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• She let out a low breath as she paced the large bathroom floor, her brow furrowed as she ran her hand down her face. After a few moments she picked up the stick - having been washed off and all that but the sign perfectly clear - pregnant. Biting her lip, she headed into the den and cleared her throat - not saying anything, just setting the test down onto the desk in front of him - her eyes nervous and teary on his. (NT) -- Diamond, 13:55:58 04/13/05 Wed
• He met her eyes before he even looked down to see what she'd placed on his desk - her tears causing alarm. "Baby, what's wrong?" Then he allowed his eyes to drift down to what she'd presented him with. Not good. "Babe?" He looked up at her, questioningly, begging for comprehension, explanation, reassurance. (NT) -- Fallon, 14:03:25 04/13/05 Wed
• "I..I don't know what to do.." She stated softly, her voice broken and obviously distraught. What was she supposed to do? He didn't want another child - he was scared and so was she. Even though it was through no fault of either of their's that their baby had died, it was only at the hands of Mike - who was still wandering the streets - that their infant had passed but it was still a haunting reminder of what they could have, and should have, had. (NT) -- Diamond, 14:06:40 04/13/05 Wed
• With a thick frown twisting his features, a bit of moisture started at his dark eyes and he pushed his glasses up onto his forehead to rub his eyes again. "Neither do I." (NT) -- Fallon, 14:14:28 04/13/05 Wed
• She bit her lip heavily, her brow furrowed as she took a step back. She wasn't sure what to do with that response and she felt horribly out of place here and completely out of sorts with the situation. "I'm sorry." She didn't know what else to say, that as all she could choke out at the moment. Her heart was pounding out of her chest as it had been since the moment that she had first had some suspicions... (NT) -- Diamond, 14:17:15 04/13/05 Wed
• It was not that he did not want to console her, but rather that he couldn't, as he felt he needed consoling himself. He was hardly over what they'd already lost and three quarters of the way convinced that they would lose again - they were just piecing their lives back together now. "Why should you be sorry?" He didn't want an apology - he wanted his baby back. (NT) -- Fallon, 14:21:51 04/13/05 Wed
• She shrugged a touch, tipping up her chin as she tried to stop being weak, to stop letting herself break down. She had a way of pulling out the hard ass act when she needed it, and even when she didn't sometimes, and now she thought she needed it. "What do you want me to do?" She questioned, her arms crossing over her chest as she looked back to the test on the desk. (NT) -- Diamond, 14:23:32 04/13/05 Wed
• He chewed the inside of his lip idly, not looking up at her but rather straight ahead. They couldn't kill another baby - that would be taking things for granted, but he didn't know if he wanted to deal with another baby right now. He sighed heavily, and shook his head. "I don't know." (NT) -- Fallon, 14:27:25 04/13/05 Wed
• He wouldn't even look at her, she knew he had to be so angry and disappointed in her..a low breath escaped her lips as she took a step back. "I'll..I'll let you think about things then I guess..." She took a few more steps back before turning and heading towards the door, intent on getting away from the tension for at least a little while. She was so bad at handling stress sometimes, she just didn't know what to do with herself. (NT) -- Diamond, 21:42:45 04/13/05 Wed
• "No.. come back here." Least of all, he wanted to be left alone to stew over this, worry over it, feel bad about turning her away when she was obviously in need of as much support as he felt. He turned his chair out and swung his legs out, opening his arms for her, meeting her eyes. (NT) -- Fallon, 18:45:27 04/14/05 Thu
• She couldn't quite meet his eyes still so she kept the dark spanish depths on the floor as she moved to sit down on his lap, her head going to his shoulder. There was no words to be spoken, nothing that could leave her lips that would make this ok. She'd fucked up somehow, something had went wrong, she should have been more careful to make sure this wouldn't happen. Still though, there was something inside of her that felt...right...again, like the missing part was being rebuilt and reshaped to make her whole again. She could never tell him that though, he didn't want another baby and that alone made her feel guilty for even having the slightest bit of joy about the sudden, unexpected situation. (NT) -- Diamond, 18:48:23 04/14/05 Thu
