the little girl, brushing her hand over the baby soft hair as she let out a soft breath. "Come sit with us?" She questioned softly, just wanting him closer, wanting his reassurance of having him at her side. (NT) -- Kelci, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 11:33pm PST
  • (He nodded, desperately wanting to take them both home and love them like they deserved. He wanted a second chance to make it up to her. He helped her to shift over a tiny bit on the hospital bed and then he sat on the edge of the bed with her, putting his arm around her and kissing her hair. He liked holding her while she fed Ana, seeing them together always filled him with affection.) Things will be alright. (he said, they had to be.. this was what he wanted.) (NT) -- Gabe, Mon, Dec 12 2005, 11:36pm PST

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• It's just want of those days when you don't wanna wake up -- Kelci/Nick, Sun, Nov 06 2005, 11:24pm PST
  She didn't know what to do. No one else was here and they wouldn't let her go into the room with Karlie so all she could was curl up on one of the couches, her bloody knee's drawn to her chest, her eyes looking blankly at the floor as silent tears fell down. She couldn't believe this happened - her and Karlie were smart girls, they had their shit together they could handle themselves out on the streets. They had never been little prissy girls who needed a guy to take care of them, they had always been able to take care of themselves and now Karlie was laying bruised and battered in a hospital bed, it just didn't make sense. She didn't even notice that she was shivering and trembling so hard that her teeth were chattering, nor the fact that she was covered in both her blood and her cousins. He had gotten into his car the minute that he had hung up with Gabe. His heart was beating and he was so worried about his girl that he felt sick. He dialed his phone to his father, his hand shaking as he drove towards the hospital.
  

  
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  • (He arrived about a half hour after she did, having stopped by his house to get some of the cloths Karlie had left at his place for the girls. When he walked in, he looked around, his amber gaze furrowing a bit when he saw her. Sighing, he walked over to her.. he just wasn't equiped for tears or crisis. Sitting beside her, he reached out and ran a hand down her hair, wondering what he could do to make her stop crying.. anger he could deal with but not this.) I brought you some clean cloths. (He said softly, looking at her with concern.) (He had fallen asleep on the couch when the phone went off in his chest pocket. The vibration made him jump and he answered it soon after.) McAllister. (He said, furrowing his brow as he held his watch up to his gaze.) (NT) -- Gabe/Quin, Sun, Nov 06 2005, 11:29pm PST
  • She let out a low breath, biting her lip as she looked over to him, shaking her head. "I don't even know you." She stated, her voice shaking as she shook her head. "You could have done the same thing to me..." She frowned, she was just thinking outloud, not really speaking to him in particular just talking. "Who could have done this? Who would want to hurt her?" She questioned, her voice broken a little bit. He let out a shaky breath, focusing on the road instead of his thoughts. "She's hurt dad, she's at the hospital." He didn't know many details, he just needed his mother there but didn't want to freak her out with his monotone voice and his dad needed to know. "I don't know what happened, I just know they took her to the hospital in an ambulance. (NT) -- Kelci/Nick, Sun, Nov 06 2005, 11:36pm PST
  • (He shook his head.) I would never hurt you, or her. (He ran a hand over his face and set the bag on the floor between them.) My name is Gabriel Marita, she calls me Gabe. (He said, tipping his head to catch her gaze, just talking to take her mind away from her thoughts.) Someone has been stalking her, I should have been paying more attention to her.. it's my fault. (He stood up immediately at the tone he recognized in Nick's voice, looking over to where Kate was under a blanket watching a movie and ignoring him as usual.) Okay, Nick.. just drive safe. We'll be there as soon as we can. (He sighed, getting a few details from Nick as to what hospital before hanging up and looking over at Kate.) Someone got to her, we need to go. (NT) -- Gabe.Quin, Sun, Nov 06 2005, 11:41pm PST
  • (He had watched her leave before he stood up, crossing his arms and looking towards the large door at the end of the room. He hated hospitals.. thats were you went when your driving career was over.. they made him jumpy. When he heard Nick's voice he visibly jumped.. he had known the guy would be mad, but he wasn't ready for it. Turning to Nick, he shoved his hands into his pockets after one of them ran through his shaggy hair.) They took her into the ER. (He said, he didn't know what was going on, he had been talking to Kelci... he liked that name.. the look in Nick's eyes had him dropping his thoughts and sighing.) No one has been out since we got here. (He was avoiding Nick's gaze, trying not to say he was sorry for letting her out his sight.) (NT) -- Gabe, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 3:20pm PST
