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Date Posted: 09:13:11 07/20/02 Sat
Author: Lucas
Subject: Wash away your tears, you ain�t gotta cry no more... I put it on everything that I love, my pain is my love - I want this world to smile for me...

In a very short amount of time he had gone from the ultimate high in his life to one of the lowest lows. His apartment looked like a warzone, his knuckles were all busted and bloody - walls, desks, tables, doors had all gotten in his way. A tiny redhead stood against him - his back to the bar - taking advantage of his immense pain to push herself on him...

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She was there for work, but she didn't look much better then he did. Make up did wonders though, and did everything but hide the puffyness of her eyes from crying. She was dressed in black, tight pants and a red tank, her hair just gelled so that it was slightly messy...her gaze drifted around the place - settling on him for a moment. Pain swept through her as she saw the girl in his arms, her eyes closing for a moment as she leaned against the wall. (NT) -- Jasmine, 09:16:07 07/20/02 Sat
His eyes - colder and harder then they had been in a while - bore into her figure, an arm pulling the other girl closer though his heart screamed to push her away and go to Jasmine. (NT) -- Lucas, 09:19:18 07/20/02 Sat
She winced at the coldness of his gaze, turning away and going into the back. She couldn't cry...not here. She bit her lip, sinking into the couch and running her hands through her hair, trying to compose herself. (NT) -- Jasmine, 09:21:13 07/20/02 Sat
He had looked away and not noticed her move into the back... Finally, he gets up the nerve to push the girl off of him and stalks off moments after her - slamming the door much too loudly behind him and running his hand along one of the counters on his way to his office - pushing empty bottles to shatter on the floor. (NT) -- Lucas, 09:24:54 07/20/02 Sat
She winced her head ducked into her hands as she heard the glass shattering. His violence brought back more memories...she'd gotten bottles thrown at her before...but with Brian - instead of his fists hitting walls - they were hitting her. With Lucas' volatile temper..how could she knew if she had stayed..she wouldn't have ended up the recipient of his rage? (NT) -- Jasmine, 09:27:35 07/20/02 Sat
He jumps when he spots her, anger quickly subsiding back into pain - shoulders slumping, head ducking shamefully, hard edge to his eyes replaced by hurt as he shakes his head slightly and heads for his office. (NT) -- Lucas, 09:31:01 07/20/02 Sat
She took a few moments to wipe the tears from her eyes, making sure her make up was not running everywhere before she stood - hating having to go talk to him like this. She paused inside the frame of the door, clearing her throat before she spoke. "What section should I take?" He was the one who decided that - her eyes were kept away from him, to ensure she wouldn't cry. (NT) -- Jasmine, 09:33:12 07/20/02 Sat
He had his head resting in his hands, a palm over each eye, his fingers in his hair - a heavy headache throbbing. "I don't care. Whichever you want." He doesn't look up - not wanting to look at her, voice slightly muffled. (NT) -- Lucas, 09:35:44 07/20/02 Sat
She nodded slowly, pausing for just amoment as if to say something - but she changed her mind, turning out to head out there. Her heart wasn't in it, but she needed the money..and she could put on a ok front. Within moments she was out there with the girls, faking smiles and polite laughs. (NT) -- Jasmine, 09:37:16 07/20/02 Sat
He sighs heavily, dropping his head to the desk, forehead resting on his arms - he just wanted to break something else, but he had lost all energy. (NT) -- Lucas, 09:40:08 07/20/02 Sat
Everyone noticed something was wrong with her, but no one had the guts to ask what it was. She worked herself hard, not even taking her first break, she didn't want to risk running into his anger again. (NT) -- Jasmine, 09:41:28 07/20/02 Sat
Having lost all heart, he remains there - no reason to move. (NT) -- Lucas, 09:44:44 07/20/02 Sat
It was hours later that she made her way into the back, assuming he was gone. She stretched out onto the couch, kicking off her shoes with a groan. A pillow was placed under her head, her eyes closed, just blocking out the world. (NT) -- Jasmine, 09:47:59 07/20/02 Sat
He knew the moment she entered the area again, a soft sigh slipping from his lips as he looks up, glancing through the door. (NT) -- Lucas, 09:49:57 07/20/02 Sat
