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Vicky
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Date Posted: 02:58:57 08/11/06 Fri

Good morning ladies. My heart is broken this morning. I have shed many tears in the last twelve hours. As I came this morning to the table to sit and talk with MY SAVIOR...I was very tenderly taken by the hand. Do you know those moments in your life's experience when you want NOTHING as much as you want MORE of HIM? That last two days were more like that for me than anything I had ever experienced.
Then this morning I came and I sat and the LORD JESUS beckoned me to the shore in Galilee where he had breakfast with HIS disciples after HIS resurrection. (John 21:15-18) I stood there on the shore with HIM and listened again as HE re-commissioned and reenlisted Peter for what was to come. My heart was drawn back to Mark 16 when the angel sitting in the tomb waiting for the women to come told them, "Go tell HIS disciples AND PETER, HE is going ahead of you to Galilee; there you will see HIM, just as HE told you."
That verse speaks volumes to my heart this morning. I am going to try to share with you what I experienced this morning with HIM.
In a sense, this verse in Mark 16 says..."Go tell HIS disciples AND DON'T FORGET TO TELL PETER..."
Go tell Pete to get his bat....He gets to hit again. I heard the FATHER say this morning, "Vick, YES, you blew it. You blew it big, but you can bat again." My heart sat this morning and I said, "BUT LORD, I don't feel worthy to bat again."
Ladies, look hard at that statement because that WAS THE POINT IN MY HUGE FAILURE. HE said to my heart this morning, "Vicky, you WEREN'T WORTHY TO BAT BEFORE YOU BLEW IT....IT'S NOT ABOUT YOUR WORTHINESS...IT IS ALL ABOUT MY GRACIOUSNESS."
How could I even think it was about whether I was good enough to bat...that was the POINT OF CALVARY...I could never do it on my own.
So ladies, this morning I will pick up the bat again, I will turn around and look into HIS FACE and say, "FATHER, I am unworthy to hold this bat in my hands, but THANK YOU FOR JESUS WHO PAID THE PRICE SO THAT I CAN."

LORD JESUS, THANK YOU FOR DYING FOR ME. THANK YOU FOR ALLOWING ME TO SEE INSIDE OF MY HEART TO THINGS THAT NEED TO BE REMOVED. FATHER, THANK YOU THAT YOU FORGIVE ME WHEN I SIN. THANK YOU THAT YOU WILL ALWAYS FORGIVE ME WHEN I COME AND ASK FOR IT. THANK YOU THAT WHILE I AM UNWORTHY OF YOUR LOVE AND GRACE AND MERCY...YOU CONTINUE TO POUR YOURSELF INTO MY LIFE. I SURE DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT KIND OF LOVE. THANK YOU FOR USING MY CHILDREN TO TEACH ME HARD LESSONS. O FATHER, I NEED YOU TODAY LIKE I NEEDED YOU YESTERDAY AND WILL NEED YOU TOMORROW...FATHER, HOLD ME CLOSE AND HELP ME WALK WHERE YOU LEAD.

Ladies, this morning I will tell you that I sit here broken, but broken vessels can be restored. I am unworthy of HIS call in my life and yet HE has chosen to call me. This is grace that I simply cannot understand. HE reminded me this morning that failing does make me a failure....I am a failure when I choose not to pick up the bat again. I leave you this morning with a quote from Oswald Chambers:
Our ordinary abilities will never worship GOD unless they are transformed by the indwelling SON of GOD. We MUST make sure that our human flesh is kept in perfect submission to HIM, allowing HIM to work through it moment by moment. Are we living at such a level of human dependence upon JESUS CHRIST that HIS life is being exhibited moment by moment in us?

If you find yourself this morning in a place where perhaps you have stepped out of moment by moment submission will you hear HIS voice to you this morning: You can bat again...IT WAS NEVER ABOUT YOUR ABILITY OR YOUR WORTHINESS..."IT WAS ALWAYS ABOUT WHAT I DID FOR YOU AND WILL DO IN AND THROUGH YOU IF YOU WILL SUBMIT YOUR HEART TO ME! "

Thanks for coming today.

Because with all of my heart I want to be HIS and ONLY HIS-
Vicky

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