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>So, this is something I've wanted to write for a while >now but I never really knew where to post it. I really >didn't want to use Reddit, since that place can be >toxic af, with all the shaming and blaming that goes >on there and the general condescending attitudes. I >don't know if this is exactly the right place or not >but it seems close enough. > >First, some background. I am an only child, raised by >my dad. I've always been a bit socially awkward and >nerdy, not a tomboy but I also never fit in with the >stuckup superficial girls who spend 5 hours doing >their makeup and causing drama and such. I never >dressed all fancy, but not sloppy either, just normal, >and I was one of the few girls you'd find playing D&D >or card games with the nerds in school at lunch time, >that kind of thing. I've been told I'm cute, but I >know I'm no supermodel (and I don't want that kind of >attention anyway). My dad worked in IT, and being >nerdy myself I ended up getting a degree in computer >science with a minor in English. I'm 28 now and work >as a tech writer for a medium-sized company in a small >Canadian city. I love my job and consider myself to be >well-educated and intelligent. > >Now, my poor Dad. I love him dearly and he's an >amazing father who did his best, but he knew nothing >about raising a girl or teaching me how to be a girl, >including proper female hygiene. I've learned most of >it on my own through trial and error, and if I'm >dating someone I try to keep myself presentable and >clean, but when I'm single I get lazy and fall back on >my old habits (or lack thereof) from growing up. My >job allows me to work from home much of the time >(writing), which makes it even worse. I get really >lazy about things like showering, changing my clothes, >wiping myself and generally keeping myself clean. >There have been times when I've literally just worn >the same pajamas all week long without even showering >if I didn't have to go out anywhere. > >So the disgusting details... I basically never wipe >when I pee, and when I poop I sometimes give a quick >wipe to make sure there's nothing big hanging back >there and sometimes I don't bother at all. Most of my >underwear have stains even when they're clean, except >for a few sexier pieces that I only wear when I'm >seeing someone. I mostly wear basic plain but comfy >panties, cotton or nylon, and they get pretty dirty >after a couple days. Even most of my socks look dirty >even when they're washed. I do a lot of my work >sitting cross-legged on my bed or couch with my laptop >in front of me, and in that position I can often smell >myself (my butt, vajayjay, feet, or general body >smell). And, I actually kinda like that. It doesn't >turn me on or anything, I just find my own smell nice >and it makes me feel good, comfortable, at ease. And >clothes you've worn for a couple days have loosened up >and are worn-in, and all that together just feels so >comfy and good. I do laundry about once every 1-2 >months, and wash my bed sheets maybe once a year >unless someone else is going to be in bed with me. I >love the smell and feel of a well worn bed and dirty >clothes. > >The way you get used to things as a kid is sometimes >really hard to change as an adult, and I don't really >like change. I don't know what will happen when >someday I meet someone I'm interested in making a life >together with. I suppose (hope) the right person for >me will be understanding and accepting and I won't >have to hide or change my personal habits to >accommodate them. I like the way I live and I'm happy >to finally share my personal little secret. Thanks for >reading! > >Amy

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