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Elsie
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Date Posted: 01:47:32 11/16/25 Sun
I can't sleep so I'll just tell you what happened. This all happened so fast. I guess it really hasn't because it's been 19 years and I've been turning all this over in my mind since I was in grade school.
Yes, Caring Through Action of course I did the dishes. At work my brain was going crazy. I wanted to go home, but I didn't want to go home. When I got home I got the usual small talk and was told to do my chores. My mom had separated my laundry, that was embarrassing, and I vacuumed and cleaned my room and did some other things. My mom helped me put away my laundry and I was thing 'Mom please get away from my laundry, this is embarrassing.' Then she told me to go in the kitchen. I don't know which was worse thinking she was going to spank me or we were going to talk. I think a spanking would have been better than talking. I started at that paddle waiting for her. It didn't look so appealing now.
She came in with the notebook and sat down. I don't know if I felt shame or what I was feeling. I'll try to rewrite what she said but it's all pretty much a jumble.
"This is interesting reading. You put a lot of thought and research into this.
I've always wondered if maybe not holding you more accountable and not being more firm with consequences was maybe doing you a disservice. It's very hard being a parent and we don't always make the right decisions.
We chose not to spank. I knew your father was against it. I wasn't so sure. After we divorced I just let be what was. There were thousands of times I thought you deserved a good spanking and in many ways I regretted not doing it. Groundings didn't stick and they were really punishment for both of us.
I know a lot more about you than you think. A girl can't keep secrets from her mother because she already knows. I've read everything in this notebook. Even looked at the pictures and watched the videos you linked. This is A+ work. I just hope your studies haven't suffered in the process."
I wanted to jump in and say things but I couldn't and I kept staring at that paddle and not wanting to know about it. I felt sick. My brain was going everywhere. The main thing is I just kept thinking this wasn't happening. I'd actually been working on that notebook for over a year so my studies didn't actually suffer.
"Is this really what you want?
Are you sure?
There will be no turning back. Are you sure this is what you want?
Alright then. Here is a list of rules. Study them carefully. They're the same rules you've always had, but now they will be adhered to and there will be consequences."
I don't know what I felt or am feeling. This is not really what I want. I thought I did, but now I don't know. Now I can't get away with anything. I fear that getting a real spanking is way different than in my brain or self spanking.
I had plans to hang out with my friend. I just had to get out of the house. I knew I wouldn't be good company but I had to get out of the house. My mom told me to be back by 10:00 and I said "10:00!"
"You didn't do your chores when you were told, so be back here at 10:00."
I was about to get into an argument like usual, but I stopped dead. 10:00 was coming. I was having fun and I couldn't tell her I had to be home. 10:00 passed. I just told her I wasn't feeling well and went home. My mom asked if I had a good time and what I did then she said I was grounded. I was like "GROUNDED?!" I started to protest as usual but I could see I wasn't going to win and I better quit. So I'm grounded till Wednesday. Work and school and that's it.
I guess I better try to get some sleep. Even though I've been thinking about this for literally years it just seems to have happened so fast.
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