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>http://www.free2live.org.uk > >I was an atheist, brought up in a "haunted house" >filled with fear. I > >was reared with an alcoholic mother, a very distant >angry father, and an > >alcoholic grandfather. A blind grandmother and a >neurotic great aunt >aided in rounding out this dysfunctional family along >with a twin sister > >and other siblings at least 12 years our senior. > >After leaving home for school, i was told my boyfriend >(age 13) had > >committed suicide. This was when i began to dwell on > >death...what did it > >mean...what is it.. > >The rest of my schooling seemed to be a waste of >time...because > >i could not think of work, only of death. Because of >surgery, i had to leave school early. For one year i > >went home to live with a drunken mother i hated, with >a fear filled > >household and , in the end...decided to go into >nursing. >i pondered.....death....but received no answers...It >was at > >this time i got into the occult. and things went >downhill from there. > >Inside i wanted to die...I was a black hole i could >not get out of. > > >I took an overdose of drugs stolen from the hospital >ward, >cut arteries in my wrists and waved goodby to the >world I awoke in pain >and with stitches. i was not sure if i was really >alive. > >They placed me in a room about 6x4 and i stayed there >for several years. > >With 36 plus drugs a day, strapped in a straight >jacket on occasion No > >window, no visitors, no furniture. just a mattress on >the floor. no > >clothes on me...where was I. I did not know it then i >was in a padded > >cell. After 17 months they moved me for short >periods, to have > >treatments. they did not work. I hated life, feared >everything, felt > >alone. There was no God... > >The doctors advised therapy that meant outside the >grounds in a > >hospital. > >High security wing of a psychiatric hospital In other >words..an >asylum. >On one occasion i managed to escape but was captured >and returned. the > >consultant told me "Liesl Stop running away,you are >here for > >life, the quicker you accept this the easier for us >and the easier for > >you. This is now your home for life." >I wanted to die Another time i escaped and got ; >into the black market drug scene. >became an addict ..My plan was to die from all these >drugs. >I escaped again to die, on the way went into a hall >Heard a man say, >*God can do anything absolutely anything >He can heal the sick, Heal the mentally sick and set >the drug addict free! >I went to leave the *God* bit made me angry,,, >a lady at the door said *Jesus loves you! He knows >what a mess you are in, >he really cares, a new record was in my mind,I >returned to the hospital. >After many escape attempts those that succeed, and >those that >failed...some Christian visitors came to see me in >hospital.. >They laid hands on me and i was healed.... >It was after that that i accepted jesus into my >life... >accepted him as Lord and Savior... >Jesus is the same yesterday, today, and forever. >These are not mere words but reality. >http://www.free2live.org.uk

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