  • He growled again, spinning away as he raked his hand through his shaggy hair, his eyes squeezing shut. "I told you to watch her! I should have never let her outta my sight..." He sighed, running his hand down his face as he looked towards the door just in time to see his parents come in, Kate going straight to him and wrapping him in a hug, her hand going to move over his hair soothingly. He wrapped his arms around her, swallowing heavily - he just wanted his mom to make it all ok. She came back out a few minutes later, clad in a pair of shorts and a hoodie, she was going to put on the pair of jeans but her legs were all sorts of cut up and she thought that the blood would just get back on them so it was pointless. Kelci looked a little worse for wear as she let her eyes move over Nick and his parents before she sighed, dropping into the couch and raising her legs to her chest, resting her cheek on the top of her knees (NT) -- Nick/Kelci, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 3:26pm PST
  • (He had been just about to defend himself and pretty much lay the blame on Kelci when the mom saved him. With a sigh, he rubbed a hand over his face, blowing his cheeks out a little. His eyes landed on Kelci as she walked out and he arched a brow. He was about to hang around near Nick, but saw the expression in Quin's face and decided he would sidle over to the girl.. she was a bit less acidic right now. He sat down on the couch near her, looking over at her.) So. (He said, running his hand over his thigh.) (He let his wife handle Nick and instead walked over to where Kelci was with Gabe. He knelt before her, lowering his head to catch her eyeline.) Do you want to talk? (He knew from working with Kate that someone in her position would need a shoulder to cry on and someone to talk to.. he was there to offer both, since apparently the man next to her was incapable of doing so.) (NT) -- Gabe, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 3:37pm PST
  • Her lower lip trembled a little, she really was a beautiful, exotic looking young woman and she could be very soft and tender when the need or feeling was there. Her eyes drifted over the floor before she looked back to Nick, biting her lip a little as she shrugged. "I..I don't know...I should have been watching her..." She stated softly, her voice a little shakey. She would take all the blame herself, easily, she should have been looking out for her cousin. He let out a low breath, pulling away from his mom before he looked over to where his dad was with Kelci. If there was one thing his dad would never do to his mom, that would be to ever give her a reason to feel jealous and that was a good thing. Because Kate trusted him so entirely, she had no problem with sending Quin off to the beautiful girl while she comforted him. (NT) -- Kelci/Nick, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 3:44pm PST
  • Building a mystery. -- Quin/Gabe, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 3:51pm PST
    • She swallowed, nodding as she stood up. "Thats me...how is she?" She questioned immediatly, looking over as Nick crossed to where she was, attempting to smile a little reassuringly at her. Her eyes went back to the doctor, completely focused on him - waiting to hear that her cousin was ok and she could take her home and it had all just been a big understanding. She bit her lip, her brow furrowed as she let Nick go. It was hard, knowing that someone her son cared about was hurt and that made him hurt of course. Which, naturally, meant that she was hurting for him. It didn't matter that she was an agent, she was still a woman and still emotional. For those reasons, she went over to Quin, leaning back against him and wrapping his arms around her as she to watched the daughter. It was the first time she had instigated touching since way before all this started. (NT) -- Kelci/Kate, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 3:55pm PST
  • Ready or not, here come's the boom.. -- Quin, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 4:10pm PST
    • How do you do it make me feel like you do? -- Kate/Kelci/Nick, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 4:28pm PST
      • Are you strong enough to be my man? -- Quin/Gabe/Karlie, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 4:46pm PST
        • You could never be what I need -- Kate/Kelci/Nick, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 4:55pm PST
          • Don't look down on me if I blow it again.. -- Quin/Gabe/Karlie, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 5:07pm PST
            • She sighed softly, turning in his arms to hug him tightly,her brow furrowed as she looked up at him, her eyes questioning. "Sleep with me tonight, Quin, please?" She requested softly, her eyes reflecting her need for him. "I am not saying I deserved it, I am just saying I would be able to handle it better." She pursed her lip, looking up at the clock. "I need to go, I have to work..." She just needed something to be normal, to feel like life was going on. Plus, she didn't think she could face seeing Karlie just yet knowing that she could have prevented what happened to her. He just continued murmuring soothingly to her, brushing his hand down her cheek softly, murmuring her name and that it was all going to be ok, that he was there and she was alright now. For now he could just let her come out of her fog at her own pace. (NT) -- Kate/Kelci/Nick, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 5:28pm PST
          • Broken up deep inside, but you won't get to see these tears I cry, behind these hazel eyes. -- Quin/Gabe/Karlie, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 5:36pm PST
