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Dani
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Date Posted: 19:30:48 06/06/02 Thu
In reply to:
Julia
's message, "insert swear word here, I dont want to mangle your virgin eyes with the actual text" on 18:47:31 06/06/02 Thu
.its like you took thw words from my mouth.
.I sit at the caf. table and I watch people. I dont know which ones are my friends, which ones to trust, which ones will turn aorund and stab me in the back. Its all so fake, everyone is so fake. Everywhere you look. I watch my best friend slowly slip away, out of reach, I cant save her. Shes fallen into the drug of popularity and only sh can save herself. And you know what? It makes me want to cry seeing it. She used ot be so care free, she never cared what others thought of her. Now she is obsessed with makeup, boys and fitting in. Fuck it, I am my own person and I dont want to fit in. Why fit in, why become a part of the mob. Used, abused and thrown away. Ive been part of it. Ive been popular and to tell you the truth, I feel more alienated when I am popular. You dont know people, you never can. I thought I knew my best friend in gr. 6, but she ended up stabbing me in the back for popularity. Thats gotta be the nicest thing she ever did for me, cause now I am my own person and I love it. I still dont really know who my friends are. There are the odd exceptions who I trust with my life, like you Julia. I know you wont stab me in the back to be popular because of things like what you just said. Now Im ranting....hehe. I dont trust people, I used to, but bad experiances have turned me off. Ive met maybe two friends in my whole life that I can actually trust. Julia and Nicole (friend from cottage). I used to think I could trust my best friend, but nwo that she has succumbed to popularity, I dont know anymore. It hurts, It tears me up to see it, to know there is nothing I can do. All I can do is hope, hope she remembers who she is and who she used to be.
sorry for the rant, I basically wanted to tell you that I feel exactley hwo you do...And I find myself hating humanity even more every dya, with every person that betrays me., stabs me in the back. People are two-faced and there is nothing we can do btu shrug it off, be proud of ourselves. Love yourself and everything will be alright.
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