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• She nodded a bit, a little silent and withdrawn now. She hated life as it was currently and it showed on her young, pretty features. She was looking a little drawn and tired and between the drugs and the alchol she had ingested it was just taking a toll on her. With a soft sigh, she nodded, leaning against him a bit as they headed inside. At least they were talking a bit, for the past month it had been mostly silence that reigned in the apartment and the touching had been a bare minimum. One of them seemed to always go to bed before the other and never were his arms wrapped around her as she difted to sleep anymore. "Sure...sleep is good." (NT) -- Diamond, 16:39:12 11/28/04 Sun
• He turned the deadbolt behind them and took her jacket from her, checking the answering machine and turning off the living room light as one hand on the small of her back guided her toward the bedroom "Lord knows neither one of us gets enough of it lately." (NT) -- Fall, 16:42:44 11/28/04 Sun
• She offered a slight, barely there smile in reply to that before they headed up the stairs. Her thoughts were a million miles away, slipping to the confession she had made to him about how she was so guilty over the loss of the child - to other thoughts on how happy vin and Angel were with their new baby and how all of this was just so plain shitty. Clearing her throat, she paused a moment in the kitchen to pop a few painpills into her mouth and then headed up the stairs up after him. Heading into their bedroom, she paused for a moment to glance around with a soft sigh before she headed towards the closet to change into something to sleep in. (NT) -- Diamond, 16:48:58 11/28/04 Sun
• He followed her into the closet, wandering up behind and putting his hands on her shoulders, his calloused fingers a rough contrast to the soft, sensitive skin there near her neck. He leaned his face close, pressing a kiss to her cheek from behind. "It's been a long time since we've actually spoken this much to each other. Since we've gone to bed at the same time. Since I've held you or touched you like this, hasn't it?" (NT) -- Fallon, 16:53:14 11/28/04 Sun
• By the time he had entered the closet she had already drawn the night revealing top off to be in just her lacy black bra and as he entered she dropped down the skirt she had on to just be in the little black set. A sigh escaped her lips as he pressed a soft kiss to her cheek and after a seconds obvious hesitation, she relaxed against his chest. "Yeah, it has...a really long time." She murmured softly, her hand running against his broad arm before she bit her lip and nuzzled her head beneath his chin. It was nice to be back in his arms, as much as she hated her existance, it wasn't quite as rough when she was in his arms - though she hadn't forgotten that over time. (NT) -- Diamdon, 17:00:38 11/28/04 Sun
• "Things are gonna be different, baby. I'm gonna get my act together." He'd always figured that he should be the stronger, more put together of the two - afterall, he was the man, was he not? It wasn't easy though, to go through everyday knowing what you could have had but lost. He knew that there would be no suitable replacement for that baby - not another baby, nothing material would take the place of the ache that they both felt, but it was time for him to BE the man and make things easier for her. (NT) -- Fallon, 17:02:51 11/28/04 Sun
• She shook her head at that, her brow furrowed as she thought about it for a second. "It's not you thats making things bad." She murmured absently, her hand running down his arm before she sighed. There wasn't anything he could to help the way she felt or take away the blame and guilt that plagued her like a disease that would evantually steal away her very soul. A soft sigh escaped once again before she shifted a bit to move away and grab her nightie, slipping it on over her head and then discreetly pulling off her bra and tossed it aside. "Are you tired, Fallon? Sleep now?" (NT) -- Diamond, 17:20:33 11/28/04 Sun
• "No, it's not, but I'm going to be the one to fix them." With a hand on her elbow lightly, he narrowed his gaze in on her own eyes. "If you want to go to bed, we'll go to bed - if you want to stay up and talk, even better." (NT) -- Fallon, 17:22:05 11/28/04 Sun
• She shrugged a bit, her eyes downcast after a second. "I am not really tired." She stated softly before she looked up at him, cocking a brow quietly. "You sobered up pretty quickly." She smirked lightly, the expression more familiar to her features now then a smile. "I did too I guess." She shifted a bit, biting her lip idely before she moved to shift out of his arms and head over to the bed to sit up against the headboard, tugging down the little black nightie to pull it down just a bit. She reached over, grabbing the glass of water next to the bed and taking a long drink. (NT) -- Diamond, 17:41:49 11/28/04 Sun
