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• He had heard she was coming home, and so had kicked Josiah out and settled back in. Stretched out on the couch, he had been watching television but then fallen asleep - he hadn't been getting enough rest the past few days, stressed about whatever was going on inside of Kesi's head and just missing her... (NT) -- Jake, 22:41:32 07/21/04 Wed

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• She pounded lightly against the door, kicking it as her hands were full. "Josiah! Get your ass out here and help me!" She called out, kicking the door again. (NT) -- Kesiyah, 22:43:56 07/21/04 Wed

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• He awoke with a low groan and sat up slowly, running a hand down his face as he shook his head - trying to shake away the sleep from his mind. Finally understanding what all the banging was for, he stood slowly and half-walked, half-stumbled his way to pull open the door for her - rumpled in just jeans, hair messed, unshaven state... (NT) -- Jake, 22:46:52 07/21/04 Wed

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• She cocked a brow, pushing through the door past him. "Your lookin' a little rough." She dropped one bag to the floor, stretching out her arm - she brought back more then she took as usual. (NT) -- Keisyah, 22:48:18 07/21/04 Wed

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• "Just woke up..." He mumbled and rubbed his eyes - still red-rimmed from his lack of sleep - before leaning down to grab her bags to drag them into her bedroom for her, still half-asleep. (NT) -- Jake, 22:54:57 07/21/04 Wed

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• She frowned softly, watching him quietly, her head tilted as she shrugged off her carrying bag, tossing it onto the counter. "You been staying here?" She questioned, going to the fridge to get a drink. (NT) -- Kesiyah, 22:58:44 07/21/04 Wed

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• "No... With my parents..." He rubbed his face once more after setting down her bags and then took a deep breath and got himself a glass of water - looking slightly more awake. "Your brother was enjoying the place to himself, I think." (NT) -- Jake, 23:00:23 07/21/04 Wed

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• She nodded lightly, looking at him quietly. It was weird, not rushing to him after almost two weeks apart. "Nice of you to let him have it...." (NT) -- Keisha, 23:02:04 07/21/04 Wed

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• And yet all he wanted was for her to rush into his arms, but she wasn't looking too interested. He sighed softly and shrugged a touch, crossing his arms over his chest as he leaned back against the counter. "You weren't here.. Made no difference to me where I slept." (NT) -- Jake, 23:05:03 07/21/04 Wed

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• She sighed softly, tilting her head slowly. "I missed you...." She murmured softly, her eyes on him a little hesitantly. She bit her lower lip, definately worried a bit. (NT) -- Kesi, 23:07:33 07/21/04 Wed

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• He held out a hand to her and sighed softly, brow gently furrowed and head tipped back a touch, voice a low, honest murmur. "I missed you too, Kesi..." (NT) -- Jake, 23:11:28 07/21/04 Wed

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• She glanced at his hand and then took it after hesitating for a moment. Her hand slipped into his and she cuddled against his chest, her hand slipping from his to instead wrap around his neck - holding on tight. (NT) -- Kesi, 23:14:43 07/21/04 Wed

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• He wrapped his arms tightly around her waist and ducked his face into her neck, lips lightly brushing her skin as he spoke softly, words muffled. "Mad at me?" (NT) -- Jake, 23:16:07 07/21/04 Wed

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• "I don't know." She sniffled, her arms tightening around him as she closed her eyes more tightly. She really didn't know what she was thinking.... (NT) -- Kesi, 23:17:22 07/21/04 Wed

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• A low breath slipped from his lips, brows gently furrowed as he just held her tightly - he hated this uncertainty, part of him wanting to be mad at her for leaving without telling him and then being so distant on the phone and unsure right now, but he just couldn't be. (NT) -- Jake, 23:23:10 07/21/04 Wed

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• She drew back, wiping at her eyes in attempt to keep the tears from falling - though a few had dropped without her realizing it. "I've just been thinking so much Jake, to much, and I just..I don't know...." She shook her head, letting out breath, gnawing at her lower lip. (NT) -- Kesi, 23:24:43 07/21/04 Wed

