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Date Posted: 01:22:48 09/24/02 Tue
Author: Sonali
Subject: TORN - CHAPTER 12

CHAPTER 12


“Baby!” Britney exclaimed as she hugged a very surprised Justin.

“Brit! What are you doing here? I mean, I’m happy you’re here, just surprised.”

“That’s the point! I am so happy to be here now that I have some time off.”

“Me too,” Justin said a bit distracted as his eyes met mine. I swallowed hard and ran my hands through my hair.

“SONALI! You know we’re gonna party tonight,” Brit said. I forced a smile as she hugged me.

“Oh I dunno about tonight but I’m happy you’re here,” I said.

“C’mon, come out and play with us tonight,” Brit said.

“First day – cramps, bloating, you know how it goes,” I lied as I whispered in her ear.

“Ugh, okay valid excuse, but next time…”

“You know it.”

“Okay, let’s go,” Joey said.

“Hey, y’all go, I’m gonna bum around, make some calls, relax,” JC said.

“Okay, see ya later,” Lance said as the rest of them headed out.

“I’m gonna take a bath,” I said, heading for the door. JC grabbed my arm and pulled me into him.

“Let it out. I know.” I couldn’t ask him how he knew, when he found out, if the others knew, or what he thought. All I could do was cry, and cry I did. He stroked my back and held me until I had nothing left. Then he laid me down on the bed and changed into a dry, non-tear soaked shirt and sat down next to me.

“How did you find out? Do the others know?”

“I saw you two kissing behind the bus when we were in Boulder. We had stopped to get gas and Joey found the hose and started spraying us. You two disappeared behind the bus and I saw you. No one else knows. Something told me not to say anything to you or Justin. It seems as though things are complicated enough.”

“To say the least. I’ve broken a promise to myself – I got involved. And I’m the ‘other girl.’ But I walked into this with my eyes wide open. You must think I’m a slut,” I said.

“Hey now, not at all. Sometimes when it comes to matters of the heart, things aren’t handed to us on a silver plate. We make decisions that we normally wouldn’t, but it’s worth the sacrifice if you get to be with that person.”

“You speaking from personal experience?”

“I am.”

“Jace, I don’t know what to do anymore! I knew this was going to happen. I had fought him so much, telling him it was wrong, but I couldn’t fight him any longer. I am such a weak person. I just don’t know what it is about him. I feel horrible as it is with Britney in the picture. But in all honesty, I am so much more worried about what you and the other guys will think, not to mention Johnny. This is so beyond unprofessional. I am truly a wretched, horrible person!”

“No. You. Are. Not. A. Horrible. Person. Sonali. You’re HUMAN! Let me tell you something, as fucked up of a situation this is, the way I view it is if he makes you happy and you make him happy, I’m happy. And that’s how the other guys would see it, too. It’s up to Justin to deal with Britney. And I’m sure he will. Does he make you happy?”

“Yes. That’s what scares me. I walked into this with my eyes wide open, thinking it’d be a fling or whatever, but I never thought…”

“Thought…”

“Thought I’d fall in love with him.”

“What?”

“I know. And I doubt he even feels the same about me. Jace, I know I’m putting you in a tough position, but please don’t tell the other guys and don’t let Justin know you know. Please?”

“Hey, I haven’t said anything yet, why would I now? Come here,” he said, pulling me into him. I don’t know when I fell asleep but I do know I woke up at 8 in the morning with JC’s arm over my face. I carefully moved it and got up, heading back to my room. I noticed my phone on the bed and I had three messages, all from Justin, worried about me and stumbling all over himself trying to say something. What do you say in a situation like this? I wasn’t angry with him. Like I said, I walked into this with my eyes wide open.





Justin managed to get me alone during lunch so we could try to have a conversation about things.

“Look, I know you’re angry with me,” Justin said before I cut him off.

“Justin, I’m not angry, with you anyways. It was bound to happen sooner or later and it was fun while it lasted.” He looked surprised as I said that last part.