• He climbed up on the bed after stepping out of his pants and shirt into his boxers. He slid beneath the covers and then got rid of the boxers, as was his custom, and looked up to her. "It happens." Sometimes reality hit him in the face and no amount of drugs could keep him from sobering up. (NT) -- Fallon, 19:44:37 11/28/04 Sun
• She couldn't help but smirk a bit as he slid the boxers off the bed but then just looked away with a soft sigh once again. They definately hadn't made love since before the whole incident, that wasn't even discussed. She wasn't on any kind of protection and Fall never used condoms with her, so there was just the chance that she could get pregnant again and she couldn't handle that. "Yeah..it does." She stated softly before she slid down to rest her head on the pillows, her eyes on him as she tucked her hand beneath her cheek. (NT) -- Diamond, 19:56:31 11/28/04 Sun
• He reached over for her, surely and confidently -pulling her toward him in the bed until their bodies were not touching, but mere inches from one another's, his fingers brushing stray locks out of her hair, his dark eyes on hers. He hadn't thought much about sex either - getting laid seemed a very irrelevant thing once you had experienced everything that they'd experienced. (NT) -- Fallon, 20:04:16 11/28/04 Sun
• She swallowed softly, her brow furrowed for a moment before she bit her lip and settled her head against his shoulder. She was still feeling a little buzzed and over emotional thanks to the alcohol now mixing with the vicadin she had just taken. Her eyes slid shut slowly, her lip tucked between her teeth. She wasn't quite sure what she was going to do now, to get herself fixed, but she did know one thing.... "I need you, Fallon." Her voice was a soft almost whisper, all she knew was that she couldn't make it through life without him, it wasn't possible anymore. (NT) -- Diamond, 20:11:13 11/28/04 Sun
• He watched her sweet face, her eyes closed and leaned to press a kiss to her smooth forehead. It was music to his ears, those words - he honestly couldn't remember needing to be needed so badly in his entire lifetime. He brushed more of her hair out of the way, his face resting inches from hers on her pillow. "Marry me, Diamond." (NT) -- Fallon, 20:15:22 11/28/04 Sun
• She just smiled briefly, sighing as she settled down farther into the pillows, her eyes sliding shut and there she lay for about two seconds before her eyes flew open, her brow furrowed. "What...what did you just say?" She questioned, her dark deep eyes so disbelieving.. There was no way he just popped the question to her, Fallon wasn't the marrying kind. Hell, Fallon wasn't the boyfriend kind. (NT) -- Diamond, 20:24:36 11/28/04 Sun
• He dipped his head forward, brushing her lips lightly with his own, murmuring softly. "I said marry me.." So maybe it wasn't the most chivalrous way to propose but he figured he was doing pretty good by getting even this far. (NT) -- Fallon, 20:27:27 11/28/04 Sun
• She bit her lip, her eyes focused on him before she swallowed heavily, her gaze almost vulnerable. "Your drunk, aren't you? Your not even going to remember saying that in the morning, right?" She let out a soft breath, biting her lip again, there was no way he would want to marry her. She had just lost their child for goodness sake. (NT) -- Diamond, 20:37:40 11/28/04 Sun
• "Jesus, Diamond, I am trying to do something right in my miserable life for once, and you don't even believe me?" The fact that she didn't trust what he was saying bothered him - hadn't they come farther than that? "I've never joked about it before, no matter how drunk I've been, so why would I do it now? I want you to have my last name - I want us to be legally wed, like normal people, because I can't imagine my life without you, Di - I can't imagine what it would be like for you not to be here, and it scares me to think that if I don't start to get my priorities straight, that might happen." (NT) -- Fallon, 20:42:32 11/28/04 Sun
• She let out a soft, slow breath, her brow furrowed as she thought things over for a bit. It was like them to turn a marriage proposal into a fight but she didn't mind that - that was just them. Her eyes shifted to his again, searching for a moment before she leaned in to press a soft kiss to his lips - the first affectionate touch she had initiated in a long time. "Ok." (NT) -- Diamdon, 20:50:31 11/28/04 Sun
• He smiled brushing a lock of hair out of her eyes. "I need you as much as you need me, and if I'm right,that's a whole lot." He grinned a little, watching her intently, and then pressed a kiss to her forehead, and then to each of her eyelids. They would be happy again - he would make it so. (NT) -- Fallon, 20:55:28 11/28/04 Sun
• She nodded slowly, her eyes on his - not yet braving a real smile. "Yeah..it's a lot." She bit her lip, her brow furrowed as she watched him a moment. "I wasn't even sure if you would still want me...at all." She admitted softly, hoping not to get chastised for it. She was going through so much mentally and emotionally and to much more could be detramental to psychological well being. Between the loss of the baby, and post-partum and the little thing of having someone trying to kill her...she was on edge. (NT) -- Diamond, 20:57:46 11/28/04 Sun
