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Subject: Shame

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Judy

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Date Posted: 21:58:41 10/15/04 Fri

Other people seem to say it so easily. "I want a boyfriend." "I want a girlfriend." "I want a long-term relationship." They broadcast their desire for a partner like they might tell someone what cereal they'd prefer in the morning.

For me, this type of confession is almost the most revealing thing I can say. Each time I even say it to myself, I feel awash in shame that I want this most universal of desires.

That horrible shame came over me last night. I felt naked when I said I wanted a partner. No, worse than naked, I felt as though my skin had been peeled back for everyone to see my insides. If I could have made a hole to China materialize, I would have crawled in immediately, to get as far away as possible.

Sometimes there is relief in releasing something that you've held onto for a long time. But last night there was only pain and confusion about where to go from here.

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Subject	Author	Date
love your vunerable side	Suz	10:54:48 10/16/04 Sat
vulnerability -- kristen, 15:36:05 10/16/04 Sat
When I read this...	Nicole	10:00:28 10/17/04 Sun