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Date Posted: 16:30:54 04/22/02 Mon
Author: teegs
Author Host/IP: NoHost / 12.96.202.1
Subject: I think I can speak to this....
In reply to: toosh 's message, "Rx's.....physician's....addiction......and thinking aloud!" on 13:35:41 04/22/02 Mon

cuz this one bit me in the ass, recently. I had been clean and sober from the mid 70s, and then I did combo in 1999. I had thought, well, all that is behind me. HA! I had such bad bone pain and migraines that I ate pain pills like m&ms. I got real stupid. I quit a job that I had almost 10 years in. Got another job and quit that one too. Last Mother's day I woke up in the emergy room, about a hair away from not waking up at all. Before waking up, I spent 4 or ? days in a drug induced black out during which time I just continued to take more drugs (and to this day have NO memory of). My 6 year old niece found me and her mom called the ambulence. When I got home from the hospital I had a letter from my (then) employer asking me not to come in again (ever). So I've had a struggle this past year keeping a roof over my head, and food and gaining some sanity.

May 13th is my one year clean date. I got sucked back in big time, and am counting my blessings today. And I'm especially warry of the harm opiates cause. Not everyone has an addictive personality, but opiates ARE my downfall.

Teegs

p.s. I haven't had one migraine since I stopped taking the vicodin.

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[> [> Re: Cunning, Baffling, and {{{{POWERFUL}}}}. -- William, 16:50:04 04/22/02 Mon (spider-mtc-tc024.proxy.aol.com/64.12.105.159)

Thanks for your post. You see, it is my belief that my drug and alcohol problems were but a symptom of a deeper problem. ME. LOL. That was the bottom line.

My thinker was so out of whack from using some sort of substance since the age of twelve on;[now 47]. Not wishing to deal with life on life's terms was at the root of my problems. That and I externalized everything. It was always a person, place, thing, or situation that was the problem and that kept me from looking inward to the real problem, as well as the final solution that would free me from the bondage of self.

Sorry to get carried away, however being at death's door many times has given me a whole new outlook on life. It is such a relief to awaken daily and have a choice as to whether or not to pick up. Life has daily miracles unfold for me. Though I am still in the grip of the Hepatitis C, and all of its physical manifestations, the peace and serenity that I experience far surpasses anything that a drug, drink, shot, or whatever may bring. Not to say that all is peaches and cream, however it is so much better to be SOBER.

God has done for me what I could never have imagined to do for myself.

Peace be with you and thank you again for the honesty.

Bless you and yours.

Respectfully:

William


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[> [> [> Thanks, Willliam.......... -- teegz, 17:32:46 04/22/02 Mon (NoHost/12.96.202.1)

I am as open about this as I am about my HCV, to a fault some may say. I'm doing all of the things I need to; meetings, sponser, steps, and learning to have fun in recovery. God has blessed me, and given me back my life (only better!).

((((((((((((((((William)))))))))))))))))


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