Date Posted:Sun 05/01/03 13:37:23 Author: Simba (Chan Sing Yin) Author Host/IP: OFSfa-01p2-175.ppp11.odn.ad.jp / 61.116.113.175 Subject: So, what have you gained after 25 years?
I woke up this morning. Look at the calendar that reminded me it is 2003. So I did lived 24 years after I left Pui Ching. I am not that confident that I can live another 24 years.
There must be a lot of broken hearts, laughters, tears and celebrations occurred to my dear classmates in these 24 or 25 years. I did have a few, and learnt to survive with scars. I guess this is the price of 'growing up', for whatever it means.
I feel happy, or indeed I should use the word proud, that I haven't wasted much time (I did wasted some), and I am more or less a man that the Simba Chan of 18 years old would not feel too embarrassed to turn into. The only exception is that I don't like China anymore. I just happened to be born as this race. It's a great country, but please leave me alone.
Still proud of being an atheist: I donated blood on the Christmas Eve. A girl, last year of her univeristy undergraduate course, said I must be a Christian. I said, my dear, I would not feel annoyed had you mistaken me as a homosexual (let's prove it tonight that I'm not), but don't mistake me as a Christian. I would feel humiliated. She doesn't fully understand. I think she will understand some day. She's a clever girl.
I should say I have no regret to my youth - and still feeling young now.
Just for the record: wish you well at the reunion parties anywhere in the world, but don't expect me to come. Cause I have long decided not to come. Things are better in the memories.
