Subject: Does He Love Me? |
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Sage
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Date Posted: Tue, Apr 06 2004, 7:00:48
My heart has been longing for someone who told me that they didn't want to be with me. However, after coming to this conclusion his behaviour, and to some degree mine, reflected completely the opposite feeling. It was as if the fear of losing one another brought our feelings to a new level of intensity. Now he's gone away to Thailand for a week to have a break as things have been pretty hectic in his life lately, although he's combining the trip with work doing a week touring in the Far East.
Since he's been there i've felt our connection more strongly and i've sensed when he is about to send me a text message and other times i feel like we're sharing some kind of feeling at the same time as each other. I feel as if our lives are entwined in some way that is bigger than the here and now we find ourselves in at this specific moment in time.
I didn't feel any loss when decided not to be together, apart from a superficial one after we physically left each other, and now i feel that that is because, somewhere in some other 'now' we are together and if, as i'm inclined to believe, we are all we were and will be, then we already are together in some sense, which would explain the bond between us. A bond you would only expect to have with someone you have shared many experiences with, and I have this with him after having known him only 7 months. When I see him, it's like finding someone you've lost, it's a relief.
It's hard to articulate just what i feel, and i have the same problem when trying to talk to him about it. We both harbour fears I guess, which is only natural, but at the moment i am waiting, hanging on in the hope that my intuition is not wrong and we will be together. I don't want to wait in vain, as the song says, so I'm asking for any help you can give me to help me decide if we truly are each other's destiny.
I appreciate your help. Thank you.
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