Her eyes were closed, a pillow nestled in her arms - she was curled into a tight ball. She was exhausted, physically, and mentally, and emotionally... (NT) -- Jasmine, 09:51:28 07/20/02 Sat
Clearing his throat, he forces the words out - only a small amount of anger amongst the hurt. "Why are you doing this?" (NT) -- Lucas, 09:53:01 07/20/02 Sat
Her eyes flew open as she heard his voice - sitting up quickly. "Doing what?" She automatically assumed it was something wrong..very wrong. The pillow remained her arms, a shield of sorts. (NT) -- Jasmine, 09:54:34 07/20/02 Sat
He drops his chin into his hands, sighing - defeated. "You're making me crazy." (NT) -- Lucas, 09:56:06 07/20/02 Sat
She swallowed lightly, hearing the slight defeat in his voice - it confused her. "I don't mean too..." (NT) -- Jasmine, 09:57:02 07/20/02 Sat
He wanted her in his arms, them to be laughing, and teasing, they had actually had some fun and he wanted that back - but he didn't know how to tell her... (NT) -- Lucas, 10:00:17 07/20/02 Sat
She was to hurt and scared to see anything besides that. Her gaze was on the ground as she spoke, her voice soft. "That redhead you were with earlier - she asked me to tell you she was looking for you if I saw you." Did he even remember her name when he was with the other girls? (NT) -- Jasmine, 10:02:17 07/20/02 Sat
Shrugging, he sweeps a hang over the desk almost casually - sending papers and folders and an empty Corona bottle to the floor. "I don't care." (NT) -- Lucas, 10:04:19 07/20/02 Sat
She swallowed lightly again, standing and wrapping her arms around herself. "Your anger scares me." She was being bluntly honest with him. (NT) -- Jasmine, 10:05:54 07/20/02 Sat
He couldn't look at her, eyes on his desk as he carves his initials into the surface with his pocketknife - ruining the pristine oak, and not caring. "I wouldn't ever hurt you." (NT) -- Lucas, 10:09:12 07/20/02 Sat
She swallowed lightly, taking a step closer. "I can't be just another one of your girls Lucas..and thats all your looking for..you could never give up the lifestyle you lead.." She smiled sadly, ruefully. "Even if you did want me - I know from experience I get boring after a couple of weeks." (NT) -- Jasmine, 10:11:33 07/20/02 Sat
He looks up slowly - eyes dulled, tone even. "You don't know what I want, or need, and what I can and cannot do." (NT) -- Lucas, 10:15:29 07/20/02 Sat
She looked a little taken back by that. "I know what I see every night." Him, with a different girl each time. (NT) -- Jasmine, 10:16:48 07/20/02 Sat
He shrugs, eyes dropping back to his desk. "So now people can't change?" (NT) -- Lucas, 10:20:19 07/20/02 Sat
"Would you honestly want to change?" She questioned softly, her gaze - as much as she tried not to - displaying hope. He could so easily crush her right then - it was scary. (NT) -- Jasmine, 10:22:46 07/20/02 Sat
Again he shrugs, still not looking at her. "For you." He thought he might want to, but didn't have the faith in himself to think that he could. (NT) -- Lucas, 10:27:02 07/20/02 Sat
She took a deep, calming breath. "Please don't say that if you don't mean it Luc." Her voice was pleading. "It gets my hopes up to much..." It opened up to much room for hurt. (NT) -- Jasmine, 10:29:00 07/20/02 Sat
He looks up at her, silent for a moment. "Forget it... I told you that you deserved better than that Brian, and you do." And as far as he could tell - he wasn't any better. (NT) -- Lucas, 10:31:22 07/20/02 Sat
She looked crushed for just a second before she regained her pride, her head held high. "To bad for me I want you huh?" She shook her head, angry at herself. She had set herself up to be hurt, and now she was. With a disgruntled sigh she turned, walking away from his office and out to the club to get back to work. (NT) -- Jasmine, 10:33:24 07/20/02 Sat
He wanted so bad to follow her, to talk to her and make things better, but he didn't have the nerve. Instead he just remains there, trying to figure out what to do. (NT) -- Lucas, 10:36:37 07/20/02 Sat
She was angry, and hurt, and upset...and definately not in a proper work mood. Within moments she had found another waitress to cover for her - and was making her way up the stairs to the VP area, just to sit and get away from the crowds. (NT) -- Jasmine, 10:38:53 07/20/02 Sat
Finally, he leaves the back - asking the first waitress he come across where she had gone and then heading up to find her... (NT) -- Lucas, 10:41:26 07/20/02 Sat
