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Date Posted: 08:25:18 08/31/08 Sun
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's message, "Past Sins and Compassion, the Return" on 16:06:33 07/31/08 Thu
Title: Past Sins and Compassion, the Return. (Part 5)
Author: Maximus
(From part 4)
(S) How are you going to tell AJ and Nicki about Katie being their new sister? I talked to Katie and she already understands you are the daddy of all but AJ. It might be a good idea if you explained AJ to her again because I don’t think she fully understands what I told her.
(H) I believe I need to explain it to them separately. I think Nicki already wants Katie to be her big sister for real. AJ seems to have issues about me and his mother that are not resolved. I think he feels left out a times. I believe we both need to listen to what is bothering him so we can help him.
(S) I will. Harm,……. talk to me about what happened last night.
(H) Not much to talk about. I hate to sleep alone and I hope it didn’t upset you too much when I asked you to join me.
(S) That is all it was?
What about your hand on my boob?
Part 5
(H) That was all it was last night, but that doesn’t mean it will always be like that. It would suit me just fine if we went to bed together every night so I could hold you, and then you could move to your bed at a feeding time to maintain appearances. About my hand ………..what can I say, I love to hold and feel large lovely boobs……especially yours. It felt good to touch you. Did it upset you?
(S) Not really I guess since you missed that with Katie, but I never realized your hands were so large and rough. So, are you saying I am welcome anytime I want to come in to join you?
(H) Yes. I could see a day that much more might happen between us but this would be good for now.
(S) And you are letting me make the decision of when I want to come in……..or not?
(H) Yes. I understand you might not be here for long but I remember the few times we helped each other sleep in the past and I found it very special.
(S) All the walls are gone, aren’t they?
(H) Yes. Harriet would not let me act like that anymore. She set me straight about so many things.
(S) What is the greatest thing she taught you?
(H) That married sex is the absolute best. Oral sex allowed us to acquire a taste for each other, and then there were no limits to our passion.
(S) Meaning what?
(H) You and I both know how fantastic it feels to climax together but that new freedom took away any guilty feelings so we could both make our partner King or Queen for the day. I could then completely concentrate on maximizing her pleasure without seeking my own satisfaction at the same time.
(S) Sounds like every girl’s dream. Do you think you might teach another woman about that in the future?
(H) Meaning you ?................. I imagine a lot will depend how badly you wanted the dream and how ready you were to experience something new with me.
(S) Whew……..it’s been a long day. I think I will need time to understand everything you have talked to me about. Do you want me to take the 2:00 like last night?
(H) Yes that would be good for me. Good night Sarah.
Harm watched her go to her room and wondered how everything was going to work out. He had purposely left important decisions up to her to find how she would react. He understood long ago that she was anal about maintaining control but he also knew she would need to share and even give over that control to him sometimes before the transformation was completed. She seemed to think in “us” ways most of the time already and he knew without a doubt she had him and his children’s best interest at heart. He wondered when she would finally step forward to express her interests and relinquish control.
After locking up the house, taking care of his bathroom chores, and checking on Drew and the other children, he settled in for the evening. Drew was still awake and fussing so he moved him to his bed to play with him. He smiled and responded to Harm in ways that made Harm’s care for him worth every minute he could spend with him. Evidently Sarah was already sensitive to his noises and Harm soon noticed her standing in the doorway watching them. Harm waved her in and she lay on the other side of Drew to also enjoy the little guy. They enjoyed him for a time until Harm yawned and Sarah took the hint. She moved Drew to his bassinet and covered him before crawling back in bed with Harm.
(S) Did you mind being my pillow last night?
(H) No. In fact, I enjoyed it. Come stay with me.
They rolled together and 02:00 came with the alarm clock. Sarah rolled away and went to take care of the bottle as Harm rolled over for more sleep.
Sarah returned to bed after taking care of Drew and was warmly received back in bed. Both got up when the 04:30 alarm went off. Sarah returned to her own bed as Harm tended to Drew and after took the monitor to the bathroom while he shaved and showered as he prepared for his day.
He heard Hilda as she arrived and as she went into AJ’s room to get him up so he could have breakfast and get ready for school. Harm joined him for breakfast to discuss his desire to signup for T-ball for the summer and found AJ very excited about it. AJ went back up stairs to get ready for school as Harm had a second cup of coffee. Sarah joined them at 07:00 to discuss plans for the day and watched as AJ boarded the bus for school.
Harm returned to his bedroom to dress in uniform for the day and picked up his third cup of coffee that Sarah had prepared for him as he left the house. He entered his car and realized he had not kissed Sarah as he left. He sat stunned remembering that it was Harriet that he had owed a kiss to every morning for so long. He felt the tear as it fell from his eye but felt good because he only had fond memories of her. Changes were happening…..
