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Date Posted: 15:23:02 03/30/05 Wed
i wish that my face was more narrow and that my cheeks set higher on their bones,
i wish that my lips were larger and that when i spoke they grazed telephones,
i wished that my tummy was flatter,
my legs longer,
my arms stronger,
and my bumm tighter.
and there's something missing inside.
when someone looks at me they don't see things,
because they're things i hide,
and even if they suspected i would just lie,
it's a preempted, unconscious response,
a habit that I must break,
it's the pill i take when reality hits me hard,
it's the world i live in when things aren't going my way,
i wake up every day,
promising myself that it won't happen this time,
and i take one more pill.
i promise myself that i won't swear,
and i take a pill.
i promise myself that i won't look don't at my shoes when someone looks in my direction and begins to stare,
and i take another pill,
i promise myself that i'm just like everyone else,
and i take another pill.
each dose stronger than the last,
and each lie involves more than the first,
and each lie gets harder to remember as it slips into the past,
so i urge you to answer this puzzling question,
the one that has been on the tip of my tongue since i was nine,
and the first lie i discovered, letting it sit on the tip of my tongue as i observed it and dubbed it mine,\
what is wrong with me?
what causes me to lie,
and feed myself a pill each time?
how do i stop my addiction,
what supplements do i take for false witnesses?
what pill can mock the effect of a fib?
what can stop the lie from slipping from my lips like mashed pees slipping off of a babies lips down its chin and onto its bib?
i pray that you'll come up with a drug,
to mimick the glorius affects,
becasue right now the temptation is flying around my dysfunctional head like an annoying bug.
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