“What? I mean, uh, we’re over?” Now I was surprised.

“Justin, first off, there never was a ‘we.’ I was a side dish plain and simple and I made that decision just as much as you did, so don’t feel bad. Secondly, your GIRLFRIEND whom you LOVE and who LOVES YOU is HERE NOW. I’ve finally come back to the real world and I suggest you do the same. I’m not going to play with fire. I don’t want to hurt anyone and I know you don’t either. You and I know that walking away from this is the smartest and right thing to do. Our six hours are really over now,” I said softly.

“You’re wrong about one thing, Sonali. We’ve already hurt someone. We will walk away from this but in the process, we’ve hurt each other by not being together.”

“Well, would you rather it be hurt or her? Because she doesn’t deserve to be hurt. I can’t do that to her so I certainly know you can’t either.” I saw JC and Chris heading this way so I plastered a smile on my face and stood up.

“Dude, J, guys night out tonight,” Chris informed him.

“Hell yeah,” Justin said.

“So I guess you and Brit will do the girls night thing,” Chris questioned.

“Yup. Alright boys, I have work to do. I’ll be hunting for Johnny,” I said walking away. My work, ha, my work was starting to mend my broken heart.






Brit knocked on my door around 9. I laughed when I saw her in her pajamas and she laughed when she saw me in mine.

“Oh my god, we’re such dorks,” she said.

“Yeah well it adds to our character,” I said. We had decided to majorly pig out and gossip – two things girls did the best.

“Okay, if you had to choose, which one of the guys would you kiss,” Brit asked.

“Ewww! None and you know it. We’ve already been over this.”

“Oh c’mon. Just tell me. I’ll tell you.”

“Duh, dumbass. You’d kiss your boyfriend Justin!” She grinned.

“Wellllll, if I were single…”

“OH MY GOD! TELL ME!” She laughed.

“I need an answer from you.”

“Okay, but you go first,” I whined.

“Okay…JC!” I burst out laughing and so did she.

“Jace! Oh, I can’t wait to tell him!”

“Don’t you dare!”

“You know I wouldn’t.”

“Good…so, how about you?” I blushed and covered my face with my hands.

“Promise not to get mad?” She smiled.

“Awww, Sonali, just cuz he’s my boyfriend doesn’t mean I’ve peed around him, marking my territory.” We burst out laughing again.

“I am so embarrassed!”

“Don’t be. And just to let you know, he’s amazing!” Oh, I already knew that, I thought to myself guiltily. Just then, there was a knock at the door, jolting me from my guilty thoughts. It was close to 1am. We both peeked through the door and saw the guys on the other side. We knew it was them, who else would it have been? Brit opened the door.

“Hey sexy baby,” an obviously drunk Justin said. The others started laughing as they held him up. I covered my mouth to stifle my own giggles.

“Oh my god, you idiots! I am NOT dealing with him tonight,” she said, pissed off.

“C’mon B, allllll night long,” he slurred. The guys laughed harder.

“Fuck off Justin,” she said as she stormed across the hall and into her own room, slamming her door shut for added emphasis to know how pissed off she was.

“Okay, Sonali, he’s alllll yours,” Chris said. I realized he was drunk too.

“No. Absolutely not,” I said.

“Well, you see, we have some ‘guests’ waiting for us and Brit’s obviously not dealing with him so we’re gonna just put him on your bed,” Joey said. The others chuckled as Joey and Lance sat him down on the bed, where he immediately fell backwards. I sighed and looked at JC who was grinning. I was so angry I didn’t say anything as I slammed my door shut on them. I turned and made my way to the bed.

“Fuck, what the hell am I supposed to do now,” I asked aloud. I sighed and took off his shoes and jacket. Then I proceeded to lay him in bed, vertically, instead of across it. As I leaned over him, he surprised the hell out of me as he pulled me close to him.

“SURPRISE,” he said with a smile.

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