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Date Posted: 01:06:34 04/22/11 Fri
Author: asiacheetah
Author Host/IP: ppp-71-128-204-48.dsl.sndg02.pacbell.net / 71.128.204.48
Subject: Chapter 1 Betrayal – Part 2
In reply to: asiacheetah 's message, "Trust is Never Easy - episodic" on 01:00:19 04/22/11 Fri

This chapter touches slightly on: New Regime.

Chapter 1 Betrayal – Part 2

Michael: “I thought I lost you.”

Nikita: “You never had me.”

Nikita was right. She was never mine to begin with. She wasn’t Section’s either. She obeyed, albeit grudgingly and never without rebelling, as much of Section’s dictates as much as she could. In the end her true nature would not allow her to cancel an innocent, someone she felt friendly toward, even with the all too real looming threat of death hanging over all of us.

Section decided they could no longer put up with the promise of a superlative operative over the difficulty posed by her continued willfulness. In Section if you don’t perform to Section standard, you are no longer of use to it.

I protected Nikita as long as I could, but in the end I couldn’t save her any more. Warning her of the abeyance operation and letting her go is one of the most selfish act I’ve committed since I incurred the wrath of Section with my forbidden relationship with Simone. In a way, the thought of her on the outside gave me hope for those of us still trapped in the twilight world of Section.

Then because I was drowning, trapped in the never ceasing hell that had become my life, I brought her back in at the first opportunity. I was shocked that she was willing to come back, even if I doubted her reasoning. However, once I was no longer choking in the despair brought on by the fear that I failed her in her abeyance operation, the little seed of doubt started to root in me. Section was hell for those of us sentenced to a life within it and a life sentence was exactly what our indentured servitude in Section was. They expected to exploit everything in you and when you have nothing left to give, they discard you. Why would anyone willingly walk back to hell?

That little seed of doubt grew as time passed and as I observed Nikita. Before she escaped from Section, Nikita was often time emotional, sometimes willfully innocent of the machination of Section. She stopped asking as many questions about Section’s motivation and whether what we were doing was right. Operations would say she became one of us. I had my doubts. Section has grown even harsher in their treatment of collaterals and innocents. What had changed her mind about trusting Section’s motivation and methods?

I think Madeline must have some suspicion of her as well. I observed when Nikita returned to Section that Madeline no longer soften the blows of her words or the desired actions mandated by Section. Whereas before Madeline chose the tactic of a friendly confidant. Now she analyzed her every move with a decidedly sharp edge.

Some of her suspicions fell on me as well since she knew I had the tendency of covering for Nikita. Madeline was a master strategist and could uncover the motivation and secrets you tried to hide from her. I had tipped my hand early on of my attachment to Nikita. She suspected I was hiding something. I allowed her to continue believing my subterfuge was regarding my feeling for Nikita. What I never allowed her to see was that I had my own doubts.

The little seed of doubt grew as I observed Nikita’s actions during Petrosian’s temporary control of Section. Her capable command at tactical command and interrogation without previous training went far beyond what her previous performance would have predicted. Most telling of all was her willingness to manipulate Walter to gain information and her masterful deception of Petrosian regarding Operations’ attempted cancellation.

If before I had held her at length to avoid the suspicion of Section, I now distance myself in order to observe her action more clinically.

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