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Date Posted: Mon, Dec 27 2004, 17:09:48
probably.
if you email me, i will send you a picture or you could say who you are if you dont want to say it here.
i was always just edi, but i never talked much.
i knew everybody, then in mid 79 i ran off w/ someone else that everyone knows & who knew everybody (darby once tried to convince him to drive around w/ him & pick up mexican boys) & now everybody hates, & they hate him so much that i dont want to post his name. i mean, there are long diatribes about how hateful he is all over the internet!!
a couple of years ago i ran into tequila & told her who i had been married to & she just winced.
but, oh heavens, he wasnt like that then. he would not have dared to be like that around me, i dont think. i would not have stood for it at any rate, although i stood for plenty else, his schizophrenic mother, every vampire movie on earth, on & on. but it was all petty or not purposeful.....
sad, sad.
if you email me, i shall send you a picture. i only have 1 left & i was a model, of all things. my exhusband kept virtually everything i owned.
do you know what happened to gary moss?? is he really a carpenter??
gary moss & donnie rose were close, close friends of mine. i remember a conversation i had w/ gary moss, who did no drugs at all then (neither did i) telling me we had to figure out a way to get donnie to go back to school. i was trying to figure out a way to get him into jr college. he was 14.
i was just little & quiet. but nearly everyone remembers me when they see me. i look the same but a litle older. not as older as i should, which i suppose i could put down to my not doing a lot of drugs (then), but which really comes down to genetics.
i could also tell my other heartbreaking story, which is that while i did not do drugs i did drink & way too much (fall asleep standing up on some strangers back whilst wearing spike heels (me, not the stranger)) & i remember being at a party & donnie & i think darby were writing all over me w/ magic marker & i had no ride home & it was 3 in the morning at least & i was 14 & then animal x drove me home & he did not even -try- anything. i was soooo impressed.
the next week i decided to stop drinking & i told darby that & i told him i did not like losing control so much, &, you know, i skipped a lot of grades, i am reasonably bright & i remember darby looking & me & paying A LOT of attention to this thought. alcohol=NO control. you remember how much darby was into control. not as much as brendan said, but yeah, some.
& very soon thereafter i disappeared w/ the abovenoted & i have always felt guilty about that. as i was neither infatuated w/ darby nor an enabler of darby & i was, indeed, really close to donnie rose (i met him the first day he came up from riverside, setting lit cigarettes into his hair), i perhaps would have had a teeny tiny bit of influence, oh, i dont know. i miss these people a lot.
for all this time i have been trying to write this into a memoir or something, w/ quite a bit of encouragement, but it lays on me way too heavy-- more my family than anyone i have ever known, these people, except my mother (who has also died).
it is too hard. i decided to make the website, just to be doing something & now here i am writing these things out.
my best to you-----
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