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Date Posted: 12:53:48 10/14/06 Sat
Author: Hope
Author Host/IP: 71-212-249-126.hlrn.qwest.net / 71.212.249.126
Subject: Nothing Specific

I should probably follow mom's logic about not saying anything when you can't think of something good or nice to say. It's not like every day is miserable. Actually this past week I've increased my Celexa and taken my anti-anxiety meds more regularly and I have felt some relief. I just hate the life I created for myself. I don't hate the people in it, just the circumstances. Really when I think about it, it's mostly me that I hate. I can't shake this feeling that I am being punished by my God. I do know that God isn't about punishing but I still feel that way.

I can't handle it guys. I'm so close to cracking some days I scare myself. All I can hope for is that maybe this slight increase in meds will somehow take this edge off and I will rise up to the challenge of the daily walk.

I have no support system here. I miss my dad and I miss my mom who is too busy with her new life to be part of mine any more. I do have a group of moms that I meet with every so often but I'm afraid to share too much. I encounter tremendous judgement from people. When I try to explain my problems with my son a lot of time people just go silent. Damnit I hate silence. I want someone to say "it's going to be ok". I feel like such a freak show.

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