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• "I don't know either, Kesi. You said you were fine with me going, maybe not happy, but fine. Then I come home and you're gone and I don't have any idea where to, then you're distant on the phone, you get back and don't even hardly say hello. What's going on?" He ran a hand through his hair, distressed. (NT) -- Jake, 23:50:24 07/21/04 Wed

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• She ran her hand over her face, leaning back against the counter. "I don't know...you just...you left and so many thoughts ran through my mind...anything could have happened, and I know it didn't...but that you put yourself at that risk..." She frowned, shaking her head "I couldn't handle it if something happened to you Jake, if you got hurt, or locked up again..." She let out a soft breath, her voice tight. "I don't want to be a nag, or keep you from living your life the way you want too...but I don't think I can handle worrying about you like this...." (NT) -- Kesi, 23:53:02 07/21/04 Wed

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• "So what does that mean?" He cocked a brow and crossed his arms over his chest as he watched her - he didn't want to scare her, or worry her, but at the same time he was young, he wanted to enjoy himself once in a while. (NT) -- JAke, 23:55:03 07/21/04 Wed

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• And she wouldn't care about that all if he wasn't on parole, if she didn't have to lie to his PO to cover for him, if she wasn't worried about him getting tossed back into jail. She bit her lip, the pain obvious in her eyes as she tried to find the words to tell him that she couldn't do this - but it was so hard. (NT) -- Kesi, 23:56:43 07/21/04 Wed

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• "What are you saying, Kesi?" His brows furrowed as he watched her, almost challengingly - frustrated by the whole situation, hurt and exhaustion only making things worse. (NT) -- Jake, 23:57:54 07/21/04 Wed

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• His attitude helped her out a bit - it was like he was daring her to break up with him. She frowned, turning away for a moment before she looked back to him. "I think...I think..maybe...." She closed her eyes for a moment - willing strength to herself as she straightened her shoulders. "Maybe we need some time apart." (NT) -- Kesi, 23:59:32 07/21/04 Wed

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• "That's maybe the most gutless thing I've ever heard." He growled and stood a little straighter, fingers of one hand twisting into his hair as he headed out of the kitchen and towards the bedroom to grab his stuff, talking to her as he went. "You get scared, things don't go your way for once, I do something just a little over the edge, and you want to take a break." (NT) -- JAke, 00:01:40 07/22/04 Thu

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• His words hurt, she didn't move to follow him, she just leaned against the counter her brow furrowed, her eyes closed for a moment. This hurt more then she'd expected - it hurt so bad she could hardly breathe. It wasn't just that she was scared...at least she didn't think it was..maybe she was making a huge mistake, but it was to late now. (NT) -- Kesi, 00:06:55 07/22/04 Thu

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• He was far more hurt than mad - that she was more interested in giving up for now than working through things, but it was easier just to act angry. "So what? Not being around me, having me around here, not seeing me except when we run into each other - that's going to fix this?" (NT) -- Jake, 00:09:19 07/22/04 Thu

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• "I don't Jake!" She shook her head, her own eyes sparking lightly now. "Your buddies want you back Jakoby, and that life and this one just don't mix alright?" She shook her head, letting out a heavy breath. "So just go out and have you fun and you won't have to worry about missed dates, or getting in at a decent hour." Or having a girlfriend worrying at home. (NT) -- Kesi, 00:12:24 07/22/04 Thu

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• "C'mon Kesi, that's not fair." His brows furrowed as he turned from where he was getting his clothes together. "I told you - after Cleveland things would go back to normal. I'm not saying I'm not going to hang out with the guys at all, but it won't be as often.." (NT) -- Jake, 00:14:40 07/22/04 Thu

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• She shook her head, refusing to give in to him this time. "Just like the first time you stood me up would be the last time? And then the second time, and the third, and the fourth?" She shook her head, she didn't believe him in the least right now. (NT) -- Kesi, 00:18:35 07/22/04 Thu

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• He shook his head and stood up a little straighter, grabbing his bag with a deep frown. "I told you I was sorry about all that. I thought you trusted me - I promised you the last time that it wouldn't happen again but now you're not even giving me a chance." (NT) -- Jake, 00:20:47 07/22/04 Thu