• He let out a long sigh, drawing his muscular arms around her and holding her tightly against his chest, his lips moving to rest against her temple idly, his dark eyes wandering around the room, his mind filled with the possibilities, the horror, the heartache. "We're in this together, no matter what happens." (NT) -- Fallon, 18:58:02 04/14/05 Thu
• She cleared her throat a touch, her brow furrowed as she bit her lip. "But you don't even want this to be happening." She stated, her arms crossing over her stomach as she withdrew inside herself even more. "We don't..I mean, if you change your mind about anything...I'd understand." If he didn't want to get married anymore, if he just wanted to get rid of her and all the heartache she caused, it would be completely understandable in her mind. She was an awful lot of trouble for no good reason. (NT) -- Diamond, 19:01:15 04/14/05 Thu
• He drew back to look at her, a little bit skeptical, and a little bit stranged out by her words. "I don't want it to be happening but that doesn't mean that I'm angry at you, or want anything to change. That's not the way it works when you love someone, baby." He didn't go farther than that - it would be kicking fate and all the gods who granted them things in the ass to kill this baby, and he knew that. (NT) -- Fallon, 19:06:27 04/14/05 Thu
• He wasn't going to want this baby, hell, he may not even care for it at all. He wanted his baby girl, the little girl she had never even seen, not this new child that they had created. All she wanted was for everything to be fine and she wanted a baby of her own to take care of and love just like Angel had Chris and she was actually relieved that she was pregnant and not just sick. She wanted a baby desperately, she needed to keep on going where her life had stopped before because right now it didn't feel like it was ever going to continue as it should. (NT) -- Diamond, 19:15:19 04/14/05 Thu
• It was true that he wanted his baby girl, but he would still love this little part of the two of them. He frowned heavily and let out another sigh at her silence. "I don't want you to have an abortion." His words were abrupt and a little gruff in the silence that had grown in the room. (NT) -- Fallon, 19:20:28 04/14/05 Thu
• "I wouldn't do that." She stated just as gruffly, if he had asked her too she would have just gotten up and walked out she would have been so angry. "I am not going to lose another baby, Fallon." She stated, her eyes staring straight ahead, her body stiff and tense. How was she supposed to handle this? She couldn't go through this without him but she wanted him to be happy with her, to be excited about a new baby not dreading it. (NT) -- Diamond, 19:24:28 04/14/05 Thu
• "No, and neither will I." He watched her curiously, dark eyes prying -- sometimes he had absolutely no clue what was going on behind her cool exterior. "I don't see where the problem, then, lies. Neither of us want this baby to be gone, so things are alright." (NT) -- Fallon, 19:28:50 04/14/05 Thu
• "No problem then." She stated almost flatly, swallowing heavily as she ran her hand down her face. "I'll make a doctors appointment later today, if you want to come..." She shrugged again, shifting to stand up out of his lap and absently run a hand over her designer jeans, brushing off invisable dirt. She could act like this wasn't a big deal if she needed too. "I'll let you get back to work, I can use the phone downstairs." He had his own line in the office so she could use the other line without disturbing him. (NT) -- Diamond, 19:33:24 04/14/05 Thu
• He frowned again, catching her fingers as they brushed off of her jeans and cleared his throat a little bit. "Diamond.. I'm not going to let you hold my mourning against me. Of course we'll welcome a new baby, but that doesn't mean that I can't miss the one we already had. Forgive me if I'm not ecstatic about the thought of another baby that we could lose, and the possibility of losing you again like I nearly did." (NT) -- Fallon, 19:36:28 04/14/05 Thu
• Tears pricked heavily at her eyes as she listened to his words but as soon as he stopped speaking she tugged her long, thin fingers away and tucked them back into her pockets. "I'm not holding anything against you..." She stated softly, her brow furrowed before her lipped tucked back into her teeth. "I told you, I am not going to lose this baby Fallon Sanchez, I am not going to let anything happen again." He blamed her for the loss of their little girl, she knew it, everyone blamed her, rightfully so. "Karma can't have that fucking much against me." (NT) -- Diamond, 19:43:06 04/14/05 Thu