            • I just wanna be alone -- Kate/Kelci/Nick, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 5:46pm PST
              • I'm climbing the walls 'cause I miss you.. -- Quin/Gabe/Karlie, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 6:07pm PST
                • She bit her lip, letting out a soft breath before she patted the couch next to her for Quin, her eyes on him for a brief moment. She just was never sure with him, she never knew when he wanted to be by her and when he didn't and it hurt to know that sometimes, your husband didn't want you anywhere near him. She let out a low breath, nodding a little bit again before she headed down the hallway to catch a cab outside the hospital, it was time to get to work and try and live a normal life. He sighed softly, his eyes in pain for her. "I am sorry honey, you got hurt...Kelci found you and her and Gabe brought you here..." he murmured softly. "You've been out for a couple of hours, I missed you..." He murmured softly, pressing another kiss to her forehead. (NT) -- Kate/Kelci/Nick, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 6:18pm PST
  • (He sat down next to her and put his arm around her shoulder, his body tense. He was worried about his son and the girl.. but he was more worried about his wife.) Can we talk later? (He asked her seriously, he wanted her opinion.. maybe it was time he let her into his circle.) (He autostarted his car and followed her at a distance to her work before he gunned the skyline, he was heading up north, far away for a few weeks.. no one would see his face until he was sure things were normal again.) (She groaned, closing her eyes for a second.) I had a feeling that I hadn't just morphed here.. though a brick wall. (She said, a soft smile playing at her mouth due to the morphine. She had a huge bandage across her midriff that covered the deep burn and she couldn't feel it.) I missed you too. (NT) -- Quin/Gabe/Karlie, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 6:29pm PST
  • A flash of fear lit up her eyes for a second, she had always had a fear that he would leave her someday, that he would decide he wasn't cut out for this and take off again like he had so many times before they got married. "Sure..." She murmured, a little hestiantly, her brow furrowed. "You don't remember missing me." He teased lightly, brushing her hair back. "I am going to get a nurse in here and let them know you are awake, ok sweetheart?" He was so reluctant to leave her side but she needed to be checked out and tell a doc what she was feeling and whatnot. (NT) -- Kate/Nick, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 6:36pm PST
  • (He felt her shift and leaned over to kiss her cheek.) Everything will be fine. (He said in a low voice, lifting his hand to her cheek, turning her face to look at him, his eyes searching. He rarely had moments like this, when he was more concerned about how she felt about him then how he felt about himself.) I love you. (He said, kissing her once before he stood.) I need to go talk to the doctor about Karlie. (He lied, he needed to talk to someone about his options.. he was finally feeling good again and he was sick of seeing her look at him like he was a negligent monster.) (She smiled.) I will miss you later to make up for it. (She said, sighing as he spoke. She nodded and closed her eyes to rest them, they burned when she looked at him. She lifted her hand and ran it down her side, feeling the bandage there and groaning to herself.. she just didn't feel right.) (NT) -- Quin/Karlie, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 6:55pm PST
  • She gazed at him for a second, meeting his eyes fully - reflecting the love and need deep within side her. "Alright, I trust you, Quin." She stated softly, those words meaning more to her then speaking of her love. It was hard to trust him sometimes. "I love you too." She stated gently, her hand moving to squeeze his knee gently. "Alright baby..." She murmured, letting him go though her eyes followed him as he walked away. "You won't have a chance to miss me." He stated, his voice low with emotion. He was going to keep her in his sight until she couldn't stand the sight of him, that was the general plan. She wasn't going to get hurt again if he had anything to say about it, even if he had to completely move her into his apartment and place her under house arrest. (NT) -- Kate/Nick, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 7:37pm PST
  • Out of the doubt that fills my mind, you somehow find that you and I collide.. -- Quin/Karlie, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 7:46pm PST
    • She nodded a little bit, she had been almost dozing off while she waited for him but was brought back to attention by his words. "Yeah...sure." She murmured softly, letting out a quiet breath as she stood, shrugging on her own jacket and slipping her hand into his. She gave his fingers a light squeeze and then let him lead the way... He sighed softly, tipping his head. "Heavy bruising, a few burns and a concussion..." He murmured softly, brushing back her hair and then turning his attention to the nurse. He nodded, letting Karlie work on the paperwork. "I am going to go tell my 'rents we will be leaving soon." (NT) -- Kate/Nick, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 8:00pm PST
