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Subject: Opening

Author:
Robert

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Date Posted: 19:57:29 05/18/04 Tue

I awoke this morning stressed and overwhelmed. So much to do so little time. Meeting real estate brokers, dealing with selling the house, meetings, people to call, things to do. I felt stressed and hell, the most important thing, the homework hadn't been posted yet!

Taosha enters stage right. She is bright and smiley. No, not now I think, I don't have to time to explain where I was at...

So, of course, I do. She smiles sweetly and asks how she can help.

Fast forward: I am sitting on the counter of 43rd Avenue between broker appointments. Carol sits across. I tell her the thing I've been withholding from her for three years. It eeks out of me, this acknowledgment of this intense, immense lie, this thing I've never said, this thing that I know that she knows. She smiles when I tell her and she confirms that she has always known. I cry, I release.

Fast Forward: Sitting in the car talking to Nicole. I am revealing myself. I can't seem to stop releasing. My tears streaming, my heart opening, my fear increasing with every moment. I feel lost.

She recommends I dive into that sensation. It is the last thing I want to do. It is what I do.

Fast Forward one last time: It is night. We are 10 minutes shy of a house gathering. My body feels so good right now. I have accomplished so much today. I feel more grounded.

It was Elana's opening that opened me, opened all of us. It is through this union that I feel fed.

I am living life exactly as I have always dreamed.

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