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sarahlee;)
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Date Posted: 17:58:18 10/06/04 Wed
In reply to:
maryann
's message, "Re: Needed Thinspiration" on 10:28:38 12/22/02 Sun
>I have been ana and mia for the past 5, going on 6 years, I am only 18 and this has been my life style CHOICE(because that is EXACTLY what it is) for quite some time..I have been on and off and gone to treatment, yatta yatta...BLAH...binge, purge, starve, starve, starve...I was a gaunt 98 pounds one year ago, I was reading back through my journals...I now weigh 129(doc's scale), my 5'5 frame CANNOT look like this anymore...do not let anyone, parents, family,friends or even boyfriends try to make you stop...because HELLOOOOO--obviously he likes you skinny, and he thinks that you are attractive and he takes you out to show you off( i am not saying that I am my boyfriends little trophy girl, because he relly does love me and he knows about my problems and he holds me and makes me feel beautiful in that MOMENT...but I DO ALWAYS come back to reality and realize that a size 4(abercrombie,lucky brand-wonder jean)is no more appetizing than the road kill I saw 4 girls eat on the all female fear factor...You may have stopped for a while and there is no doubt in my mind that you gained back all of the weight that you lost and possibly put on a few additional punds...I have a few friends like me and that makes it fun--to work out, diet, fast together, run, tae-bo, pilates...if you have someone who can be your POSITIVE(by positive I mean PRO-ana/mia)support system...I am my own support system right now because my very best friend used to be ana and she has since stopped and constantly whines about her weight...she was always skinnier than me until now..I would be 115, she would be 110, I was 98, she was 89, I could never pass her up and while I am at one of the heaviest weights I have ever been at I do NOT believe that she is bigger and that she is trying to get me to stop rather than being my support...I have been having a problem with my computer...I cannot create a new e-mail add, but i will create a new one......my cell...ALSO, no fat asses bitching me out, k... I hate those fat waitresses at resturants that bring you reg, when you ask for diet and I will not accept any negative phone calls nor will i respond to any sort of verbal abuse if you wish to call my punk card and say that I am a fat girl FINE, I could care less, we ALL have a FAT girl inside of us, but I just DO not let mine come out. Ana really is the only way, although ana w/binge and purge tendenencies works 2..padres are home g2g...luv ya, drink coffee, take NyQuil to sleep if you have a free night. Cruches and a pilates tape(tae-bo) will do too, at every bathroom break that you take at night...I love my sisters stay stong.
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