His day progressed with the precision planned by Chief Coates until a phone call at 11:16.
(S) Have you seen the morning paper?
(H) No. Haven’t had time to find it.
(S) On the front page center there is a large picture that was taken of us at the mall. We are all in civilian clothes and you are beside me with Katie on your shoulders and I am talking to Nicki and AJ. Little Drew is in the car seat by my left arm. The caption reads “ What is the Navy not telling us?” Just what the hell does that mean?
(H) I am not sure but do you remember how DC papers loved to run our pictures every time we attended anything? Maybe the caption should have read “Their back.”
(S) So you don’t think this is anything to worry about?
(H) Sarah, I think we need to remain vigilant but it is most likely just someone needing a story to print. Call me if anything strange starts to happen. OK?
(S) I will. Thank you for last night. I haven’t slept that well in years.
(H) I am always willing to oblige………………for you. I’ll see you at home. Bye.
Harm called the gate and ordered a yellow alert. He gave instructions that no one without authorization be allowed to pass without his express permission.
Harm called the SECNAV and detailed what was reported in the paper and explained that it was just a trip to the mall on a cold Sunday in March for shopping and to let the kids have fun. The SECNAV took due notice thereof and made a record of Harm’s report.
Harm returned to his routine and continued filling out dull performance evaluations reports. He left at 17:30 like normal and found his house almost surrounded with news trucks and reporters when he arrived home. He hit the auto garage opener and pulled thru the crowd and closed the door. He entered the house and met with Sarah and Hilda. Sarah handed him a phone number for Chuck Depalma, a news reporter they had known as an honest man from years gone by.
Harm went in and changed clothes, all the while wondering what this was all about and decided to call Chuck.
(H) Chuck Depalma, please.
(C) This is he.
(H) Chuck, this is Harmon Rabb. Why are people from your station outside my home?
(C) You guys are big news, Harm. One of DC’s favorite Admirals showing up like a normal person at the mall with a beautiful woman other than his wife with 4 children in tow. What were you thinking, man?
(H) Chuck, I really expected better from you. Evidently you don’t read your own paper, especially the OBIT page. I lost Harriet to childbirth a little over two months ago when little Drew was born. That other woman, as you put it, is retired Marine Corps Colonel Sarah MacKenzie, who was as you know my partner years ago, and is acting as my children’s nanny until I can find a replacement. I want your paper to make this right for us. I don’t mind you guys taking pictures of us anytime you choose but you need to make sure we are portrayed correctly. Chuck, I expect you to make this right.
(C) I will. Sorry for any problem we have caused.
Harm hung up the phone as the ladies looked on.
(H) Hilda, if you get your things, I will take you home. Sarah, keep the place locked up and I believe they will all be gone shortly.
Harm and Hilda entered the car in the garage and did the door thing and backed out thru the crowd and left. When he returned a few minutes later he noticed the truck crews tearing down to leave. Almost everyone was gone before 19:00.
Harm and Sarah worked together and got dinner for everyone and tried to ignore what was going on outside. After the dishes were put away, they settled down to coffee and the news on TV.
As he had promised, Chuck Depalma, started his program with a formal apology to the Admiral Rabb family for assumptions made by reporters from the station that were found to be untrue. He extended his condolences to the family for the loss of Harriet, a wife and mother, and told the story of how Harriet had instructed the doctors to save the baby first if they must choose between her and the baby. He turned the program over to someone else as he ended because he could not continue on the air.
Harm and Sarah were both tearing as Harm turned the TV off. They parted and Harm went to his bedroom. AJ brought his homework out and Sarah sucked it up and tried to help him. Harm fed and tended to Drew and had him ready for bed a few minutes early.
Harm carried Drew and guided Katie to Nicki’s room and stayed to talk to them about bunk beds. He told them about one he had seen that had a slide from the top bunk down which they could enjoy if they would be careful. He told them he would get it for them if they wanted to share the same bedroom from now on. They quickly accepted his offer and told him they would decide later who would sleep in what bed.
(H) Nicki, I have a very good surprise to tell you. Katie is your half sister.
(N) What is half sister?
(H) I am Katie’s daddy just like I am your daddy. Miss Sarah and I tried to make a baby, which is Katie, but she forgot to tell me before she was sent far far away. After I married your mommy, we made a baby which was you. I made a baby with both Miss Sarah and your mommy and you both belong to me. You have the same daddy but different mommys and that makes you half sisters.
(N) Do we still get the bed?