She was in a booth against the wall, leaning back with her legs stretched out in front of her. Her gaze was on the people below her, watching them all with a distant, uncaring gaze. (NT) -- Jasmine, 10:43:07 07/20/02 Sat
He shoves his hands in his pockets, hanging back - not moving to close. "Why do you want to be with me?" (NT) -- Lucas, 10:44:44 07/20/02 Sat
"I don't know." She wasn't to surprised to have him there - she figured her last comment would bring him to her, if only for anger's sake. "I like you, a lot. I'm attracted to you..you make me not be afraid of your touch..no one else could do that." She sighed softly. "There's something..special about you." (NT) -- Jasmine, 10:47:16 07/20/02 Sat
He scuffs the floor with his foot - looking more like a sheepish schoolboy then a hurting, confused, insensitive womanizer. "Oh." (NT) -- Lucas, 10:50:25 07/20/02 Sat
She nodded slowly, her finger trailing over the hard top of the table. "Yeah." She didn't know what else to say to him. 'Oh' Wasn't a very encouraging response when you pore your heart out. (NT) -- Jasmine, 10:52:27 07/20/02 Sat
Head hanging, he sighs softly. "I wish I could be with you." (NT) -- Lucas, 10:54:33 07/20/02 Sat
"Someone telling you that you can't?" She questioned, her heart already aching. She leaned her head back against the wall, closing her eyes - listening for his voice from wherever he was standing at. (NT) -- Jasmine, 10:56:48 07/20/02 Sat
He shrugs. "Everything..." (NT) -- Lucas, 10:58:29 07/20/02 Sat
She sighed softly, her arms going around herself. "I see.." (NT) -- Jasmine, 10:59:11 07/20/02 Sat
He sighs, edging slowly closer to where she sits. "Do you think that it could work?" (NT) -- Lucas, 11:01:50 07/20/02 Sat
"I don't know..I would hope it could...we are both adults..we should be able to hold a relationship.." She sighed softly. (NT) -- Jasmine, 11:03:18 07/20/02 Sat
He drops onto the bench across from her in the booth, dropping his head back into his hands - he wasn't used to having something to fight for, and now he found the task to be brutally draining. "I'm about as adult as a 4 year old." Atleast he could admit it. (NT) -- Lucas, 21:35:28 07/20/02 Sat
She looked over at him for just a moment. "So, what should I do here Luc? Pretend none of this happened? Cuz thats gonna be kind of hard." She sighed deeply. "I tried so damn hard to stay uninvolved.." (NT) -- Jasmine, 07:52:41 07/21/02 Sun
He shrugs, sighing heavily. "I don't know, Jasmine." (NT) -- Lucas, 07:55:50 07/21/02 Sun
She nodded slightly, looking away from him for the moment. "I need to get back to work soon, Christy can't handle both sections for long." (NT) -- Jasmine, 07:58:59 07/21/02 Sun
At her suggestion of leaving, another wave of anger washed over him - wanted to break something else. "Go ahead." (NT) -- Lucas, 08:00:42 07/21/02 Sun
Suddenly she to was angry as she felt his anger. "You know what Lucas? Get pissed off at me all you want." She shook her head. "This is ridiculous that we can't even settle anything, and unlike you, I can't just take off the job whenever I feel like it." Her arms crossed, her green eyes sparking, making her look more alive then she had all night. "If you actually do figure out what you want, or need, or feel...or anything, you come find me." With that she slipped out of the booth, heading down the stairs. (NT) -- Jasmine, 08:06:27 07/21/02 Sun
With only a moments hesitation, he hurries after her, catching her arm before she makes it all the way down. "I can't have what I want, Jasmine and I don't deserve it any way. Besides, you are the one who left in the first place - why don't you tell me what you want?" His voice slightly hushed to keep the attention of the people a level below them, off of them. (NT) -- Lucas, 08:10:50 07/21/02 Sun
She frowned, leaning against the wall in the small stairwell, her eyes adjusting the to the darkness and focusing on him. "I told you what I want Lucas, it's all or nothing with me - and I don't think you can handle that." She crossed her arms against her chest. "I left because I realized that once I slept with you, I was just another one of your girls - nothing any different from any other wench that you take him every night." (NT) -- Jasmine, 08:13:53 07/21/02 Sun
Eyes dark and pained, he shakes his head. "You never even gave me a chance... You aren't, weren't, and won't ever be 'another one of my girls'." He himself didn't know what that meant, only that it held some truth. (NT) -- Lucas, 08:16:22 07/21/02 Sun