  • (He pulled her into his arms when she stood, hooking his arms around her back and kissing her for a long moment since he had her still and wanted to talk to her later.. he just wanted to reassure her that he wasn't losing his mind as he sometimes thought and that he loved her no matter what. Pulling back to look at her, he smiled, tucking her hair behind her ear.) I love how you care for him. (He said, glad that someone was able to coddle Nick at times.) (She frowned, hating that she had put him through this.. but god she loved the look in his eyes sometimes.. he made her feel like no one ever had. Sighing when he spoke she nodded.) Okay, hurry back. (She said, not wanting him to leave her alone. She focused instead on the nurse, who had been really sweet to her.. the two of them talking about Nick the whole time he was gone.) (NT) -- Quin/Karlie, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 8:04pm PST
  • When he got like this it was like a huge weight was lifted off her shoulders and she looked years younger. A sweet smile decorated her lips as she returned the kiss and then pulled back to tuck her head under his chin, just being held by the man who she loved more then anything and gone to hell and back repeatedly for. He found his parents like that and didn't really want to disturb them so he just asked a nurse to wait until they returned from wherever they were going and then let them know that Karlie had been released and Nick was taking her home. After that he headed right back to her, a smile playing on his face as he tipped his head to the side. "Are you ready to get out of here, sweetheart?" (NT) -- Kate/Nick, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 8:28pm PST
  • (He closed his eyes for a moment, just praying for the millionth time that he would be able to beat this chain that held him down so much.. he owed it to her for sticking it out with him for so long. He kissed her hair and took her hand, leading her away to have that lunch, and the talk.) (She groaned out the word yes, she wanted to get out of the hospital, she wanted her Dyna and she wanted to be coddled just a little bit. The nurse that had followed Nick into the room laughed a little and wheeled over a wheelchair for her to sit in while she processed her check out forms at the front. Karlie tried to tell the nurse she didn't need the chair, she could walk, but when she tried to stand she found her knees were weak and she grudginly took the seat and the ride.) Did you find your parents ok? (She asked him as the nurse checked her out, looking around the lobby for Quin and Kate, and not seeing them.) (NT) -- Quin/Karlie, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 8:35pm PST
  • He went behind her chair to push her nodding a little bit. "Yeah, but they looked like they were having a moment of some sort so I just told a nurse to tell them we were leaving - they don't have so many moments you know, so I didn't want break it up." He smirked, asking one of the orderlies to pull around his car that had been repainted the day before and was now back up to par. "It's getting a little chilly out, can we take this blanket please?" He smiled charmingly at the nurse as she nodded before he covered his girl up with it - he didn't want her getting chilled. (NT) -- Nick, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 8:47pm PST
  • (She definitely couldn't complain about her man, even though a lot of the women she knew did. She smirked as she looked down, thinking about Gabe and Kelci and wondering if they would ever be able to talk civilly. If she had been around that night she could have warned her cousin not to so much as smile funny at Gabriel Marita.. he was a cocky, moody son-of-a-bitch and he needed a few notches taken out of his belt. Maybe her Kelci was headstrong enough to do it, but she doubted that Gabe could be corralled for long, or if Kelci would ever want him to stick around.) Good idea. (She had gotten the feeling from Kate that the woman would take what she could get from her husband.) I can't wait to relax in the stupor of painkillers.. (NT) -- Karlie, Mon, Nov 07 2005, 8:56pm PST

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  I drag you down, I use you up
  Mr. Self Destruct
  I am the needle in your vein, and I control you
  I am the high you can't sustain, and I control you
  -- Gavin, Wed, Nov 02 2005, 9:33pm PST
  He had slept through his first day and a half in there, spent the next day and a half in a cloud of nausea and confusion, but had woken up that evening finally in a much clearer state of mind. The nurse had just been in to check on him, and then dinner had arrived - which he had pushed aside - and he had now swung his legs off the side of the bed and was sitting up, pulling on his jeans that had been stored with his other clothes in the cabinet near by. He was fine now, and needed to get out of here - he didn't even know if the boys from the band had been notified, though he was sure they must have along with management, and he was starting to get the shakes. He wasn't a hardcore junkie shooting up a dozen times a day or anything, but he was an addict who relied on his frequent fixes - and he wasn't feeling so good after three days in here. No one would tell him anything about when he would be able to leave, so he was taking matters in to his own hands - it wasn't like they could force him to stay. He was an adult and didn't want to be here any more - couldn't be here any more - so he was leaving.
