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Date Posted: 07:11:19 01/27/04 Tue
Author: Robin
Subject: hello again

like someone else said..I've been lurking and want to talk but I'm not finding the words...there's alot of down feelings rolling around inside my heart (I guess that there's alot of that going around,eh?) I'm sorry that some of you are having bad times too. Have any of you seen the kid's movie " the rescuers"? ..a little girl is kidnapped and held captive on an old boat in the middle of croc infested swamp. Her captors are mean, they make her go down tiny mine shafts searching for a huge jewel. She is frightened and so sad, she writes a note begging for someone to save her, she puts the note in a bottle and drops it over the side of the boat, as the bottle floats away a song rises, pleading "who will rescue me?..." of course she is rescued but not by big strong men in unforms but rather by little creatures, mice and birds... sometimes the help that we need comes from unlikely sources...sometimes we might be inclined to dismiss the help ,not even allowing ourselves to notice that it is exactly what we need at that moment and that it is heaven sent. ....sigh...I do it..I want the big problems fixed,(I would want my babies all back from heaven but I know that that is not something that I could possibly have right now but I do want my daughter to be healed to be able to live a normal life without pain,I want my husband to look upon me and our daughters like we were blessings in his life not cursed burdens, I want a home like the primary songs talk about - what is it like? how I crave to have that, to feel peace and security...sigh..I feel like the little girl. sigh. I feel guilty talking about this, why do I feel guilty? I am trying to see what the Lord would have me do. I am trying to see every good thing in life, to notice anything that might be my 'rescuer'. Right now all I keep seeing in my mind is a 'uhaul' truck... I feel like packing up my kids and going home to Ontario..but is running away really the right thing? I don't know.
to end this whine session, I want to tell you what I am grateful for.. I am grateful for my testimony and all the strength and guidence the church has given me,. I am grateful for my calling as primary pres., it is teaching me so much and blesses me with opportunity to serve children including my own. I am grateful for the times when things between my husband and me are smooth, when he acts lovingly. I am eternally grateful for my 4 beautiful daughters who agaist the odds survived my womb and blessed my life. I am so very gratrful that the cancer has not spread and that mom is recovering so well from her surgery and probably won't need chemo. I pray that you all will have a ray of sunshine warm your faces today, may your burdens be lightened may your families love and support you.

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[> Oh Robin.....m -- Jo, 16:46:20 01/27/04 Tue

Sending you many many hugs sweetie...

I think the only person who really knows what the Lord wants you to do right now is you...getting a blessing from a priestholder that you know and trust is paramount. But only after you've come to a decision about what you want for yourself, your marriage and your children - ask for the blessing to confirm your decision. Sounds too simple, but it does work -

For what it is worth, Robin, you are a wonderful mother. I've seen it so many times, I cannot even count...your children are your lifeline to this estate that we live in right now and I mean the children who live here with you and esp for those who watch and wait for your own return.

I am proud to call you my friend. I have learned much about mothering from you - and your girls still have so much more to learn about life from you, too. I'll keep you in my prayers, where you always are...and I'll put Georgia's name in at the temple when I go in February.

Jo


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[> (((HUGS))) Robin. m... -- Jenifer, 18:01:42 01/28/04 Wed

You are in my prayers. I remember, when I was growing up, going to a yw conference or camp or youth conference, and getting that "primary song" version of life should be, how wonderful being a faithful member of the church would make my life. Then I went home. Home, to a volitile mother who could explode at any moment, a father who was inactive and who was very distant and a whole gaggle of kids whose lives seemed to revolve around making mine hard. I would be so depressed because the spirit had left the moment I opened the door and how was I supposed to behave when all around me was choas?

I slowly learned that it was me, who had to change, despite my surroundings. Changing me helped me deal with what I pereived as hard in my life. I also learned, very recently, that I needed to look to the Lord for my solace, not worldly rewards or even a worldly norm. Not to say I've conquered all my demons, but realizing these two things helped me see where I could turn for comfort and how I could do my best to be righteous, even though my world didn't fit my perfect LDS image of reality.

I hope you can find your balance as you struggle to make sense of your life. I must say, I've sat in a similar turmoil of emotions before and have gone on to find happier times.

May the Lord bless you with peace and direction.

Jenifer,
Mother to six earth angels and seven angels in Heaven.
Our newest angel left us Dec. 5, 2003.
We miss you Anna Marie!


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[> Hugs Robin -- Heather S., 23:02:34 01/30/04 Fri

Hugs to you, I am sorry you are having such a tough time right now. I know we all have our ups and downs but this season sure has spun quite a few of us around hasn't it.
I for one would like my life back too!
I will be praying for you, that the sprit can be with you and that you will be able to make the right choices in your life at this time.
"Faith" I know it is hard at times, BUT have faith that all things will work out.


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