• "Oh baby.." He frowned and pressed another kiss to her forehead, shaking his head a little, and drawing her up closer to him under the covers. "I always want you. Always." He smirked a little bit, watching her. "You're the best thing that ever happened to me, boo." (NT) -- Fallon, 21:06:03 11/28/04 Sun
• She sighed softly, nuzzling beneath his chin easily, her lips pressed to his throat. "I want to ask you something but I don't want you to get upset..." She murmured softly, her hand shifting to curl lightly around his wrist, her eyes not on him but instead just focused intently on the wall. (NT) -- Diamond, 21:08:58 11/28/04 Sun
• He watched her curiously, his dark brow furrowed lightly - he was known for being a little volatile, but he'd always exercised an open-minded policy with her. "Sure, ask away.." (NT) -- Fallon, 21:11:54 11/28/04 Sun
• She let out a soft breath, gathering all her courage and her emotional strength before she asked the soft question. "What did she look like?" Their daughter...she had never gotten to see her and she'd never had the brave moment to ask. Even after she voiced the question she kept her eyes on the wall, her body a little tense. (NT) -- Diamond, 21:13:43 11/28/04 Sun
• He swallowed heavily, let out a long breath and closed his eyes - he felt on the verge of tears, just thinking about it, and he wasn't an overly emotional person. "She was the most beautiful creature I'd ever laid eyes on, Diamond.." (NT) -- Fallon, 21:19:27 11/28/04 Sun
• She bit her lip, ducking her face into his neck and pressing herself closer to him. It was so hard to even think about but they had never even discussed her. "She had dark hair and dark eyes?" She questioned softly, her brow furrowed and voice muffled thanks to being buried in his neck. "You held her?" (NT) -- Diamdon, 21:20:54 11/28/04 Sun
• He nodded a little bit. "She looked just like a tiny little version of you.. I didn't get to hold her long, but the nurse was sympathetic.." He stared straight ahead, over her shoulder, a hand on her back, rubbing gently - his own dark eyes were glassy with the prospect of tears. (NT) -- Fallon, 21:25:14 11/28/04 Sun
• She let out a shaky breath, her voice choked when she spoke. It was hard to believe she had never cried in her lovers arms over the loss of their baby, but it just hadn't happened until now. Even at this moment, she was still choking back the tears. "She needs a name..." It had just said Sanchez baby girl on the death certificate since she had been close to death and things so chaotic. (NT) -- Diamond, 21:29:24 11/28/04 Sun
• He let his large hand make a slow trek across her back, the repetition of the task was soothing and comforting, his lips against her hair, her pressed tightly against his broad chest - it was the very picture of comfort and safety. "What would you like her name to have been?" (NT) -- Fallon, 18:18:05 11/29/04 Mon
• "I don't know..." She murmured softly, letting out a gentle sigh, her hot tears finally drifting out from between her dark lashes and falling over onto his broad chest. "Something spanish..." She murmured softly, biting her lip before she nestled her face tightly against the comfort of his warm body. She couldn't believe that their baby was actually gone and it was suddenly all hitting her at once. (NT) -- Diamdon, 18:23:47 11/29/04 Mon
• He watched her quietly, giving her time, giving her space, but being a constant, ever strong presence now when he should have been a month ago - but he was doing it and that was the important thing. He shifted his massive body easily and nodded a bit, his lips brushing across her tear streaked cheeks. "Sounds right.." (NT) -- Fallon, 18:29:09 11/29/04 Mon
• "My name is Maria." She didn't think he even knew that but it seemed like a good time to drop it in there amongst her tears that were starting to fall more fervantly. "That could be her middle name, it is my mama's middle name..." She stated softly, clearing her throat against the choking tears. (NT) -- Diamnd, 18:45:25 11/29/04 Mon
• He nodded solemly, his hand moving from her back to brush a couple of tears off of her dark cheeks. "How about Anna-Maria?" It was a more rare name these days, he hadn't met anyone with a first name quite like that. (NT) -- Fallon, 18:47:29 11/29/04 Mon
• She offered a slight, watery smile as she nodded slowly. "Yeah...yeah that fits...." She stated softly, nodding a bit. "It's beautiful..." She layed her head back down on his chest before she let out a soft breath, her hand shifting to find his and entwine their fingers. "I love you, Fallon." (NT) -- Diamond, 18:59:26 11/29/04 Mon
