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Date Posted: 11:40:02 11/13/04 Sat
In reply to:
Shani
's message, "Re: Anyone live in the UK?" on 10:49:30 11/09/04 Tue
You go, girl!
fran>
I say apply and take things from there... you can do
>it in baby steps. Cross bridges as you get there.
>Freedom is a scary thing. You don't know what is
>waiting for you if you have never experienced it. I
>have been on a freedom kick for the past couple of
>weeks. I am all for you going to Oxford. Even
>applying is a great step. If you don't do it this
>year, you can always do something like this right
>after you graduate. I think you said that you are a
>junior in college. If you don't do this now, could
>you do a summer program instead? Anyhow, I am so
>excited for you no matter what you choose to do. But
>I urge you to go to England...it may be the best thing
>you've ever done for yourself.
>
>>I met with Prema today, the study abroad head. We
>>discussed Oxford. So, here I sit, contemplating my
>>future; and the more I think about the possibility,
>>the more I feel that such a change might be the best
>>thing I could do for myself at this point in my life.
>>The only problem is that this year has been going so
>>well academically, and leaving SL just when things are
>>falling into place is what I would be doing. It is
>>that I crave change, need change, but I am scared of
>>it too. Still I keep thinking that what Oxford could
>>do for me, is help me find myself, define myself,
>>without the baggage that I have been carrying here. It
>>could be so freeing–ironically, I think that that is
>>what I am scared of–and still that is also why I feel
>>I should go–to expand myself and face change head on.
>>I keep telling myself that there is no progress
>>without change, and there is no change without risk;
>>but truthfully without change, without risk, there is
>>no future worth living. I think I want to apply.
>>
>>
>>
>>>>I am contemplating studying at Oxford next year? I
>>>>would be going abroad as a junior.
>>>>I think going could be amazing. But I am scared as
>>>>Hell that I will not be able to handle it. I don't
>>>>know what I am more afraid of: the food, the work,
>>the
>>>>change... (What I eat is vegetables and nutrition
>>>>bars. I cannot eat "prepared" dishes; I haven't in
>>>>over 7 years.) But, I keep thinking that I could,
>>>>possibly, grow so much. Just maybe I would find
>>myself
>>>>there, which is more than I could ask for. I don't
>>>>want to make this decision based on fear, so if I
>>base
>>>>it on what I believe I will regret, I might very
>well
>>>>be throwing myself into something I won't be able to
>>>>handle, which isn't any better. I just want "this
>>>>life" to be over, and I think that in going I could
>>>>perhaps do that. I could change so much. But then I
>>>>know that I can never escape myself, and that is
>what
>>>>I dream of most. I want to go, but I am so scared of
>>>>it all...
>>>>
>>>>So if anyone lives in the UK, could you maybe tell
>me
>>>>about it–food and all?
>>>>I would really appreciate it.
>>>>
>>>>lara
>>>
>>>Lara,
>>>Personally, I think that you should do it...weird
>food
>>>habits and all. I moved from GA to Chicago a little
>>>over a year ago. It's not moving overseas, by any
>>>means, but my reasoning was the same as yours. I
>>>wanted to grow and change and become someone
>>>different. And I have done those things. It's
>>>amazing (like Fran said) the difference that I see in
>>>myself from when I was living there in GA. I see
>>>myself then and see how much more mature and free I
>am
>>>now. I do struggle with how people to see me and I
>>>still hate to eat in front of people and all of those
>>>things, but I am self-sufficient now. It's like I
>>>needed to do this to know that I could take of myself
>>>and wasn't going to end up like the people that I
>knew
>>>back home. I felt like I was drowning there. It was
>>>hard moving here and having to face some things about
>>>myself, but it was worth it. I say, go to England.
>>>When are you ever going to have a chance like that
>>>again? Do it now while you are young and have few
>>>ties. You don't want to look back and regret not
>>>taking this chance.
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