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Date Posted: 13:47:55 05/28/03 Wed
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l23_m
's message, "Joshua" on 12:45:22 05/19/03 Mon
"What the hell do you mean?" I asked out of shock, he just started cracking up and laughing his ass off... THAT ASSHOLE!
"You hehehe should have seen hehehe your face"
"TOM YOU ASSHOLE THAT WASN'T FUNNIE!" I screamed at him, he quickly became serious when he realised how hurt I was.
"Josh I'm sorry, I'm really sorry can you forgive me?" my anger dissipated at the sound of his voice and went to hold his hand again.
"It's just... I thought you would never wake up, I stayed by your side, it's been weeks now and I haven't left this chair... I haven't wanked either. I really thought you would never come out of your coma" I said while squeezing his hand.
"What do you mean coma? Weeks?" I sighed heavily, I was so glad he was back and was ok but now I had the task of telling him all that had happened while he was asleep. I told him everything, he cried a lot, and I cried too, he couldn't believe Jason was dead, neither could I really. He didn't say anything about what I told him about Justin. Every time someone came to see Tom it was like a little party they bought balloons and presents and food... tasty food non of the hospital crap, it was awesome I must remember to knock Tom unconscious when I have a craving for chocolates. Another week passed before we where able to leave the hospital together, of course he had to keep the plaster cast's on, and because there where on his arm and leg meant I got to push him around in a wheelchair. All you grannies watch out...we have a set of wheels now... muhahahah!
About a week after we where released Jason's funeral was held, his mom had postponed it so we could be there... he didn't have many friends. Because she had postponed it it couldn't be an open-air coffin, for obvious reasons. It was held out in the open, for the entire world to see. It was on top of a slight hill, which made it fucking difficult for me to wheel Tom up. Alex came up behind me and helped me push the wheelchair the rest of the way. It was an amazing day, the sun was shining and the grass was green and the birds where chirping, the air was nice and crisp and there wasn't a cloud in the sky, not even the wind was blowing. We where sat a few feet away from the coffin, on small hard un-comfy chairs. I was sat on the end of the row next to Tom in his wheel chair; next to me was Alex and next to him was Jason's parents, behind us where various members of his family. Off in the distant behind some trees unaware I could see him was Justin silently watching, he wanted to come but me Tom and Alex wouldn't allow it, I know it was mean but it would have just started trouble.
Everyone was wearing black in fact you couldn't see Jason's mom's face as it was covered with a black veil, but I knew like the rest of us she was silently crying. I was even wearing my 'cool' shades... mostly to hide my red puffy eyes. The priest started his sermon talking about how great Jason was, I mean he was great... I guess but what would this guy know he's only seen the dead Jason! I didn't know if the rest where doing what I was doing but I was toning out that stupid ass priest and thinking back to all the good times and the bad times Jason and me had. I admit it was mostly bad times, but there where some good times there. I remembered how he used to smile at me when I made a stupid joke, I remembered the first day we met in that crowded hallway, he was my knight in shining armour, as well as a wolf in sheep's clothing. I felt Tom squeeze my hand as some songs that Alex had chosen started to play, he whispered to me during sobs that they where Jason's favourite songs.
He had chosen 'if I could turn back time' by Cher and 'you can't hurry love' by Diana Ross and the Supremes. Both the songs made me totally depressed. Finally the sermon ended and the people started to dissipate. I watched as Jason's dad carried his wife away to the car. I lifted up my glasses and wiped a few tears away. We sat there for a while just me Tom and Alex, quiet no one wanted to speak, we where all reflecting on the good times. I knew it was hard for Alex to be here, when I had gone to his house to check on him after Tom was out of hospital, he was a total mess he hadn't been out of bed and was on medication... he had tried to kill himself. But now he is much better and off the medication although he doped himself up for the funeral, I didn't agree with that but I didn't stop him. I quietly got up out of my chair and made my way over to the sealed coffin, I placed my hands gently on the lid.
"I can't believe your really gone Jason, I thought you would be around forever. I thought I would have plenty more chances to yell at you. What can I say? I miss you so much and so does Tom. Alex is doing much better now. And they have tried the people who killed you with murder... but I guess you already know that don't you, I mean you probably know everything now... even the colour of my underwear, just quietly watching us from heaven. I just want to ask one favour... don't watch me in the shower ok? Or when Tom and me are having sex or wanking or stuff. Cause if you do I'll exorcise you understand? Oh and remember you asked for my forgiveness? You didn't need to I was mad at you but you were my friend and I would have forgiven you anyways. But just in case you need to hear it, Jason I forgive you" I had started crying during that little speech thing. I felt something cold on my cheek almost like a kiss, and I knew deep down it was Jason, he had heard me. Alex wheeled Tom up besides me and Tom handed Alex Jason's book of conquests, with a deep breath he placed it on top of the coffin. I started wheeling Tom towards the car park so Alex could be alone.
"Love you Tom" I whispered to him.
"Love you too" We watched Alex silently from the car park while waiting for my auntie to pick us up. We saw Justin cautiously approach Alex, we watched as they hugged and Justin got the forgiven by Alex. Then we saw Alex punch Justin square in the jaw and knock him out cold. Alex came bounding down the hill with a big smile on his face.
"That was for Jason... I don't think he saw that one coming did you?" he said, I couldn't help it I just started to laugh, I couldn't stop, soon Alex and Tom where joining in. it wasn't really funny it's just we needed the laugh so bad, we laughed for so long that day, talking and just reminiscing about the past, it was the best day of our life's. I knew than that everything was going to be just fine as long as we had each other and where still friends and we never forgot Jason, my life is going to be just fine as long as I have Tom and the love we share... I hope.
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