  

  
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  • She had been here almost the whole time until her doctors had come in and thrown an absolute fit because she was off her eating schedule and that was detrimental to her healing process plus she had missed a support group meeting. She had been almost dragged out of there, literally, and after eating enough to gain their leave, she had rushed back in here only to find him getting dressed. Her brow furrowed, her eyes flying up to his. She was relieved, of course, that he was ok but part of her attitude that had been lost when she was so sick was coming back and she was appalled at the fact that he thought he could just get up and leave. "What the fuck do you think you are doing?" She questioned, amazement in her voice. (NT) -- Bianca, Wed, Nov 02 2005, 9:39pm PST
  • "Bianca, hey baby." He murmured when she came in, standing slowly to button up his jeans, and then carefully pulled the IV from his arm, and the heart monitor off his finger, and extracted himself from the rest of the cords and cables and tubes that he was connected to. At her question, he just tugged off the robe and reached slowly for his tee, looking up only at the tone to her voice, one brow raising. "I'm leaving. Can you pass me that?" He pointed to a grey hoodie of his draped over a nearby chair - he wasn't feeling so hot being up and about, but he knew that the longer that he stayed in here, the worse he was going to feel. He needed to get out now while he could, and he would just walk slowly, and take a cab, and he would be fine. (NT) -- Gavin, Wed, Nov 02 2005, 9:57pm PST
  • She frowned, moving towards him and pressing her hand to his wrist where it was bleeding from the IV. "Your out of your mind if you think you are leaving. You almost died a couple of days ago, do you realize that?" She questioned, her brow furrowed. "Matty was convinced you were gone and the doctors didn't know if you would..." She cleared her throat, looking away for a second. She wasn't so good with emotional breakdowns and she hated crying but she had been so scared when she thought she was losing him. "You need to get back into bed." (NT) -- Bianca, Wed, Nov 02 2005, 10:21pm PST
  • "Gotta." He dipped his head to kiss her cheek softly as she came over to him, and then dropped his gaze to her she was attempting to help stop the bleeding - he hadn't really noticed the trickle until she had placed her hand there. He pulled his hand gently away and grabbed a tissue to press that there instead, shaking his head slowly. "I can't stay, Bianca." He stated quietly, then raised a hand to brush her cheek gently. "Take me home, or I'm calling a cab, baby." The life that he lived, near-death experiences were inevitable - and he wasn't scared of dying, just of leaving her behind. (NT) -- Gavin, Wed, Nov 02 2005, 10:28pm PST
  • "Please don't do this..." She murmured softly, her brow furrowed, tears welling in her dark eyes as she gazed at him. "You need to get help, Gavin, you have too, I can't lose you." He might not be scared but she was terrified, she couldn't risk losing him now, not when she was finally getting her shit together and they were happy. They just needed to be together and he needed to be healthy and so did she. She bit her lip, her eyes pleading with him to just get back into the bed. (NT) -- Bianca, Wed, Nov 02 2005, 10:36pm PST
  • At the sudden emotional change in her and the tears that welled, he stood up a little straighter and his brows furrowed. "Hey - why are you crying? Don't do that, love..." He pushed back her hair and brushed his thumb softly over her cheek before moving to press another tissue to his arm - the bleeding had almost stopped, but was quiet stubborn. "This was just an accident, B. I'm okay now... I have to get home." He wanted to get ahold of his boys and let them know he was fine, and find out how things were going, and he needed to check his phone messages, and there was just way too much for him to be doing to be stuck in here. (NT) -- Gavin, Wed, Nov 02 2005, 10:43pm PST
  • She shook her head, taking a step back from him. "I am not going to help you with this...with leaving..." She murmured softly, her brow furrowed as the tears slipped over her dark bottom lashes. "I helped you enough to get here..." She should have stopped him, should have begged him to stop using drugs but instead she had never said anything, hell, she had even sent him away to get his fix whenever he was starting to get pissy, she had encouraged it. What kind of girlfriend was she really? She looked back to the bed, repeating her other statement. "You need help, Gavin, you have to quit." (NT) -- Bianca, Wed, Nov 02 2005, 10:54pm PST
