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Date Posted: 09:50:32 06/22/07 Fri
Author: vit
Subject: The ephemeral relationship

It was long ago, I��ve been thinking of writing you a letter, but, after many years, I��ve never even written you one.

It makes me feel like some kind of mistakes in life. I make a lot of mistakes, most of them I don��t think I should not be regretted for, so I settle and prepare myself to answer for that. Recently, from time to time, I��ve been thinking of you a lot. Once in a while, I would indulge myself to think of you, the scenes of the last episode always haunt on my mind to recall the days you were lying abed.

The neuron illness caused so much damage to your brain, when the despair of your eyes were looking at the far corner of the room, with a hail of screaming sounded like some sort of apparitions from Hades were coming to you. I would grasp your hand and told you: don��t be frighten, if they are coming to get you, they have to get me first. I grasped both of your hands; it was really a matter that had taken me aback in the first time. I felt a cold current ran through my back.

When the neuron expert couldn��t find out what was happening to your brain, I started to realize it would be sooner or later, of the wide world, finally I have to be alone, no one could I turn to, all by myself.

In and out hospital, you became weaker and weaker. I was in the beginning of my career. It seemed a booming future was ahead of us, but you was conquered and defeated by the hand of fate which blew off my entire plan. Might there be another chance could I pay you for a trip, taking you to, picking you up with a Merc at the air-port?

The sense of being helpless drove me much anguish, it seemed it was God who turned me down. If the omnipotence would take my ten years to you, please do so or do whatever on me. By seeing your dilapidated body faded to its bone, could I control myself not to ask for what reason why the omnipresence would not listen to my prayer? It went evanescence.

Everyday when I returned home from work, you were haggard lying on bed; hollow eyes were looking over the windows. A sip of water or juice was all you could take. Life was struggling to survive but it withered in front of my eyes.

As I held your hands in the night when you mumbled words which hardly could be reckoned, the moaning or screaming seemed some kind of spirits was approaching near to force taking you away, then I started to look at every corner of the room and I couldn��t help but pray. Please take me, if you would not take me, please give him a chance and save him, don��t you know I need him? or are you taking him to a better place? But this only means I would have no chance to see him anymore on this wide world!

Frustration and distress released me to nowhere except to the mirror in the bathroom where I looked at myself. I would never shed one more drop of tear again unless the Almighty favored him the mercy that one humble man should get as he deserved. Can this warrant be summoned later?

Everyone lost a father, but was it too soon to let go your hand? It was all in a sudden. Could I have another opportunity to sit beside you in the tranquil night after dinner, with a cigar in your hand, listening to music? It would have no more chance. I would not see you anymore! Not saying my father would see me no more!

And I know, from that time on, whenever I return home, I won��t have a chance to greet you by saying: daddy, it��s me.

The rising sun.
The frozen memory.
The summer wind blows.
The winter snow falls.

One find day when I could have found you in the eternity of immortality, I would tell you how much I miss you! And we shall go another journey of odyssey with your hand in mine.

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Replies:

Re: The ephemeral relationship -- Mona, 08:54:12 06/29/07 Fri
The ephemeral relationship awaiting eternity -- vit, 10:04:45 07/03/07 Tue