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Shani
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Date Posted: 10:49:30 11/09/04 Tue
In reply to:
lara
's message, "Re: Anyone live in the UK?" on 13:23:28 11/08/04 Mon
I say apply and take things from there... you can do it in baby steps. Cross bridges as you get there. Freedom is a scary thing. You don't know what is waiting for you if you have never experienced it. I have been on a freedom kick for the past couple of weeks. I am all for you going to Oxford. Even applying is a great step. If you don't do it this year, you can always do something like this right after you graduate. I think you said that you are a junior in college. If you don't do this now, could you do a summer program instead? Anyhow, I am so excited for you no matter what you choose to do. But I urge you to go to England...it may be the best thing you've ever done for yourself.
>I met with Prema today, the study abroad head. We
>discussed Oxford. So, here I sit, contemplating my
>future; and the more I think about the possibility,
>the more I feel that such a change might be the best
>thing I could do for myself at this point in my life.
>The only problem is that this year has been going so
>well academically, and leaving SL just when things are
>falling into place is what I would be doing. It is
>that I crave change, need change, but I am scared of
>it too. Still I keep thinking that what Oxford could
>do for me, is help me find myself, define myself,
>without the baggage that I have been carrying here. It
>could be so freeing–ironically, I think that that is
>what I am scared of–and still that is also why I feel
>I should go–to expand myself and face change head on.
>I keep telling myself that there is no progress
>without change, and there is no change without risk;
>but truthfully without change, without risk, there is
>no future worth living. I think I want to apply.
>
>
>
>>>I am contemplating studying at Oxford next year? I
>>>would be going abroad as a junior.
>>>I think going could be amazing. But I am scared as
>>>Hell that I will not be able to handle it. I don't
>>>know what I am more afraid of: the food, the work,
>the
>>>change... (What I eat is vegetables and nutrition
>>>bars. I cannot eat "prepared" dishes; I haven't in
>>>over 7 years.) But, I keep thinking that I could,
>>>possibly, grow so much. Just maybe I would find
>myself
>>>there, which is more than I could ask for. I don't
>>>want to make this decision based on fear, so if I
>base
>>>it on what I believe I will regret, I might very well
>>>be throwing myself into something I won't be able to
>>>handle, which isn't any better. I just want "this
>>>life" to be over, and I think that in going I could
>>>perhaps do that. I could change so much. But then I
>>>know that I can never escape myself, and that is what
>>>I dream of most. I want to go, but I am so scared of
>>>it all...
>>>
>>>So if anyone lives in the UK, could you maybe tell me
>>>about it–food and all?
>>>I would really appreciate it.
>>>
>>>lara
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>>Lara,
>>Personally, I think that you should do it...weird food
>>habits and all. I moved from GA to Chicago a little
>>over a year ago. It's not moving overseas, by any
>>means, but my reasoning was the same as yours. I
>>wanted to grow and change and become someone
>>different. And I have done those things. It's
>>amazing (like Fran said) the difference that I see in
>>myself from when I was living there in GA. I see
>>myself then and see how much more mature and free I am
>>now. I do struggle with how people to see me and I
>>still hate to eat in front of people and all of those
>>things, but I am self-sufficient now. It's like I
>>needed to do this to know that I could take of myself
>>and wasn't going to end up like the people that I knew
>>back home. I felt like I was drowning there. It was
>>hard moving here and having to face some things about
>>myself, but it was worth it. I say, go to England.
>>When are you ever going to have a chance like that
>>again? Do it now while you are young and have few
>>ties. You don't want to look back and regret not
>>taking this chance.
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