  • He caught her wrist - tightly, but no where near firmly enough to hurt her at all, because he could never do that - and held her from moving too far away from him. "This is nothing of your fault, Bianca. I made a mistake. It was a freak thing..." He sighed quietly and let her go then, moving his way over to the chair to grab his hoodie that she hadn't passed to him. "I need to get out of here, is what I need to do." He was still reluctant to even admit that he had a serious problem - it was just part of who he was, in his mind. "Please? Take me home?" He asked her once more, though he wouldn't hesitate to take a taxi if she just continued to refuse. (NT) -- Gavin, Wed, Nov 02 2005, 11:02pm PST
  • She let out a shakey breath, running a hand down her face as she tried to figure out what to do. "I just wish you would at least talk to a doctor first...please, Gavin..just talk to someone before you go and if you talk to a doctor then I will take you home." She tried to reason with him, the tears still streaming down her cheeks. He didn't even care that he almost died, it seemed, that he almost left her. "Your body is still healing from shutting down..." She was trying to talk some sense into him, make him see that he couldn't just walk out of here. (NT) -- Bianca, Wed, Nov 02 2005, 11:17pm PST
  • "They won't want me to go, B... I know that. I'm fine, but they just want me to stay for another night." He pulled his hoodie on slowly and then made his way back over to her, brows furrowing gently as he reached out to brushing away her tears, his head dropping so that his forehead touched hers gently. "I'll go see my doctor tomorrow... You can come with me..." He offered, gaze serious on hers - he just had to get out of here, and his doctor knew him and understood his history, and had a realistic view on how far to push his patient and the sort of things that he could suggest. The doctors here just saw him as a careless spoiled celebrity with too much money on his hands. (NT) -- Gavin, Wed, Nov 02 2005, 11:21pm PST
  • She sniffled a little, her arms going gently around him for a second, being very careful not to hurt him. "I am scared, Gavin, I just want you to be ok." She just wanted him to be alright, that was all. "Will you stay with me tonight?" So she could keep an eye on him, she would at least feel better then. "You can call the boys when we get home and...and...rest.." She wasn't so good at this nurturing thing, she was the one who was unhealthy and monitored by doctors all the time and she was so totally off her schedule that was supposed to stay on so strictly, she hadn't left the room hardly at all. (NT) -- Bianca, Wed, Nov 02 2005, 11:38pm PST
  • He wrapped his arms slowly around her for a long, tight hug - he wasn't breakable just because of one little near-death experience. "Yeah, course...." He didn't bother mentioning that he had been planning on it the whole time - even if she hadn't been willing to drive him, he had a key to her apartment. A hand ran down her back slowly before he loosened his hold on her and just rested his hands on her shoulders and dropped his forehead gently to rest against hers. "Yeah, I need to call them... Let's go?" The longer that they stood there, the worse that he was feeling and the more tired that he was getting - he just wanted to get out of there and somewhere safe. (NT) -- Gavin, Thu, Nov 03 2005, 5:51pm PST

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• Breaking the habit -- Bianca, Fri, Oct 28 2005, 11:13pm PDT
  She rushed into the emergency room, biting her lip as she tried to figure out what exactly was going on. "Excuse me.." She tried to get the attention of a nurse but the woman just walked swiftly by her. "Excuse me..." She stated again, growling as she tried to grab someone's attention. "Damn it! Someone!" She finally got the attention of a nurse walking by asking her if she knew where Gavin was. She rattled off his full name along with a description before she looked up, seeing a reporter come in. How the hell did the get here so fast? She didn't even know what was going on yet. "Get them out of here." She growled, pointing to the reporter before she was instructed to wait for a doctor.
