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Author: Peace |
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Date Posted: Thu, Sep 27 2012, 10:17:41 In reply to: Peace 's message, "Need some Insight" on Wed, Sep 19 2012, 13:16:50 I could NOT agree with you more. I am well in SPITE of them NOT BECAUSE of them. And I do NOT resonate one bit with the 12 step programs. I find it very demeaning about constantly being made to feel that I have to label myself with "Hi, I am so and so and I am addict." No no no no no no no!!!!! Its demoralizing and dis-empowering, and if I were coming from my ego attached with denial, then I would still be lost in seeking external things as a source of my peace and happiness,of which i am not. I found those WITHIN. I actually had lived in a hotel and honestly out of my truck for awhile. For work, I took the post office exam and passed it 2x, but they are NOTORIOUSLY SLOW so I also had to work as a cleaner at a hotel for $3.35 per ROOM. Mind you, I STILL had child support taken from me, because his intention was NOT for the welfare of my children but to honestly try to ruin me. To make it so hard that I would have to go back to him. This did not happen, as I love myself entirely too much. I learned how to file my own divorce in a library and with my last 130 dollars I sent it in and did so. By the time I was reinstated to work in nursing mind you, he had already dragged me back to court, and I had child support ordered on me at the nursing salary rate before I could even find a job in nursing, which after being out of nursing for over 4 years was a challenge to say the least. The only job I could find was in LTC. By the time I found this job I was in arrears of nearly 4500 dollars. And oh the games played in the court system because of my “horrid” past, (which was about 3 years, prescribed a benzodiazepine up to 6mg per day and needing at least 10mg. The BON would NOT release the COC drug screens to "prove" that I was " clean" for my court nonsense. How could they NOT release them, they were paid for by ME? They have forgotten the meaning of compassion, forgiveness and LOVE. If I knew I had to be perfect to exist in nursing I would have never joined the profession. I am human. I made some unwise choices that did not feel like choices in my life at the time, but more about survival. I have learned and chosen to do better. I do not resonate with Hollaran's book. I feel she conformed to the system. This is why I am asking for opinion as to if I should use my name, as I am NOT ashamed of where I have been, feel that others may benefit from my life experience, but simply do NOT trust the BON, and since I feel forced to continue to work in Nursing until child support is done (2 more years in this state.) I am cautious as to what I put out there. I have been interviewed for public avenues with my name in the past..... People who are ill do not get treated like this. One would never think of treating a soul who unfortunately has cancer like they treat us, and then they are treating us like WE ARE in control of our behavior....such conflict. They certainly do NOT do this same treatment to MDs....another point to ponder. It seems they are more protected with confidentiality than nurses. [ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ] |
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| Re: Need some Insight | Alice | Thu, Sep 27 2012, 17:28:58 |
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