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Date Posted: Wednesday, June 16, 10:14:31am EST
In reply to:
M_Miller_Phil_4-20
's message, "What is Your Testimony?" on Monday, June 14, 06:50:56pm EST
Well my testimony begins just like a lot of thers...I was raised in the church..all I knew was the church..I was there all day on Sunday, Wednesday nights..and sometimes Friday nights. If we weren't going to church..we were working with the church. So time passed and I became a teenager and my interests were more in my friends and being in the in-crowd. However since I was still in my parents house, I was "made" to go to church. WHen I went off to college..HMM..freedom..no one around to make me do anything. I had my first boyfriend so I fornicated without a second thought, partied (hard), drank (alot), and did whatever else made me feel good. Moved on to my second boyfriend..and kept doing the same thing, but at a more intense level. I continued this behavior pretty much until I went to law school, GOT KICKED OUT (which is something I've told no one) and then I decided to get mad at GOD. I couldn't understand why he'd allow me to go to law school, put myself through all that, get more student loans...if it wasn't going to work out. And to make matters worse..when I came back home..we were church-less because my former Pastor decided to lie to the congregation about some things, divorce his wife..and marry a woman 30 years younger than he was...so I had no foundation..I needed guidance.. I desperately needed God..but I was wandering..no place to go.. My relationshp with boyfriend #2 ended and a couple of months later...I started an online MBA course (that i finished) and I met boyfriend #3..not drinking as much..but fornicating a whole lot more..cause well to be honest..it was good LOL! He is a Christian..but we still fornicated like it was going out of style. We went through our share of ups and downs...realized both of us should have been working on ourselves rather than each other....a lot of lies, mistrust and dishonesty led to our demise...and I broke that off. So there I was..still lost..still searching for something I could not find...still seeking to be whole from another man. Well we broke up...but we didn't "break it off" if you know what I mean...and I was happy on the outside..but torn up on the inside. I knew I was better than this..and I knew God wanted more for me..but I kept doing what I was doing..
SO while looking for a church..I found a Full Gospel Ministry and my life has not been the same since. My Bishop can preach/teach his tail off! For the first time I was around singles that were actually LIVING holy! Saving themselves for marriage, being in the world, but not of the world. This ministry made me look and myself and examine myself. I felt born again..again. God always seemed to give a Rhema word to my Bishop that spoke directly to me. And before long, I couldn't resist. I yielded and I surrendered..and I haven't been the same since! I am an example that if you raise up a child in the way they should go..when they get older they will not depart from it!! It took me a while, but I'm home now. I have made the decision to not only be a hearer of the word..but a doer also. I have made a decision to seek God's advice and his face, before I go to man. I have learned that as long as I'm in God's will, regardless of how things look, he will take care of me. I have learned to trust God and lean not on my own understanding. I have fallen in love with Jesus all over again! And yall There is no one like him!
I'm not saying I'm perfect, and that I don't slip up, but the difference is now I feel convicted. WHen I mess up, I get it right with God quickly! I dont let the devil put me on a guilt trip and hide myself/my face from God. Another thing is that I am a work in progress..and God aint even close to being finished with me yet!
OK so now that my life is an open book LOL.. I hope others feel free to share;)
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