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Subject: From laughter to depression


Author:
Eremis
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Date Posted: 16:50:32 05/15/02 Wed
In reply to: Cas 's message, "Talking to Eremis" on 16:47:40 05/15/02 Wed

Eremis lowered the wine bottle from his lips and smiled at Cas when he sat down beside him. His very glazed eyes moved to the sketchpad when his friend asked him if he was trying to find some inspiration. A few days ago, he might have been embarrassed to be caught staring at a naked picture of another male, but now such a thing didn't even faze him. During the past week he had seen dozens of naked bodies and had even been a part of many strange sexual acts. Any innocence he might have once had was completely lost along with all the dreams he once harbored. He smirked when he realized that he seemed to be stuck in a downhill spiral, and wondered how long it would take before he crashed into complete oblivion. Knowing that no one would give a damn if he ceased to exist made him feel intensely sad. The world would probably be a better place without losers like me in it anyway.

Cas pulled him from his depressing thoughts when he called him a real artist and asked if he would like to work with oil paints and an easel. Before he could say anything, his friend rattled on about how much money nobles dished out for good artwork. It's always about sex, money, or power, isn't it? He turned his eyes back to the star filled sky then lifted the bottle to his lips again. Obviously, no one in Bizmar appreciated the simpler things in life, like true love or the breathtaking beauty of nature.

He shrugged when Cas mentioned how chilly it was because he couldn't feel the cold; his body was on fire from all the drugs and alcohol in his bloodstream. After the demon boy suggested that they go inside he nodded then got to his feet, gripping the bottle in one hand and the sketchpad and charcoal in the other. Cas had to help him walk across the plank because he couldn't see straight anymore and almost lost his balance a couple of times.

Once they were back inside the apartment, Eremis glanced at Kisa then headed directly to the bed and plopped down on the new mattress. He leaned back against the headboard and drained the rest of the wine before tossing the bottle onto the floor along with the sketchpad and charcoal. When his eyes fell upon Cas again, he wondered if Kisa had paid him to have sex with her. "Whys it always got to be about money with you, Cas?" he muttered while easing his body down until he was lying on his back, staring up at the paint that was peeling on the ceiling.

Briefly he thought about moving to the couch to let Kisa have his spot on the bed if she was spending the night, but he shrugged off the idea since he was just too damned tired to move at the moment. He rubbed his eyes, smearing more black charcoal from his sweaty palms across his face in the process. After a yawn he rolled onto his side, his hair covering his entire face like a blanket. He didn't think about pulling the cover over him since it was so stifling hot in the room, he could barely breath. A hint of a grin crossed his lips when he remembered that he didn’t have to work at the brothel in the morning, but when he caught sight of Cas sitting down on the bed, he frowned. "I bet you're pissed at me for taking the day off tomorrow because of all the money I'll be missing out on, right? Since I know where Belald lives I guess I can pay him a visit and charge him a bundle to let him fuck me at his house if that'll make you feel better."

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Cas
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Date Posted: 17:48:09 05/15/02 Wed

Cas breathed a silent sigh of relief when Eremis didn’t put up a fight about going back inside. He had to keep both hands clamped down on the healer’s sweaty shoulders as he walked him over the plank, soft curses tumbling out of his mouth every time his friend wobbled a bit too much. Fortunately, Eremis only needed a slight push to get over the windowsill, then Cas crawled in nimbly after him.

His own eyes were still a bit blurry as he watched the healer stumble toward the bed before falling back exhausted against the mattress. Cas frowned at him when he mumbled something about it always having to be about money with him. He didn’t think that was really all that true. Well…he scowled, for once feeling a bit irritated with himself. Yeah, so he needed money to survive, and that happened to make it a big priority for him. So what? Wasn’t nothing to be ashamed of, at least not in his book.

“Hey you, lady,” he said, glancing up at Kisa, “You can crash on the couch if you like, or else lock the door on your way out. ‘S up to you.”

He grabbed a fruit from the table to munch on since he was kinda thirsty and didn’t feel like making java—nor did he think it’d be a good idea to finish off that other wine bottle. He was already pretty sure he’d have a headache just from the few glasses he’d already had. So sue him if he couldn’t afford to indulge in mass quantities of liquor on a regular basis, at least not enough to make him immune to the stuff. Sheesh, there was that damn raking money issue again! Eremis HAD to be living in a la-la land to remain so fucking naïve!

Cas sighed and rubbed his eyes, yawning a couple times as he too stumbled toward the bed. He wasn’t really mad at Eremis for saying that about him. Actually, it really just kinda hurt his feelings somewhat. Here he was, pretty much quitting his old jobs and taking on a new, more dangerous one, just so he could room with his new friend. If it really were ALL about the money, Cas would never have wasted it on this stupid apartment in the first place! He could have saved hundreds by just renting a bed at one of the large rooms other street rats and beggars slept in.

As if he knew he were thinking about him, Eremis turned and looked up at him as he moved to sit down on the bed beside him. “I bet you're pissed at me for taking the day off tomorrow,” he said, frowning, “because of all the money I'll be missing out on, right? Since I know where Belald lives I guess I can pay him a visit and charge him a bundle to let him fuck me at his house if that'll make you feel better.”

Instead of getting mad, like he thought he would, Cas’s expression only softened slightly. “Hell, I ain’t pissed at you,” he said, a crooked smile coming to his face. “And you got the day off tomorrow, so quit yacking about turning tricks for fancy-shmancy no-good bastard mercenaries while you’re on holiday, okay?”

He cocked his head, feeling a little bit better inside when the somewhat happy, relieved look washed over the healer’s face. “Hey,” he said a bit more softly, “You know you got shit all over your face, right?”

He moved closer to Eremis and, licking the tip of one finger, proceeded to rub at the dirty smudges around his eyes. The healer made a face at first, then he started laughing while trying to push the other youth’s hand away. Soon they were both laughing together, and Cas hopped off the bed to grab the wet rag from the barrel of water to do the job properly.

“I think I have an idea,” he continued, as he scooted back onto the mattress and began to clean the charcoal away from the healer’s face, “About what to do tomorrow. I heard a couple urchins today say there’s another faire in town. We can go down there, maybe get something to eat if you like. You can even do some face painting if you want to. For FREE if that makes you feel better.”

He grinned down at his friend and tossed the rag over the side of the bed. “Because, you know,” he added, moving to lie down beside him. He crossed his arms up behind his head and joined the healer in staring at the ceiling, “It ain’t all about money with me. I just wanna be friends with you Eremis, but I can’t help it if you can’t deal with that.”

He rolled over on his side, curling one arm up under his cheek, a more dreamy smile alighting on his face. “Cause I think you’re really cool, you know that? I mean I really like you. There’s something different about you that I ain’t ever seen in nobody else around here, least not as far as I can remember.”

He yawned again a couple times and then sighed. “We just gotta get you off those drugs. You hafta promise that you won’t take too much at that party tomorrow. And if any a them people does something to you that you don’t like, you just come tell me and I’ll take care of it for you, okay?”




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