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Subject: Re: This BE different!

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Kyla

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Date Posted: 04:49:14 07/05/01 Thu
In reply to: Cassie 's message, "This BE different!" on 00:13:44 07/05/01 Thu

I am discovering that I have an addiction to speaking. I am indulging it right this moment. And also peering into it attempting to discover if I may begin to untangle the threads of the addictiveness from the genuine need to communicate. I've been seeing that a lot of my speaking is actually a screen I hold up in front of myself, it is defensively motivated. It is me presenting who I want to be rather than who I am. Boy, it was scary to say that! After I have spoken in that way, I then go into second-guessing myself. Did I say what I relly meant? Was I honest? And most charged of all: will this elicit the response from others that I am a good and valuable person? When I speak from my gut and my heart without any attempt to craft my words into something that will elicit a positive response, when it is my actual Being need that is speaking, those questions are so irrelevant they are laughable. They just don't have anything to do with it!

So I started this message from the place of being addicted to speaking but maybe it ended up more real than that.

Cassie I am inspired by your terror. I want to know it.

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Subject	Author	Date
The addiction behind all addictions	Cassie	06:11:46 07/05/01 Thu
And... -- Cassie, 06:35:43 07/05/01 Thu Re: And... -- Deidra, 09:54:46 07/05/01 Thu More and more on more special -- Cassie, 23:39:54 07/05/01 Thu