• His jaw dropped a little bit at that and he shook his head. "You? Against you? How about me? You're not the only one who lost a child, Diamond." He frowned a little, wiping a hand over his face, "I'm really not going to lose you either - you're all I have anymore, Di - if you want to do this, we'll do it." (NT) -- Fallon, 19:47:01 04/14/05 Thu
• She wanted this baby so badly she could hardly stand it but she had a feeling that it couldn't be good for their relationship, already she was doubting and questioning and there was a lot of weird feelings going on inside of her. "I meant I am not holding your grieving against you, Fallon, I'm grieving too, I wanted her too but I want this baby also and I don't want its life to be tainted by the loss that happened before it even came into existance, its not fair to this baby." (NT) -- Diamond, 19:50:10 04/14/05 Thu
• He sighed heavily and shook his head. "You can't just flick a switch and I'll feel better about this, Diamond. I really don't know why this is such a big deal... Of course we'll love the baby, and of course we'll miss our little girl, but the two won't interfere." She was creating problems in her own mind and he was getting impatient. (NT) -- Fallon, 19:57:40 04/14/05 Thu
• Well they obviously weren't getting anywhere with this conversation other then the point of frustration with one another. "Your right, I am just making a big deal out of nothing." She conceeded though whether she truely meant that statement or not was up for debate. "Anyways, like I said, I am going to go make an appointment and maybe call my mama - did you want anything in particular for dinner?" She wasn't really in the mood to cook but anything to distract her mind would be appreciated. (NT) -- Diamond, 20:01:22 04/14/05 Thu
• He, on the other hand, didn't want to let it go til she knew it was okay. He was frustrated and losing patience, because this entire thing was being made entirely worse and out to be far more than it actually was by her. "Well you are, Diamond. I love you, and I would love a baby, no matter what. I don't know why you're fretting so much." He reached out, the calloused end of his pinky tracing along the thick vein visible in her wrist. "Let's just get takeout." (NT) -- Fallon, 20:03:35 04/14/05 Thu
• She pursed her lips, her jaw tensed just a touch but it relaxed within moments as she tried to just chill out. "Thats fine, what are you thinking, like Thai or Chinease?" She questioned, her brow furrowed as she tried to focus on that instead of the other thoughts running through her mind. "We could just order pizza too." It was so much easier to think on other things then work on what was going through her head. (NT) -- Diamond, 20:08:58 04/14/05 Thu
• He nodded, his voice had moved down a notch, quiet, smooth, soothing. "Whatever you feel like eating is fine with me..." He knew how she'd had some strange requests when she was pregnant the first time - he would submit yet again. "Anything you want." (NT) -- Fallon, 20:14:38 04/14/05 Thu
• She shrugged a touch at that, still lingering by the door. "I am not really hungry right now but I can go ahead and order something for later." She shrugged a touch before she took a step back, she needed to talk to her mom and just to calm down a touch - she was stressed out and wasn't feeling to good in the first place right now. (NT) -- Diamond, 20:18:52 04/14/05 Thu
• He sighed, turning his chair back to the desk and resting his elbows there. He rubbed his hands over his dark eyes again - she wasn't the only one who was stressed, but he couldn't get over her making such a huge deal of this. He was beginning to doubt that she actually recognized the extent to which he loved her. (NT) -- Fallon, 20:30:54 04/14/05 Thu
• She paused a moment at his sigh and the way he wearily run his hand over his eyes - a sure sign he was upset. "I'm sorry." She stated softly, her dark eyes truely apolagetic but she wasn't quite sure what for - maybe just for fucking up his life in general - he would have been better off if he had just picked a different whore that first night to sleep with, a different one of Jake's girls then he could have avoided all of this. (NT) -- Diamond, 20:35:46 04/14/05 Thu
• He looked up, his hands cupping his jaw lightly as he looked at her and sighed again, shaking his head. "Why are you apologizing, Diamond? This isn't your fault - none of this has been your fault. Someday you'll realize that noone is blaming you." (NT) -- Fallon, 20:43:35 04/14/05 Thu
• She shrugged a touch, her brow furrowed as she let out a soft breath. "...just come down when you get done ok?" She requested before she turned and headed down the stairs to the phone there to make a doctors appointment and then call out for some food.... (NT) -- Diamond, 20:46:30 04/14/05 Thu