  

  
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  • Someone had spotted his familiar face as he had been wheeled in on a stretcher, and one reported quickly multiplied into two and then three - all trying to get the same sort of information that she was looking for. But there was no information to give as the emergency room doctors tried desperately to resurrect their latest patient - famous musician or a homeless addict off the streets made no difference to them at this particular moment in time. Finally though, a woman who looked very much like a doctor emerged in search of the lady that every one was saying was their patient's girlfriend or fiancée or wife - no one really seemed to know which it was though. "Bianca? Holden? Miss Bianca Holden?" The hospital was always buzzing with energy, but there seemed to be a more intense electricity this evening as word spread - every entertainment news program wanting to be the first to report the death or near-death of a celebrity. (NT) -- Doctor, Fri, Oct 28 2005, 11:22pm PDT
  • She stood up immediatly, drawing her arms tightly around herself. "Yes, how is he? Is he ok?" She questioned, her brow furrowed, trying to look past the doors holding her back from where her boyfriend was. H ewas so much more then her boyfriend though, he was a major huge part of who she was, her very existance and she was scared out of her mind. "Please tell me he's alright, what happened?" She didn't know what to do or how she should be reacting to any of this. it hurt her so badly to know he was in pain. (NT) -- Bianca, Fri, Oct 28 2005, 11:36pm PDT
  • "It's remarkable that he's still alive." The doctor stated quite honestly and in complete seriousness - they would do everything in their power to ensure that he got the best possible care, but she had little patience for those who abused their wealth in this way. However, as a medical professional, she also understood that drug addiction was an illness - not often a choice by this point. "We're waiting for the test results, but it seems most likely that he injected tainted heroin. The evidence suggest that he's an experienced user, and so it's less likely that he would overdose. He's stable now, but unconscious. He's still in critical condition, but there's nothing else we can do for him, it's just a matter of waiting to see how his body reacts. He's lucky that our paramedics got to him when they did." (NT) -- Doc, Fri, Oct 28 2005, 11:44pm PDT
  • Her body started trembling violently, her face turning pale as her heart sped up. "Oh god..." Her hand raised to her mouth, biting her lip as tears pricked her dark eyes. "Can..can I see him? Please?" She questioned softly, her brow furrowed. "I need to be with him, he can't be alone. He's not good with being alone when he is sick..." She let out a soft breath, biting her lip as she tried to fight the dizzyness. For someone who was supposed to be avoiding stress and staying on a strict schedule, this wasn't going to go so well. (NT) -- Bianca, Fri, Oct 28 2005, 11:54pm PDT
  • She frowned immediately and reached out to take hold of the other woman's arm, waving for a nurse to come over. "Alright, ma'am. Just take a seat. They're moving him to a quieter room and Lindy here will come and get you as soon as he's settled." She assured the woman quickly and assertively - but with the sort of confidence that seemed comforting. "If you're feeling up to it, there are some questions that we would like to ask just regarding his background and past history." She looked up at the sound of some commotion but didn't move - it was just the hospital security engaged in a quiet but firm argument with the reporters loitering about regarding whether or not they should be allowed to stay. "Does he have any family that should be contacted?" (NT) -- Doctor, Sat, Oct 29 2005, 12:00am PDT
  • "Um, sure..alright.." She shook her head, letting out a soft breath. "No..no family..just me." She bit her lip lightly, her brow furrowed as she looked over her shoulder, her eyes widening. "They can not be in here!" She growled, regarding the reporters. Their cd was supposed to be released soon and they didn't need any bad publicity and she wasn't going to let them drag him through the dirt over this. She remembered when Ethan had been in his accident, Emily had pretty much kept it under wraps except for a few press releases that she had put out there. (NT) -- Bianca, Sat, Oct 29 2005, 10:22am PDT
  • She nodded a little in understanding, touching the woman's shoulder reassuringly. "We will get them out of here, just hang on. Someone will be here in a moment to talk to you." She promised and then was off to take care of the rest of her patients, leaving the distraught young woman in the company of a nurse that arrived moments later to take Gavin's history - gently asking all sorts of questions about his drug use, and general medical history, and all that sort of things. They needed a better idea of his background, and it helped to pass the time until she could see him. (NT) -- Doc, Sat, Oct 29 2005, 10:40am PDT
  • She answered all their questions as honestly and fully as possible as distracted as she was, her brow furrowed and her arms wrapped around herself tightly. "Can I see him yet?" She questioned again, her brow furrowed tightly. "He really doesn't like to be alone when he's not feeling well, he needs someone with him, he needs me." He had been there for her when she was sick and she intended to be there every step of the way for him also. Her eyes drifted to the door again, letting out a slow breath to calm herself down. (NT) -- Bianca, Sat, Oct 29 2005, 10:19pm PDT

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