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Date Posted: 12:46:55 06/20/01 Wed
In reply to:
delena
's message, "an announcement" on 09:48:37 06/20/01 Wed
First, I would like to apologise in general to everybody in the board. My actions were child like and immature. Part of this reason may be, coz I am still pretty much a child and immature! No reason, I know. So I am sorry to everybody in the board and especially the board mistress herself.
Me and her had a long conversation last night. I was still really angry, more so than before, becuase, well, I dunno really, I just was. We had a long long talk about the reasoning behind everything that went on and the point of it all. She made me realize that I had no right to be annoyed at anybody that maybe feel they need to stick up for delena. If I was down the pub, and some kid come in and started having a go at my mate, whether my mate didnt do anything, whether it were 50-50, or if he was the starter of it all, I would stick up and fight for my friend. Its what you do. I have no right to be angry at people that would do the same thing as me. So Med, (sorry, cant remember how to spell you name....will med do?) I hear that you and Delena have come very close. I totally respect your calm and cool, Not that I was annoyed at you in the first place, Im sorry that you had to see everything that happend. If anybody took a pop at my best mate....Id probably lamp 'em. Thank you for not loosing you cool, and Im sorry I did.
Jade. Thanx for the female point of view on males. I know that I do not post a lot at all, but I have been reading the board with constantly increasing intrest, and been waiting for the right time to make an entrance properly...(and what an entrance I made! j/k) and I thought what better time to say hi than with a male point of view about males! My reply to your post was totally honest. No offence to anybody was made. The title of my post 'very offended' was not a serious one...it was just a spare of the moment thing. I was, as you can see if you read it over, was not offended. I actually thought it was quite funny. My reply was not meant to be mean, or accusing women of anything...just...well...a friendly reply. Im sorry if was taken badly. Looking back over it....it probbaly was a bit direct for a 'hi' post! Thank you also for not loosing your cool as I foolishly did. Sorry you were involved and sorry I over reacted.
Storm, sweetheart, you know how I feel after speaking last night, thanx for being their as always. I love you.
Now. Delena. I have a few things to say.
First up. Im sorry I totally over reacted. Im sorry I called you a bitch and everything. I publicly apologise and take it back. I still feel however, if that is all I say there will always be an underlying tension. I feel it is right I tell you my reasons for going off on one like that. (Well, for being offended at least...there is no reason for me exploding like I did.)
The one thing I can not stand and will not take from anybody, is them talking down to me. Im probably actually very hard to please! Im not the most clever peorson ever to live, I do not pretend to be. I know there are people out there that are better than me and I really look up to them. But if they were to talk down to me, make me feel small...patronise me, I hate it. Patronising,....I thought your post was. Not greatly, but in some points it really made my blood boil. Most of the other parts it was very very smug. I have noticed this over a lot of your posts. Maybe they are not intentional...maybe it is...I dont know..but smug.......AAAHHHHHHHHHHHH god I hate that aswell. Im not saying you are a smug person. I more than any should understand the dificulty to get down what you really mean in the way you mean it in a way that nobody could mis understand. It is next to imposible. Maybe thats my fault. Maybe not. Maybe it doesnt matter anyway!
The reason I had a go like I did because I found your post probably one of the most smug bits of text I have ever read. I dont know why. I am all for discusion, Im all for proving people wrong and being proved wrong. Forgive me, I can remember who it was that posted first in reply to mine, but I read that, and there was no problem with it at all. I took it well and was going to reply with a fair argument, but I quickly read your post first. It made me forget all about replying to the first and just made me see red...for...well...quite a long time actually. Im still pretty hacked off. I didnt like the way you talked to me and I saw you as being smug afterwards...so I saw fit to talk to you in a way which you would not like and feel smug about it after. No reason. I know. Prehaps this just shows the child in me!
As I mentioned above, I am not the most interlectual person in the board...this is pobably displayed by my horrible spelling! But I am by no means thick. Half of these big and long words you use...I cant understand half of them and I feel threatened by that because as far as I know you could be ripping the piss outta me...have everybody laughing at me and I wouldnt know a thing.
Im sure that if we try we could put this behind us if we wanted and maybe at some point even become friends. A freind with knoweldge of that you quite obviously posses, would be interesting and usefull. (Not implying I want to use you!) I mean, me and my mates havea good night by having a few beers, beating up Pitiki (friend of mine!) seeing who can do the worst smelling fart..and go home! Brilliant. But..there is actually another side to me! I may not be the cleveriest person...but I do actually have a great gift for understanding.(Ha...beleive it or not!)Ask storm though. My way of thinking is not usuall to that of most people. This is a reason I beleive I could be a good and interesting contributer to the board.
I dont know why I reacted like I did. I havent been like that for ages....well....haha....I do tend to go off on one every now and then...haha...and I always end up getting this wonrg...I mean....last time I went off on one...it was at a bloke that I thought...and to be fair...so did storm...thought was trying to get it on with storm. We both thought it and it went on and on getting seemingly worse...untill one day I had the worst go at him....we were at eachothers throats.....anyway...it turned out he was gay and now we are good friends! OOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooppps!! True story aswell!
Infact...I beleive that he has even posted once on here....do you rememeber 'Dan' comming in and dropping a random post? It was him!
Well...Im going on now! What I really want to say is Im sorry! Im sorry I had a go at you. I had no right. I should have told you straight how I felt about your post and not shot off on one.
Im sorry.
I see that you wish to blank me from now on. Thats fair enough. I probably deserve it. But, if you take my apology, I would like to try and really make things work! Im a nice guy really! A long time relationship with somebody like storm...I must be...shes to good for most people...shes way to good for me, but...it must mean somehting?
I dont know if you are going to even read this post as you are blanking me, so...like...if you havent replied by like...next Thursday or somehting...(coz I know you are going away till around about then) could...anybody who is reading this suggest to delena that she reads this? Ill copy and paste it and put it back at the top of the board again on Thursay if I dont have a reply...and if I dont get one after that....I guess I know how you feel, and will not make an attempt to contact you again.
But I really hope it doesnt come to that.
I would just like to ask a couple of things...please at least consider my apology. Second...if you do reply...please can you try not to be patronising or smug...Im sure your not...but like...well...you have read the above...you know what I mean.
At that...I want to say sorry to everybody once again...and I hope I can still be accepted into your board as maybe a full time poster or something?
Im sorry!!
Really!!
Sorry!!
Boyfriend.
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