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Subject: Re: 12-11-2002 (part 2)

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Lisa

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Date Posted: 10:59:37 12/12/02 Thu
In reply to: Ian Line 's message, "12-11-2002 (part 2)" on 22:17:15 12/11/02 Wed

I'm waiting....still waiting. What else can you do when every attempt you've made has been blocked and met with contempt? I don't know what to say, don't know what to do, don't even know how to act....I've had boundaries placed on my life and my heart and I don't know what to do with them...they've never been there before and it's not fair (lame I know) that they're there now! I pray and I cry and still nothing.....God seems pretty quiet with me lately .....I know that I've been mocked and yes, I am hurt.... but in an instant all that would be forgotten and I would gladly put it all aside so that things could be different. So that we could move forward again.... together. I feel useless and ineffective. Used up and hurt and like noone really cares....I know people do, but I feel so alone. The rational part of me knows that I'm not alone. The rebellious part of me says, "who cares! I can do it w/o them. It's me and God and that's all I need!" Which is true to an extent.....but I don't think that's the way it's supposed to be. It's supposed to be more....more people, more of God, more unity, more, more, MORE!!!! I'm tired of settling for less than we ever had before! I want MORE! I want to see God move. I want him to be the most important thing in the world! I want to see and know him in ways we've never seen and known him before. I want nothing to stand in the way. Not past disagreements, not arrogance, not hurts.....nothing! I want to set all those things aside and run hard after him!!!! I want to stop talking and start doing. We all grew alot...what did that growth depend on? Was it dependent on God or a man? God's still here...He's waiting. It's time to stop pouting and licking our wounds. It's time to take the chips off of our shoulders and be vulnerable again. We're growing cold and bitter and that's exactly the opposite direction of what we need to be. Don't you remember? Don't you remember who you are? Don't you remember who he is? I'm starting to remember.......It's time to stand up and go after what we want....what we really want. What is it that you want?

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Re: 12-11-2002 (part 2)	Erin	17:30:51 12/13/02 Fri