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Subject: Re: hello Author: Heather [ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ] Date Posted: 10/15/06 8:22pm In reply to: luka 's message, "hello" on 10/14/06 4:36am Hi Luka, It HAS been quiet around here. It's good to read an update from you; you sound very healthy in your comprehension of your situation. Many women would have given anything to have the grasp on reality that you do before wasting years of heartache before getting the revelation. I'm so glad you've been given the grace to be strong and I agree; you and your baby are definitely worth more. I so wish I lived closer; I would LOVE the chance to go to your sonogram. Let us know the results. It's always neat to hear about other women's babes in the womb. My son did the same thing with the rib kicking. Relentlessly, up until the end. My rib and I were both very happy, and I think he was, too, when he was born and had more space to move around. It's funny because after he was born his little legs kept kicking. Glad to hear from you! With Kindness, Heather [ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ]

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[> [> Subject: Re: hello Author: luka [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 11/ 3/06 2:16am Hey all, well as i sit here typing my little baby has the hiccups inside of me lol. My sonogram went really well and i have another next week which i am very excited about. He looked so much bigger at my last scan and i was able to take home a little picture of his profile. He's so cute and doesn't look so skeletal anymore he looks like a proper little baby much more filled out. I have bought his little bassinete and a have lots of little clothes for him and a really soft little blue duck toy that i couldn't resist buying to put into his little bed at least untill he arrives to sleep in it. I am so looking forward to meeting him and his big sister especially can't wait to meet and hold a 'real' little baby as oppossed to her baby dolls lol, i will be supervising this very closing of course. I have been feeling progressively more angry towards the babys father not that i have said as much but i definately feel it. I just feel like saying so many things and asking all these questions but i know that i will only be blasted and blambed, which is not constructive and not an honest open talk, so i don't. Mostly i am angry because he was so nasty towards me when i told him about being pregnant and how he begged and then threatened me in order to try to convince me to have an abortion. I feel more appropriately angry about that now than i think i did at the time. I feel furious when he dares to ask me how i am because obviously he doesn't give a damn how i am. And maybe he is only asking because i am pregnant with his child but it's not good enough to be concerned when he knows he can no longer have me dispose of our child together. This little baby was my (our) child when i concieved him , he was no less my (our)child before he had fully developed limbs. But to him it's as if it isn't real untill he gets too big to abort. I think you know it's just not the same. I didn't expect him to be thrilled about my being pregnant but i really never dreamed he would turn on me the way he did. I thought he loved me and now i know that he never did. I am infuriated with the looks he gives me when he comes to visit our other children. It is so misleading he's all puppy dog eyes and an onlooker would be forgiven for thinking that maybe he wished he was still with me. But i have fallen for that look one too many times to know that it actually doesn't mean anything at all. He still doesn't love or respect me. It's like he just does it to keep me on a string. I resent him more than i can say right now. The other woman has had her child. I assume by pure intiution (which i now trust!!) and something different in his demeanor lately that she is probably going to take him back. Which i could care less about but i will have some serious problems with her having anything to do with the raising of my little baby since she so arrogantly thought it was her place or right to ask me to have an abortion. Anyway, thats my vent for the day lol, sorry i know it was long winded just had to get that off my chest. Again to end on a positive note i am so thrilled about having my baby and it won't be long now :) I am just shy of 30 weeks! I had a little worry over the last couple of days when his movements seemed to be slowing down so i went in to be monitored at the hospital but as soon as they strapped the belt across my belly he decided to have a party in there. The midwife and i joked that next time i think he's not moving enough i should just put a belt around my belly lol. Oh and a man asked me out on a date! I was really flattered and stunned since i am so obviously pregnant but i declined, i'm just not ready. I think once i can look at this situation and not feel so angry then maybe that's the time when i will be ready to move on. I just need a little longer i think to adjust to my new circumstances before i have anyone new in my life. Would have been nice for us to hang out as friends but i know that sometimes those situations can sort of get out of hand as well and besides i just don't have the time these days. I hope all the aldies here are well and would love to hear about whats been happening for everyone else :) I have missed chatting to all of you.

[> [> [> Subject: Re: hello Author: Heather [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 11/ 9/06 11:02pm Hi Luka, It was so wonderful to read your post and update! You're so close the vicarious excitement is kicking in. :) I'll bet your daughters are going to go crazy having a sweet little baby brother to play real life dolly with, lol. He'll probably be one very loved little guy. Good job not falling for the puppy dog eyes! If the need to express your frustration becomes too strong, you can always write it out and mail/email it to him so there's no provision for conflict, just communication. How are you feeling? Your pregnancy seems to have whizzed by fast. We're all doing pretty well over here. I sometimes lament that my 'baby' is now a big four and a half year old, but she's still my baby. There are lots of neat things I'm finding about being a mother to somewhat older children now, too. There are pleasant surprises at all the stages, it seems, to go along with the bittersweetness of 'losing' the baby version of the child. How are things with you mom? Love, Heather

[> [> [> [> Subject: Re: hello Author: luka [ Edit | View ] Date Posted: 11/10/06 2:43am I will email you a picture of baby's sonogram :) Had another scan 2 days ago. He is measuring a bit longer in the legs for his dates so i think he's going to be a long baby and his estimated weight is 1.8 kilos or about 4 pounds which is a good size. His cheeks are well and truely chubby now too. I feel so proud and happy that i did not waver in my conviction to keep my baby from the very begining (something i struggled with my other pregnancies). I feel very much like he was meant to be here as were my other children. My babys movements i can tell have become more restricted but when he does have a good kick i am really startled especially if i am standing at the time. I guess i am more ready for that sort of kick when i am sitting down lol. I cannot for the life of me get comfortable in bed at night the side of my hip that i lay on keeps going painfully numb in what seems like not alot of time. I can't stretch ever without getting a cramp either lol but it's all worth it. I have been eating all the right things and some naughty things lol. I feel like i look great even though my daughter tells me this morning casually that she thinks i looked nicer when i am 'normal' lol. I am really enjoying being pregnant this time but also half wishing time would hurry up so i can meet my little boy. But then i think i don't want to rush past christmas with my children he will be here soon enough. No problems medically he is healthy and i am feeling great on all fronts :)