• It seemed like he'd been waiting for an entire month to hear those words out of her - but he wasn't exactly the innocent party here - he hadn't exactly offered up the words freely himself. Though he didn't feel any measure of resentment toward her, per se, he just had cut himself off. Now it was different. He leaned forward to press a kiss to her forehead. "Love you too, baby." (NT) -- Fallon, 19:01:09 11/29/04 Mon
• She let out a soft breath, her eyes moving up to him - so dark and tear filled still. "I was afraid you wouldn't anymore..." She stated honestly, her hand shifting to run down his jaw as if she was just seeing him, discovering him, for the first time all over again - her touch was almost desperate and their was a slight tremble to her hand as she swallowed heavily. She didn't know what else to do here but give herself to him completely - he was the only one who could save her now. (NT) -- Diamond, 19:11:29 11/29/04 Mon
• He frowned, reached to catch her palm, and draw the tender spot in the center to his lips, then holding it against his cheek, his hand enveloping it from above, his palm pressed against the back of her hand. "You should know by now, Di... there's nothing I wouldn't do for you. You couldn't do anything to make me stop loving you." (NT) -- Fallon, 19:39:20 11/29/04 Mon
• She couldn't help that, she broke down then, tears streaming down her cheeks as heavy sobs racked her body. Her body needed a chance to cry, to grieve, to let out all the tension she had kept wrapped up and bottled inside. The sobs were so harsh she was close to making herself sick but she just couldn't help it - she couldn't stop, once it had broke, there was no going back. (NT) -- Diamond, 19:42:45 11/29/04 Mon
• He just held her - that was all he could do. He had no choice, by not only moral obligation but a deep seated need within the fibre of his very being to be there for her, to be her anchor in this storm. He murmured softly in Spanish against her hair, holding her tightly, as though she would come apart in pieces in his hands if he were to let go of her. (NT) -- Fallon, 19:49:47 11/29/04 Mon
• It was almost twenty minutes before her sobs stopped shaking her body, her eyes drying out slowly before she let out a shaky breath. It hurt so bad, her head hurt, her body hurt - everything hurt. "I'm so sorry..." She mumbled one more time before she cleared her throat her hand on his chest rubbing slowly. "So sorry..." (NT) -- Diamond, 19:54:17 11/29/04 Mon
• "Don't be sorry, Diamond. This is good for you, believe it or not, for both of us." He was starting to sound like Dr. Phil, but he couldn't help it - it was a combination of good common sense and things that he had seen on tv talk shows in his bachelor days - it was important to bleed the feelings out or else people did irrational things, like shoot up their school or off themselves. (NT) -- Fallon, 20:03:18 11/29/04 Mon
• She let out a small, shaky breath once more before she just closed her eyes - her breathing raspy and shallow as she tried to calm down and maybe get some rest. "Tired...." She stated softly, her fingers wrapping his hip as she tugged herself closer to him. She hadn't been a good girlfriend to him recently but she was working on it now - she knew she had to. (NT) -- Diamond, 20:09:42 11/29/04 Mon
• He put his hand over hers, took it from his hip and raised it to press against his bare chest - his lips finding hers easily in the dark of the room, like a time honored tradition, because they fit together like puzzle pieces, because he didn't know what else he could do for her, he kissed her - sweetly, with all the compassion, adoration and admiration that it seemed had built up over the years that he had known her. (NT) -- Fallon, 20:11:52 11/29/04 Mon
• She sighed softly into the kiss, her other hand going to rest gently against his jaw, her eyes closed. She couldn't imagine ever feeling the way she felt about him with anyone else. "I love you..." She murmured again, letting out a soft breath, her brow furrowed heavily - drawing back to gaze at him. "I want to be with you forever...." (NT) -- Diamond, 20:29:15 11/29/04 Mon
• No, he couldn't imagine it either - she completed him, was an extension of him, or that was the way he saw it anyways. "That's why you're going to be my wife." He smiled a little bit, against her lips, she couldn't see it with her eyes, but she definitely could feel that he was smiling. (NT) -- Fall, 20:33:37 11/29/04 Mon
• She smiled softly, her eyes red and swollen from crying and she looked a little worse for wear but it seemed as if a huge weight had been lifted from her shoulder. "Yeah...I am going to be your wife." She smiled softly, lovingly. "I can't..I can't wait..." She stated softly, lovingly adoring. (NT) -- Diamond, 20:51:54 11/29/04 Mon
• He blinked, smiled, watched her for a moment before he finally nodded firmly - the moonlight lit the silver tracks from the tears upon her cheeks and he shook his head lightly. "Neither can I. You can get to work on plans in the morning. Make it as elaborate as you like." (NT) -- Fallon, 20:54:41 11/29/04 Mon