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Subject: Dear Art

Author:
Cassandra

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Date Posted: 15:40:17 01/21/03 Tue
In reply to: Art 's message, "Re: An exploration of the Waking Down worldview" on 13:41:31 08/26/02 Mon

I just looked in here and read your response (above) and thought, "why not post an update here?" So here it is:

A great many things have been opening up for me as well as staying closed down in other places. Opening up is an exploration of the superego and how it's judgments color nearly every aspect of my life into black or white/good or bad where good has somehow become associated with pain and bad associated with pleasure.

Noticing this energetically in the impulse to move in one of these directions in order to counter an overbalance in the other direction. In other words, if I've been good for too long I need to be bad for an equally long time. A part of me (the superego?) is keeping a ledger and balancing the books all the time. How weird that this has been going on all my life under my very nose without my awareness.

Along these lines the exploration of the fabric of duality itself has arisen. Seeing how my relationships have been characterized by an one-upness or a one-downess and nary an equality. Seeing how if you are right then I must be wrong and vice versa. Feeling that there is only room for one person to be loved and then the other must be unloveable.

Seeing this as a trap, a stuck place I am reminded of my favorite Japanese poem which I've quoted here somewhere before:

"In all the world,
There is no way whatever.
The stag cries even
In the most remote mountain."

There is a way out of this trap; there is another dimension where equality is possible, where infinite possibilites abound, not just two. But how to get there, how to LIVE there, that is the question before me. I can get there with prayer and a willingness to see things differently but the duality tends to reassert itself continually. Such an exploration. Won't somebody join me here?

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