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Date Posted: 18:02:40 12/18/08 Thu
What can I say? She's an amazing girl, and it comes as no surprise that she rocked my world. She is attractive, and I can never guess when she is trying to be cute, or just naturally being cute. Ok some times I know when she is trying to be cute. Seeing her again, at first it was like a rare treat. I could just sit in the same room with her again...think whatever I wanted, and then she would leave and I didnt see her for a month or so. Whenever the next big occasion or accidental run into each would happen. One time I hadn't seen her for a while, but since I am pathetic, I was thinking about her a lot. Well I woke up one morning, and she was there. I didn't know what to do so I just pretended to be asleep until she told me to get up.
Lately though, less time has been passing inbetween theese visits. I can't lie, well I could, but what's the point? When I hang out with her, I want her. I do, I want her in the worst way. This is exactly why her boy friend told her she wasn't allowed to hang out with me. I asked Tim one day what that was all about and he said "I don't know man, that's the rule, but she's here so go with it" I am paraphrasing of course. I can't reconstruct EVERY conversation Tim and I have ever had...just most of them.
I really don't know what to say, I have already said everything to her all. The meanist of the mean, the sweetest of the sweet. When she cut me off and moved on with her life, I was understandable upset. But when she comes by to say hello....I am uncontrollably attracted to her. I wish I could use the words of a gentlemen, but I can only use the words of a gentlemen in heat.
So I am getting ready to leave Fl, and I am sitting in the car with Tim and Chelsea and she asks me if I had anything I wanted to say...
What can I say? I can't just be like "would you mind if I pulled your hair while I fucked you?" Becuase yesterday when I saw her I want to, and today I really wanted to...I digress, and apologize to any reader faint of the heart. I didn't mean to offend, but I am trying to discribe what I am feeling. I mean I don't know how many times I am going to see her again before I leave, or when/if I come back. We had a pillow fight, played thumb wrestling (she beat me) and then asked if there was anything I wanted to say. What can I say at that point? I'm not going to shower her with poetry, tell her how amazing she is, and then watch her drive back away to her boy friend so I can masterbate...Excuse me again. I want the readers to know I am most apologetic for bringing up sexual content. I will try to keep it to a minimal, but I can't promise.Anyways, my intentions were not to be mean either, I don't know what say. Am I allowed to say I love her? And how many others times have I told her before? Besides at the exact moment she asked, it had a lot more to do with lust then love.
I don't even want to think about this. I don't get to have her. As good as it feels to be inflatuated by her, it only hurts when she bats me down, but to be fair I did my fair share of turning her down. It's cruel of me to entertain the thought, so what can I say? I hope there is some one like you in Memphis that hasn't already heard all my pick up lines? You tell me, what can I say?
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