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• She sighed softly, shaking her head. "I am just saying it might be better for you if you had some time on your own Jake." He'd been with her for a long time, almost five years now, and he'd always been by her side.... (NT) -- Kesi, 00:24:19 07/22/04 Thu

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• "Don't even try that Kesi. How could that be better for me?" His brows furrowed deeply as he watched her, shoulders sagging a touch - if he stayed mad, this would be easier, but it was so hard not to be begging her not to do this... (NT) -- Jake, 06:36:20 07/22/04 Thu

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• "Because apperantly this is all apart of you that I didn't know about and it seems to be kind of important to you. We've been together for what, five years? And you have already done anything on your own in that time..." She shrugged looking away. She was just wanting him to go have his fun and do his thing and not resent her twenty five years ago. (NT) -- Kesi, 06:39:05 07/22/04 Thu

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• He sighed and shook his head a touch, fingers twisting in his hair. "They're old friends, Kesi. I don't see them for sure in my future - I see you. How many times do I have to tell you that?" He couldn't sleep well without her in bed with him, and he worried whenever they weren't together - who would take care of her if he wasn't there? (NT) -- Jake, 06:43:19 07/22/04 Thu

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• "But you see them now Jake!" She shook her head, leaning against the wall and crossing her arms over her chest, biting her lip heavily. She was hurting so bad....she just wanted everything to be ok again. (NT) -- Kesi, 06:45:54 07/22/04 Thu

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• So did he - just want things to be normal again - and that's why he was having so much trouble with this. Exhaling deeply, he shook his head slightly and shrugged, looking to her, almost defeatedly, after a long moment. "I don't want this, Kesi..." (NT) -- Jake, 06:52:30 07/22/04 Thu

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• That brought the tears over her lashes again, shaking her head heavily as she swallowed. "I don't know what else to do...." She had run away to get her mind off of things but it had only made her think more. (NT) -- Kesi, 06:53:48 07/22/04 Thu

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• He didn't want things to be happening like this and he was mad that she was even considering it but he didn't know what to do either. He sighed softly and watched her a long moment before his spoke awake - his voice low and rough. "Why don't we give this a day or two...? Cool off a bit, really think on what's going on..." (NT) -- Jake, 06:59:58 07/22/04 Thu

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• "Ok..." She let out a soft breath, her hand running over her cheeks to try and brush away the tears, biting her lip heavily, so hard it was painful. "Sounds...reasonable...." (NT) -- Kesi, 07:01:29 07/22/04 Thu

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• He shrugged helplessly and slung his bag his bag over one shoulder, frowning deeply. "This isn't over Kesi, so don't start thinking like it is... Call me in a couple days and we'll talk." (NT) -- Jak, 07:03:21 07/22/04 Thu

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• "Ok...." She murmured softly, letting out a slow breath - watching him quietly. "I'll call you." She brushed away the rest of the tears, brushing off the mascara. (NT) -- Kesi, 07:07:55 07/22/04 Thu

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• "Couple days... Call me and if you don't, then I'll call you." He murmured softly, doing everything he could not to take her in his arms, kiss away her tears - it killed him to see her like this and to know he was the cause of it, yet again. (NT) -- Jake, 07:10:46 07/22/04 Thu

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• She nodded, feeling the sobs welling inside her chest - her tears running down her cheeks heavily. "Alright..." She sniffled, swallowing again, turning her face from him - not wanting to make things worse for him by breaking down. (NT) -- Kesi, 07:12:08 07/22/04 Thu

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• Exhaling roughly, he took a final, long look at her and then headed out the door - desperate to get out of there before he lost it himself. He couldn't believe that this was happening, after everything they had already been through... (NT) -- Jake, 07:13:35 07/22/04 Thu

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• As soon as the doors shut the sobs broke free, causing her small form to shake lightly as she sunk to the floor, her head resting on her upraised knees..... (NT) -- Kesi, 07:14:41 07/22/04 Thu