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Subject: marvin

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Kristen

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Date Posted: 08:44:37 01/26/05 Wed
In reply to: marvin 's message, "hi" on 09:43:12 01/25/05 Tue

Marvin

Thank you for responding to my post. I am such a little girl. When i see someone has responded to my postings i get so excited! Like i just want attention so bad and that is one way i get it.

Yeah family stuff, wow, i don't know what has gone on for you but i am here if you want to talk about it. 415-652-1772. i have found that just over a few days the drama of the divorce idea has subsided and now my family members & I are more in the "just feeling it" location. And i feel raw, surrendered and weary.

Like i dont have to make any moves, i can just sit here.

And about my relationship to you, well i felt really touched that my posts and journal entries affected you so. And i remember when i first met you in the course i thought you were really attractive and then i got insecure and decided not to attempt to interact with you. When you were my partner for the doing i was glad, and then i was also shy.

It was a really intense time for me in my life when i took that course. i think my worst insecurities have been coming to the surface almost as if so that God could shine a big fat light on them for long enough for me to love myself in spite of them. I guess i could pretty much sum up the whole past year as being intense. since coming in to brisbane, coming in (i.e. moving in to the villa in August of 2003) was like walking into an energy field where certain parts of me started to react spastically and started to get shaken up. they were all the parts that no longer served me or anyone else. and they will not stop shaking and having me notice them until i surrender them to their death- that is how it really has been moving to brisbane, i remember when nicole saying to me it will probably be about a year until all those personality things just die out. and nope it has not happened yet! i am still fighting so much of the time trying to hold onto what least serves me because it is familiar ...

The family in brisbane supports me regardless of how mean i am how angry how needy how resistant i am. they support me by saying it is right how i am.

It is all right. I am a right person.

Are you coming back any time soon?

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