(H) You sure do, if you want it.
The chorus “I do, I do” rang out and it was going to make things easier in the future.
Harm returned down stairs and told Sarah what had been decided and they agreed to buy the bed one night this week. They agreed to keep the same schedule for Drew and everyone settled down for the night.
Sarah joined Harm after Katie was to sleep and found him wrestling around quite a bit.
(S) Harm, what’s wrong?
(H) I can’t help thinking.
(S) Tell me what has you so upset. Have I caused something?
You have had problems looking me in the eye all evening. Have I made you angry about something?
(H) No. I Googled your name today and it sent me to the DC Times paper for 18 November 1998. Your picture was on the front page telling of you killing Chris. It had all of the sordid details of your affair with John and it made you sound like a real slut.
We have 2 bright beautiful girls that someone will make sure hears about their mother’s past sometime in the future. I believe we will be able to explain everything to them when the time comes. But…………………………………………I then realized that there might be more to be told. I remember you called that time period your “young, horny, and stupid” time but since the only other episode I know of is General Davis, I need you to tell me everything that might come to light when people start asking questions when your name gets well known here in DC.
(S) Harm, I know we have had an emotional evening but you are asking me to put our new relationship at risk for something that I did before I even knew you existed. OK !!! I have another secret but I think we should leave it that way. Just leave well enough alone. No one else knows about it.
(H) No Sarah! I want to know so I will know how to handle it if it ever comes up. You have shown an interest in becoming seriously involved with me and I want that…….but, I don’t want it built on secrets and lies about things that happened before I met you.
(S) Harm, this is a lose, lose situation for me. Are you telling me that your feelings for me are strong enough to forgive things I haven’t even been able to forgive myself of?
(H) Yes, if it happened before I met you.
(S) I made an XXX sex video in LA in 94 under an assumed name that is still available on the internet today. I was a captain in JAG at the time and stationed in California and needed the money. I didn’t have anyone in my life at the time and it was all done in one day.
(H) and,
(S) I had to do the casting couch thing and screw the Producer and give the Director head to get the gig. After learning the lines, they started shooting as the leading man played with me and got me really hot, undressed me, and we had intercourse with me riding him on a chair once before lunch and after they looked over the film, we shot it again in the afternoon. When it was over, they gave me $50,000 in small bills for my work, no names or questions asked.
I did it because I needed a new car and was behind in my bills.
(H) If it is available on E-bay under the assumed name, has anyone ever recognized you and asked you about it?
(S) Yes. Bud and Harriet bought the video and were sure it was me screwing the guy. I denied it then as I have always done since. Now only you know the truth.
The only other things were people you knew about that happened while I was at JAG. I am sorry for all of it but……………..I never dreamed at the time a man like you would have any interest in me. I guess I should also add the thousands of times in 6 years that I wanted to have casual sex with you. But……….I knew that it could never be casual with you because it was going to be all or nothing. Waiting for years for it to be “all” has been difficult but it has been worth it.
All of that changed for me the first time I felt Katie kick. You and I had created a new life that deserved a mommy that could be a good example for her instead of what I had become. I vowed then to do what was necessary to become that person. I vowed to remain celibate until you and I made a decision about “us” and that is where we are now.
(H) I have dreaded opening the subject with you fearing it would make you feel that I don’t trust you but I needed you to admit it to me.
Sarah, if you didn’t want your friends and lovers to know it was you screwing the guy, you should have covered up your tat. I didn’t know about it until Harriet showed me the video for the first time. We tried every chair in the house before we found one that worked for her the way you used it. I have the video over in the locked file.
(S) Oh my God. So both Bud and Harriet knew it was really me all that time?
(H) Actually she put it together in the late 90’s after she found where your tat was. She pointed it out to me in the video. I think you should now have the tat removed or change its appearance, just in case.
(S) I will have it changed so it looks completely different.
Do you trust me, Harm?
(H) Is there any reason now that I should not?
(S) No. After you and I created a baby together, I knew that you were the one I wanted to be faithful to for the rest of my life, or until…………..…… you say you don’t want me.
Do you still want me, Harm?
(H) Yes, very much. I have wanted you since laying eyes on you over 12 years ago and I want you with me forever.
(S) I would like that very much. I have been faithful to you since Katie was conceived and intend to for the rest of my life if we can make it work.
May I stay for the night or do you now want to be left alone?
(H) I want you with me, right here. I have wished many times that I could have known you earlier so your life could have been different.
(S) The important thing, it is different now because of Katie and you.
Harm pulled Sarah to him and kissed her forehead to let her know he was pleased that she had been honest with him. They spooned together and settled in for the night.
TBC
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