Her eyes own eyes were deep with pain and confusion - how could two people hurt each other so much? "You yourself told me not to take anything you said personally Luc..." She paused for a moment, her eyes searching his. "I want so badly to believe you." (NT) -- Jasmine, 08:18:48 07/21/02 Sun
He slouches against the railing, his less-busted hand rubbing his forehead. "I wanted so badly to believe myself." (NT) -- Lucas, 08:22:19 07/21/02 Sun
She sighed, picking up his other hand in his and kissing the bruises softly, silent for a long moment before she spoke once again, softly - thinking as she did so. "I don't know..maybe nothing has to change.." She shrugged. "Maybe I could be another girl after all.." She smirked lightly. "I always wondered what it would be like, remember?" (NT) -- Jasmine, 08:24:16 07/21/02 Sun
His hand slips past her lips to cup her cheek - he didn't want her for just another girl. "You would be unhappy..." (NT) -- Lucas, 08:27:37 07/21/02 Sun
Her face tilted into his touch for just a moment, closing her eyes. "I could deal." She murmured softly, opening her eyes to see him after a moment. (NT) -- Jasmine, 08:30:13 07/21/02 Sun
He pulls her a little closer, gently. "I couldn't be happy if you weren't." (NT) -- Lucas, 08:33:18 07/21/02 Sun
She moved closer willingly. "We could just..live life like it was before this all happened..couldn't we?" Could she handle seeing him with other girls? (NT) -- Jasmine, 08:35:51 07/21/02 Sun
He wraps his arms around her as he had been dying to do so all night, sighing softly. "I want you." (NT) -- Lucas, 08:37:13 07/21/02 Sun
She buried her face in the crook of his neck, the comforting scent of his cologne soothing her for a moment before she murmured against his skin. "Everything's gonna work out Luc..." Her eyes closed, glad for the privacy the VP stairwell provided. If she didn't give him her whole heart..he couldn't break it - right? (NT) -- Jasmine, 08:39:13 07/21/02 Sun
He hugs her tight, eyes squeezed shut. "Here's hopin'." (NT) -- Lucas, 08:41:24 07/21/02 Sun
She hugged him back, tightly, before she pulled away a little, picking up his hand. "No more hitting and breaking things." She smiled lightly. (NT) -- Jasmine, 08:43:16 07/21/02 Sun
He nods down at his swollen, smiling slightly. "For tonight." (NT) -- Lucas, 08:45:24 07/21/02 Sun
She smiled lightly in return, her gaze on his hand. "You think you'll need to tomorrow?" (NT) -- Jasmine, 08:54:46 07/21/02 Sun
He sighs, ducking his head to place a brief, irresistable kiss to her lips. "I hope not." (NT) -- Lucas, 08:55:50 07/21/02 Sun
She smiled tenderly, kissing him in return as she pushed back his shaggy dark hair. "'Me too kid.." She cleared her throat. "I really should go help out poor Chris...you gonna be around for awhile?" (NT) -- Jasmine, 08:58:31 07/21/02 Sun
He nods, loosening his hold a little to let her go. "I can stick around... Or head back to my place and you could stop by later if you felt like it." He had a feeling she wouldn't want to, but he had some cleaning to do before his kid sister got home, and the last couple days were quickly catching up to him. (NT) -- Lucas, 09:03:01 07/21/02 Sun
She nodded slowly, thoughtful. "Alright..we'll see how the rest of the night goes - if I am not to beat after work I'll stop by..." She tilted her head. "If I don't...I'll see you around?" (NT) -- Jasmine, 09:04:35 07/21/02 Sun
He kisses her again, finally releasing her. "Alright, angel." (NT) -- Lucas, 09:06:34 07/21/02 Sun
She smiled lightly, letting go of him slowly. "Whats the latest I should stop over?" (NT) -- Jasmine, 09:07:31 07/21/02 Sun
He shrugs, hands moving into his pockets. "Anytime. Call me if you're not going to, so I don't worry?" (NT) -- Lucas, 09:09:02 07/21/02 Sun
It was different - having someone worry about her - she kind of liked it. It definately made her soften more towards him. She leaned forward, kissing his cheek softly. "I'll definately be by." (NT) -- Jasmine, 09:10:25 07/21/02 Sun
He smiles slightly, touching her cheek. "So now if you don't sotp by and you don't call, I'm going to send out the search parties." (NT) -- Lucas, 09:11:33 07/21/02 Sun
She laughed lightly, nodding. "Ok, I'll call you if something comes up." She smiled, leaning in for one last kiss before she drew away, tsk'ing at him "There you go distracting me again, I'll see you after work Luc." She winked teasingly, turning and jogging down the stairs to take over her position. (NT) -- Jasmine, 09:13:19 07/21/02 Sun
He sighs, watching her go, smiling slightly. A moment later, he's on his way home... (NT) -- Lucas, 09:15:02 07/21/02 Sun

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