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>While I was looking up sites on line about recovering >addiction, I came across this one. >Im a 20 year old single mum from australia, i started >using heroin when i was 14, and of course got addicted >to it. >I hit bottom numerous times but could never get away >from the scene. Over the years i have been to 30-day >rehabs over 15 times, lost all my non using friends >and all respect for myself. When I was 16 i fell >pregnant, they day i found out i stopped using. I >could justify physicaly hurting myself but not anyone >else. Six months after i had my daughter i started >using again, the only reason i didnt lose my little >girl, or o.d and die was because my family never >abandoned me. I did everything from selling my mothers >engagement ring, to sleeping with drug dealers to pay >for my drugs. >And my mum would step in and take my daughter for a >few days when i was out of control. Luckily my mum >would have been the first person to call welfare if >she thought kaily was not being fed, clothed or loved, >amazingly i managed to just keep all that up. In >January of this year i went to a long term rehab for >young people under 21. I had been caught by the police >for using and had a choice, Have my daughter taken >away from me, or go to rehab. There was no choice, as >any mother knows, you would go to the end of the earth >for your children. After 3 agonizing months i >completed the rehab. For all that time we were >required to have no contact with any friends or >family, including my daughter, I sacrificed 3 months >of her live with me to asure that i will still be with >her in 30 years time. >After all this i found i hadnt got away unscathered, I >had contracted Hepitites C. It causes inflamation of >the liver and is a fatal disease for which there is no >cure. Luckily for me because im so young and my liver >was healthy, i will most likely die of old age before >the hep c ravages my liver. I have currently been >clean for 10 months but still feel some things >missing. Because i was forced to grow up fast i cannot >relate to people my own age, but dont really want to >surround myself with people 20 years older than me. >I have never been religous and after all the deaths >and suffering i have seen chose to believe more that >there was no god. I know this isn't true but it was >easier to believe. >i hope sharing all of this with you may help me a >little to move forward with my life. >Ellie, >Victoria, Australia

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